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[momofthree]

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Unfortunately with three small children I have to cook or they don't eat. My husband comes home from work too late to bring anything. That is a great idea though to just do anything to keep from opening up the bottle. Luckily I threw out the wine this morning and I don't have a vehicle today to go get anymore.

[j-vo]

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momofthree,
Welcome! You have found the right place for support. I see that people have guided you to the toolbox and newbies nest. Excellent places to start. Your knowledge that this isn't the right way to live is half the battle. Now for the other half, check out the toolbox and read plenty! Good luck on your journey.

[Pavati]

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Hi, Momofthree:

I am only on Day 10 and could literally have written your exact words. Why did I let this happen? Why can't I be normal? Why to I want to stop and keep drinking?

I can tell you that 10 days in I feel so great (not perfect, but great). As people above have said, start by reading - especially the toolbox and the Newbies Nest that Nora posted links for (and many others have in their signatures). It will let you know that you are not alone - not by a long shot. There are many of us parents here, non-parents, people of all ages - all of whom suffer from the same affliction. You have made the first step by joining here. Welcome!

[Pavati]

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You still around, Mom?

[momofthree]

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I think I need to come here everyday. I went for a couple of weeks and didn't drink, but when I do I just get so drunk that I say and do things that should never be said. I did it again last night, and I received a phone call this morning from my mother who heard what I said on chat last night. I just give up, I feel like garbage again.