I give up

[Elizabeth]

I give up

Hey maybe I should be weak, not to photos.. not go to the bush... maybe not write.... and then my lover, sister and everyone else will feel better about their dam lives.. I'VE HAD ENOUGH. THE WORLD CAN GO TO HELL. Its just too dam complicated to explain.

[Guest]

I give up

What is the expression no one can make you feel inferior without your permission? Elizabeth take back your permission. You are superior!
Mar

[Elizabeth]

I give up

If I was some weak little s..t I would listen to u all.

I don't have children, I dont have a husband (both my choice), but I spend my life creacting beautiful things, that is how I make my living. BUT....Oh no.... I'm not allowed to do that and succeed. Stupid ME. So join the club in seeing me fail.....thats what everyone here is hoping for.

....oh Don't think for one second that I am looking for your sorrow. I'M NOT.

I think u r all magic

[Guest]

I give up

I get it Elizabeth someone attacked your creativity. right. Jealousy? i have been mocked made fun of, for my creativity. You chose the life you have and you love it! You have no one to apologize to/or for. Sweep it under the rug and forget about it. It is pure talent that is never truly immediately appreciated.
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[Arial]

I give up

Hey Elizabeth,

Can you just tell us what's going on? Sometimes just spelling it out can unburden some of it ... we're ready to listen ....

Hang in there until things turn that corner - :l

[Elizabeth]

I give up

Hey... I'm just a Kenyan... living in Tanzania. What do I do for a living? Hey funny.... I create art. Photos, unusual frames...... whatever (I'm not going to bore u). It is MY TOTAL LIVE, something I have brought for. I produce some art that Tanzania goes apeshit for....WELL GUESS WHAT? My lover pitches up and goes apeshit because everyone is so estatic about my art. I eventually have to leave .....not because I AM PISSED BUT BECAUSE MY OTHER HALF CAN'T HANDLE ME GETTING CREDIT. This is just the top of the iceberg.....I've not talked about it all cos u all have lots of your own probs..... and I don't believe in bothering u r my family about it. But I am going to disappear soon. Disappear back into the bush...and my other half can go to hell.

[Guest]

I give up

Against the grain.........

Elizabeth,
You posted a very poignant message for me when I was feeling very down. I remain a btl of wine a night drinker, as I have yet to find the guts to take the plunge. However, I know I will stop drinking, just can`t say when yet.
I believe that I am a very deep-thinker, a woman with heightened sensitivity, like yourself, and many others at MWO.You are among people who truly care here.

STAY, and we shall all overcome the lure of the deadly booze together.

My thoughts are with you,
Starlight Impress

[Guest]

I give up

He can go to hell, but don't make me come over there and look for you, I'd get eaten by a lion and you would feel terrible? Make you smile? just a little.Ummm maybe not. Be angry you are going to do what you want but don't you dare leave this sight. you and your insights are to important. You can tell us anything that is what this site is for. we will listen anytime. You would be sorely missed
Mar

[Beaches]

I give up

Jealousy is the best compliment. That's how I was brought up. Continue your career and decide whether your partner/lover is someone you need to keep in your life.

[Arial]

I give up

You're right - get angry! But make sure the person you hurting most isn't you. You deserve your success, you obviously have a wonderful talent, so don't be prepared to give that up for someone who, for whatever reason, can't handle it. Jealousy is an incredibly strong and negative emotion - it's horrible to be let down by those special people you love and trust and it will probably take considerable time to determine what's the best way forward - take some time out in the bush if that is what will help give you space to think and plan, scream loudly, shout abuse, do whatever you need to to help get through this time. You're creative, passionate, talented, strong so use all the tools you have at your disposal (and that means us) to help.

"I own my life. And only mine. And so I shall appreciate my person. And so I shall make proper use of myself" (Ruth Beebe Hill)

It is your life - noone else's so you decide, you take back control, you be the person you want to be, and as others have said use this depth of passion to help move you forward from this.

Take care of yourself.

[Elizabeth]

I give up

U figure it. The top people in Arusha (who by the way did not back me, and thought I was dreaming when I started doing my thing). I financed myself, but was certainly backed by my other half (who...by the way LOVED going out with someone 'me' who tracked lions and felt totally at ease with the bush). Actually got him a job here. But oh STUPID ME!!!! finally my artwork was on show today and every ONE LOVED IT tonight. They were all fighting amongst themselves about who was buying !!!!!!!! Hell.. I should have made more.

I've had this feeling for ages to get away..and I must. What I am saying here is just the tip of the iceberg... I've just been an independent for most of my life and don't care to talk about passed isues, becos life is all about going forward.

[Elizabeth]

I give up

Arial... I never lost control. Thats the problem!

[Arial]

I give up

That's the trouble with knowing only the tip of the iceburg! Good luck with whatever you decide to do - however you decide to handle it - I only wish I could see some of your creations!

Take care,

[Beaches]

I give up

Very true Ariel and bottom line Elizabeth is that you need to be true to yourself whatever that means for you. No one's opinions or jealousy can bring you down unless you allow it and I don't think that's in your personality.

[Guest]

I give up

Inner beauty shines outward in creativity. So can you imagine the beauty of her work? fabulous I would wage.
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