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[little beagle]

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Thank you Betty. I am working at it with all I have.
When I was not sleeping last night, watching videos on YouTube about the 12 steps, it was kind of surreal. Many people talking about it being a cult. Definately confusing to me. I believe I am just going to stick with MWO for now and keep doing what I have been for the past 9 months. Its working for me.
Not drinking for this long has gotten my brain really working again. It seems I am questioning everything these days. Relearning things even. I was closed to so much for so long, everything coming back so quick, I kind of had a little breakdown. Went a little crazy for a few weeks.
Sorry guys.
Now I am coming out of it a little, feeling more myself today. What a relief.
I read about transitions in the toolbox. I feel that this was a big one for me.
But I did not give in, I did not drink and I came out the other side stronger then ever.
I will rember this day as a turning point in my sobriety. I am going to make it.

[NoSugar]

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little beagle;1614214 wrote: I am going to make it.

Yes, I think you are, too, and you're bringing others along with you and helping some ahead of you stay as committed as you. :h NS

[bettygirl]

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you will make it...we are all rooting for you!



( I hope im not perceived as an AA pusher...Im not! )

[little beagle]

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Betty anything that works for an individual.

[little beagle]

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In the past I drank AT the problem of the addiction of my loved one. Now we have added two more to the group. No they are not currently in my environment daily, but they are still in my heart and thoughts.
I have recently been searching for the Reasons for their addictions. There are so many confusing schools of thought by very well educated people. They have emotional detachment disorder, they suffered physical abuse, they are in deep psychic pain.
Well I have to say this. Like Sigmund Freud said, sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.
Maybe they just enjoy getting high. It feels good to them and they do not see this as a problem.
Remember watching one of those confusing movies that you waited the whole movie through for it to make sense and in the end you were still just as confused?
This is like that. We sometimes have to accept the fact that there is just NO answer to that confusing question of why.
But this is one thing we can do to make it bearable for ourselves.
We do not have to put ourselves through the pain of watching them self destruct. To make their descent comfortable and easy while our lives fall apart because of their actions. Sometimes the hard decision to separate our lives from their's is the Right decision.
Just my thought for the weekend.

[spuddleduck]

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little beagle;1615636 wrote: In the past I drank AT the problem of the addiction of my loved one. Now we have added two more to the group. No they are not currently in my environment daily, but they are still in my heart and thoughts.
I have recently been searching for the Reasons for their addictions. There are so many confusing schools of thought by very well educated people. They have emotional detachment disorder, they suffered physical abuse, they are in deep psychic pain.
Well I have to say this. Like Sigmund Freud said, sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.
Maybe they just enjoy getting high. It feels good to them and they do not see this as a problem.
Remember watching one of those confusing movies that you waited the whole movie through for it to make sense and in the end you were still just as confused?
This is like that. We sometimes have to accept the fact that there is just NO answer to that confusing question of why.
But this is one thing we can do to make it bearable for ourselves.
We do not have to put ourselves through the pain of watching them self destruct. To make their descent comfortable and easy while our lives fall apart because of their actions. Sometimes the hard decision to separate our lives from their's is the Right decision.
Just my thought for the weekend.

thank you x

[DipGal]

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LB, I am so glad you seem to have rediscovered your happier place.. and knowing that you cannot fix the people you love who are self-destructing. I hope to learn from you! And, from the books I am reading about addiction.

I have had a bit of a backslide and have been practicing a couple of my addictions (casino and AL) over the weekend - mostly to escape my situation here at home. I am reading some great addiction books that are helping me to understand myself and dh. And, although it will be hard work, I know it will be worth it once I get to the other side.

I ordered Naltrexone for DH and I and am reading The Sinclair Method book.. I have hope. My "choice" is to get myself out of the victim mindset and start taking some positive action steps.

((hugs)) to all and thanks for being here!

[little beagle]

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I always feel better taking action to change things. It isn't always easy, I know. Any time af is a posative thing.