Army thread Saturday 28 December

[JackieClaire]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

What are you more pleased about...........her coming off the mountain or the residency?

[DreamThinkDo]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

Happy news, Molly!

Mind making me a coffee? Busy uploading pics to Blipfoto - great fun - and too lazy to move.

[JackieClaire]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

Bet she did in platforms as well. I'm delighted about the residency, Molls, really delighted.

I've been reading back about what to call ourselves..............doesn't matter one jot than I've accepted I'm an alcoholic any more than if I was diabetic. It's who I choose to tell that's important. There may be more when I've pondered a bit more.

[JackieClaire]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

Hello there Dreamy..........:hallo:

Hope Satz's chat went OK.

[DreamThinkDo]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

JC, I've been thinking about the labelling for a while now: I am not yet ready to call myself an alcoholic/in recovery - but does that mean I'm in denial? Don't know. Now you add a whole new dimension - whom to tell.

The chat could not have been an easy one.

And where is the mountain-descending permanent resident daughter's mum? The kettle must have boiled dry by now!

[DreamThinkDo]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

mollyka;1604063 wrote: Thought you were photobucketing some pics for us just before crimbo??? Go on --- give us a squiz at MrCamp
Memory to put an elephant to shame! Wanted to post some pics of the cherry plums, but PB was soooooooooooo sloooooooooooooow I gave it up as a bad job. Blipfoto is something different. Will tell you about it later - current conversation much more interest. Sorry, no pics of Mr Whatever - really bad at portraits.

mollyka;1604063 wrote: Yeah --- what I am I am --- what I meant about me needing to 'know' it --- is the danger of me getting the 'I'm not as bad as...' etc. particularly in AA you can hear harrowing stories or even that book I was telling you about --- if my addict brain decides that maybe I'm mistaken ..... ya know??

You know, when I first signed on here, long before I started posting, I played that game in my head. And then I started adding "yet" to each exculpating statement - made me very grateful for a lot of things.

[JackieClaire]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

DreamThinkDo;1604062 wrote: JC, I've been thinking about the labelling for a while now: I am not yet ready to call myself an alcoholic/in recovery - but does that mean I'm in denial? Don't know. Now you add a whole new dimension - whom to tell.

Well apart from my volunteer job, Mr JC and the kids and 2 very close friends and the whole of MWO and my doctor that's about it but I'll bet you there a good few others have guessed. Been carried home more times than I care to mention and that was just from next door.

New people..........I don't make a song and dance, I just say I don't drink if I'm asked. I used to go into all sorts of arm waving explanations never mentioning heavy drinking but now it's just a 'I don't drink'.

Don't reckon you're in denial at all, you're here aren't you.:l

[DreamThinkDo]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

In the end, does it really matter what you call yourself - or not call yourself - as long as you know that you can't drink?

[JackieClaire]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

Exactly, Dreamy, exactly.

[JackieClaire]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

It was usually when I hit fresh air and then came the not going out at all and home drinking.

[DreamThinkDo]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

mollyka;1604063 wrote: when I meet a fellow 'non-drinker' how OFTEN their ears prick up when I say I used to drink --- deffo fellow travellers I always reckon:H

Absolutely. "I gave up booze because I prefer coffee to wine" doesn't really cut it, does it?

[sweetpea29]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

Evening ladies :wavin:

Good to see ye back Dreamydoo:l

One drunken tearful night many years ago told my Dad that I thought I was an alcoholic- he poo-pooed it and basically said it was just a matter of moderation, blah, blah....Don't know whether he doesn't understand or want to understand or whether he's just uncomfortable around it all- lot of alcoholics in his family, so now he knows I don't drink but he never asks why or anything about it so I just don't bring it up.
Bit the head of my baby bro this morn when he came over to me at the 'puter at home and asked was I working- told him it was private clear off. Then felt sooooo bad so spoke to him on the side and told him I was one year off the booze today, he hugged me and said that's great. Just feel I cant tell them of this place as I don't want them prying and reading what I write, but maybe that is totally wrong?!
None of them except the brother who lived with me knew the extent of my drinking and don't even think he realised just how bad I had got. Anyways, I would have no problem telling them that I had a problem, but with strangers and even friends it's a different story.

My family are not very good at discussing things in the open, hence the tensions over past week. I love them to bits and they me but it is oh so bloody good to be back in my own space tonight. My head is hurting from pent-up tension and nearly anger.

Anyways, sorry for the ramble ladies How are yis all?

[JackieClaire]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

DreamThinkDo;1604081 wrote: Absolutely. "I gave up booze because I prefer coffee to wine" doesn't really cut it, does it?
Not really, no.

mollyka;1604083 wrote: Yeah when i got that id b worried bout pacing myself thats when the home alone drinking started - much more fun -yeah!!?? What a joke!!!! Didnt see ANYTHING wrong with it at the time - FFS!!

I was just being sooooooooooo sophisticated with my nice glass of Chablis in the living room for sipping and the cheap shite tucked in the fridge for glugging.

[DreamThinkDo]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

I had a brilliant excuse: I live on my own, so why can't I drink on my own at home? /insert shake head smiley here/

And sweetest Giada has just brought me a cricket as a peace offering - she's been very sniffy about being left home alone while her human bean was off having fun with the family.

[DreamThinkDo]

Army thread Saturday 28 December

Sweetiepeapie - hugs again on your big day.

I see nothing wrong about not telling people about the site - this is my confessional (and many other things too). I've often wondered if I'd steer a friend here: I truly hope that I'd be unselfish enough to do so.