One Step at a Time - December 2013

[Kradle123]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

FT that is so well said. :h
I do need to make that effort to change my social dynamic. Its to lonely and depressing much of the time. And 2013, while definitely marked with struggles, was most definitely the better for all of you here at MWO.

Have fun in NY and a very merry Christmas with lots of games of Checkers for you! :l

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

Good Morning Precious Family
YAY....checkers for FT!!!
I am blessed that I have a handful of friends outside of this site, but no one other than Hubs knows my deep dark secrets. I am a very social creature, but being that way SOBER is a challenge....
so I have been thinking about that ALOT this past weekend.
I guess I do tend to isolate in the evenings cause my ass is dragging after work.
Alls...Ruby is good, but her FIL is dying and we have been commiserating a lot on FB.
Speaking of FIL"s, hospice is bringing a hospital bed for Pop this week. I went into the bathroom and cried last night at family dinner. He just sits there with his head back, eyes closed and mouth open and he looks dead. Sorry if I am being too graphic. After a good boo hoo, I pulled myself together and went back to preparing dinner.
Nana has this insane idea that he needs to attend the family Christmas Eve gathering and right now we just do what ever she wants.
Ok.....off to work
ps...I want two kittens!!

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

Oh Pauly...hang on to that miserable memory of your hangover OK, sweetie?? I know I will.
I was a mess....ask Nora...I called her!!

[paulywogg]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

Hey all,yes i will remember that feeling Mama,i just wonder how drinking went from fun to making me sad?must be a brain chemistry change,hubs is no help when i told him i felt like drinking he said"good you can buy me some too"dick! he always things hes gonna get to "play checkers"when i drink,shoot not anymore i just turn into a bummed out heap,2 days of work then off for 3 actually im scheduled for thursday but i think its gonna be slow,i havent decided if ill go or not,hope everyone has a great monday

[Kradle123]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

NoraC;1601587 wrote: Oh Mama - I'm so sorry. I didn't want to say anything because everyone has been struggling so hard but I did the same thing. So, time to get my head screwed back on too. I love you girl.

Dottie - good for you. Great that you fought your way thru it. :

Well, ok so here I am following up...I have also fallen:upset: not hangover hard but enough to be in a WTF moment.

And hers another angle for me..it's mainly due to my loss of all my friends this last year...I am way social like you Mama so this is justv a slow awful death to me... I actually texted Janet last night ....she my bestest, closest person in the world...I asked if it was an ok time to give her a call. We only began texting again last July after almost six months of silence....
She said it wasn't a good time because her dad was just coming out from the hospital...
Well, back in the day, we would have been on the phone constantly with updates...I would have done whatever she needed to help.
I also don't even know where the hell she is anymore because she lives about 20 mi notes from me and her dad is in Florida!! So unless she moved there or they'd moved here...
Maybe you can pop over Mama and give me an update...

Anyway, there's my confession as well. Mama I hadn't read back far enough so I'm sorry I didn't realize you were upset:l you are a huge inspiration to me, truly. And I am so so glad that Bret is being kind to you. That is incredibly important. My DH is also having some golden moments these days. ...and not be doing the excuse thing but ...the pain and stress of Pop must be very hard to bare... I was reading some of Alky's posts where he talked about loosing his Dad and all the things which followed that. There's just no easy way with this:l

Pauly I was reading your journal- I love it. You are very honest and real which is the only way we have to be to get better. Sometimes I am in such a fog I just forget what I'm doing here...
Nora I saw the FB picks- they are wonderful but I have to ask...how in the world did you all get an ice house...9 degrees no less..in the middle of California?? :H

Today is Mathieu's Birthday...that's pretty much all I can say aboute that.
Love you all. Sedona has the Orthodontist this morning....yea...
:h

PS: Dottie you are doing so great and I love your dog bed purchase! I need something like that now only in a litter box...

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

Happy Birthday Sweet Mathieu!!
Glad to know I inspire Kradle. Not intentional, but I think sharing honestly helps you realize you are not alone.
Much love
Mama

[Sunbeam]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

Hi friends,
I just wanted to pop in and wish you all the best possible holiday season. Thank you all for helping me be af throughout 2013, that is the best gift I can ever hope for.

My MIL passed away in October, with funeral in November. Mama, I know that open mouth posture very well. At least she is at peace now.

So it will be a sadder Christmas, but life doesn't stand still, does it?

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

yes, Sunbeam it does.
Good to see you

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

Hi Everyone!

I just skimmed the past few days and I just wanted to say: Mama :l Nora :l Pauly:l

It's okay, sometimes we need that horrible reminder. I was SO CLOSE last week to throwing in the towel myself. So thank you ladies for letting me live through you and realize it's SO NOT WORTH IT!!!!

Anyway, I still love you all mucho!

Ok, how do I post a picture without Photobucket? I'm still denied access. I guess I could just change my avatar.

I went to the gym Saturday AND Sunday! Yay...I loved it! I need to change my thrift store addiction back to a gym addiction. LOL

I'll check in later.... :h

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

Sunbeam...just read your permalink....love all the tools you posted

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

Hey Hallee!!
Love, Meredith

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

I changed my pic...I look like a chia pet. LOL

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

YOU DO NOT ding a ling!!!
it's adorable
I am wearing my readers and just leaned across my desk to get a good look...I am sure someone thinks I am humping my desk....
but you look GREAT!!!!

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

Please stop violating your desk Mama! LOL

In about 2 weeks it will be perfect, it usually takes that long for it to grow into what you wanted it to be.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - December 2013

well if I can't play checkers, I can at least hump my desk. Just sayin'
Sister in law just called and went on a 20 minute tirade about Pop's care.....sigh