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[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Oh GG I am very sorry to hear about your dad. Thank you for your courageous post. I couldnt agree more, this never leaves us. I have first hand exoerience of this with some of my close relatives.

[Anjicia]

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Sunny i'm so sorry to of your dad's passing and picking up a drink again after being for 25+years sober. It really is odat and i guess its something we have to deal with always the good and the bad. I have heard at an AA meeting recently of a lady who was 28 years sober and have had active in AA ended up drinking again and stopped going to the meetings. Take care hun.:l

[myhappyplace]

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Sunny :l I'm sorry about your dad. And thankful to you for sharing this x

[Nelz]

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So sorry for your loss Sunny Hang in there

[Guitarista]

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So sorry to hear of your dad GG. Thanks for sharing.

Take care of yourself.

G bloke.

[Rusty]

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Dear Sunni,

I am sooo sorry for your loss!:l:upset: It's out of character for me, but I am without words, and I just wanted to say how much I admire you for staying sober and dealing with such a tragedy with a clear head. I don't know that I could do it.....really. My sobriety has not been tested as yours has in this situation, and I hope when the time comes I have your strength. Your dad was lucky to have such a loving daughter like you.:h

What you, Molly, and Byrdie described is really true, and has been confirmed by my aunt, who is active in AA....that for an alcoholic, ALL it takes is that first drink to put your brain right back to AL addiction mode, where it started from, and there's just no stopping it.

Thank you for taking the time, and having the guts (and ovaries of brass, too ) to post this at such a sad time.

I will call you tonight.

xoxox
Crusty

[tawnyfrog]

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I'm so sorry. Thank you for your poignant post.

[K9Lover]

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Awww Sunni :l So sorry about your dad. Thank you for sharing his story. I hate to think of the struggle he went through during his last time here on earth. Let this all be a lesson to us. Thank you and my thoughts are with you!! :l:l

[bettygirl]

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so sorry for your loss, sunny. but I thank you for your reminder of how cunning, baffling and powerful alcoholism is.

:l

peace

[nicelife]

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Sunny - I am deeply saddened to hear about your loss! I wish comfort for you during this time.

Having relapsed epically once during the last 10 years of trying to remain sober, I understand the dynamic of this beast. More importantly, I respect and absolutely fear it!

You are so right, guarding our sobriety is a must.

Love and light to you lovely girl.
XXXXXX

[dill]

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Sunni, thank you for the important message. I have taken it to heart. I'm sorry for your loss. What a blessing it was that your Dad lived all those sober years for himself, his wife and family.

[mama bear]

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Oh Sunni - I am sorry I did not read this sooner. I am terribly sorry for the loss of your father. We are suffering a similar loss together, so know that my heart aches with yours.
I am also sorry for the shock you must be suffering upon hearing about garbage bags full of bottles. Thank you for the reminder of the dangers of AL, but more importantly remember and love your father as the fragile human he was and cherish your happy memories. Do not let this news destroy the love you feel for him. Much love, sweetie.

[fennel]

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So sorry about your dad, sunshine...thanks for sharing his sad story. Really makes one think. :h

[sunshine_gg]

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I revisited this thread just today and would like to thank all of you for your well wishes.

I'd also like to share with you what I have learned in the meantime:

My dad's drinking started again sometime last summer. He was dead in less than 9 months.

The cause of death was a heart attack. Aided by a skull fracture and small brain bleed sustained during a fall the afternoon prior. He had been taken to the hospital, got a couple of stitches and was supposed to stay for observation and further exams. He declined and signed himself out. Upon arrival at the hospital his BAC was 1.6.

Someone wondered if I was angry. Actually, I am not. Nor was I when this first happened. I felt (and sometimes still feel) terribly helpless and sad. It is hard to understand that someone who stood so solid in sobriety for so long, was dragged back into the hell of drinking. My heart aches thinking of the lonely hours my dad spent - with a bottle. I almost made the journey into guilt... but my dad had all of the tools required. At the senior's center where he lived, there even was a weekly AA meeting. I don't think me living closer would have made any difference.

I view my dad's passing in this way as a gift from him to me (and my son). I hope that I will prove worthy of that gift. I'm not gonna lie; there have been moments of 'f*ck it' thoughts. Thoughts of 'If he couldn't do it, who in the hell am I kidding, thinking I can do it?' But those thoughts pass. I want to live. And I very much want my dad's death to mean something.

Again, I thank all of you and I sincerely hope that if ever 'f*ck it' thoughts creep up on you, you will remember that alcohol kills. Period.

[SKendall]

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You said it all.:l:l

Thank you on behalf of many with the "f***k it all moments.:h