Ah depression, I welcomed my escape into it sometimes, as strange as that may sound. Lack of caring, not having to feel or deal with things head on, just wallow in the self pity. Of course our old 'friend' AL is always there feeding those negative thoughts and pain isn't he.
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Ah depression, I welcomed my escape into it sometimes, as strange as that may sound. Lack of caring, not having to feel or deal with things head on, just wallow in the self pity. Of course our old 'friend' AL is always there feeding those negative thoughts and pain isn't he.Ethanol is a toxic chemical, why would I drink it?
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Army Thread Tuesday 4th March
Morning army its a lovely Spring morning here nice sunny spells but still bit cold. Off to ladies AA meeting at one. I got some spring bedding plants over the weekend so i'll pot those this afternoon if it stays dry. I like gardening also but not weeding and mowing loads of grass. Hoping to get a patio done this summer and a nice wooden shed. Too much grass makes the garden high maintenance and I wish I didn't put that hedge along the wall another bugger to keep at bay. Ah sure i'll get there yet. Get well soon Molly have a couch day and don't go back to work till you feel better. Have a terrific Tuesday folks.:cupajoe::flower::lilflower::rays:
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Army Thread Tuesday 4th March
Had a read back and then thought I'd better get ready for work.............it's quite casual but there might be a a raised eyebrow at a fake fur pink leopard skin dressing gown.
Little bit of anxiety going on as remember the lassie that passed out drunk last week, I'm afraid to say she turned up again a little worse for wear............today's the day she's having a bit of a 'chat' with her key worker. It's starting to affect the other clients. Any way it is not my problem but I really feel for her.
KTAB;1634005 wrote: That's why I feel a bit more positive today. As you probably know AL robs me of any great enthusiasm to do anything.
Me too
mollyka;1634006 wrote: I didn't realise that was the case when I was drinking -- I 'happily' separated my feelings of numbness and lack of interest in things --- lack of emotions really from my drinking issue --- laid all that at the feet of 'depression' --- if I'd only truly believed that the whole root cause of almost all that was wrong in my life was the grog ---- it causes major problems -- but it also causes so many insidious little ones in our lives it's uncanny!!!
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KTAB;1634009 wrote: Ah depression, I welcomed my escape into it sometimes, as strange as that may sound. Lack of caring, not having to feel or deal with things head on, just wallow in the self pity. Of course our old 'friend' AL is always there feeding those negative thoughts and pain isn't he.
mollyka;1634011 wrote: Haha --- I know EXACTLY what you mean -- it was like I just gave up struggling and yeah 'wallowed' is the word --- 'poor me, poor me.......'etc!! - yup the booze is the fuel for so much of it --- that is not to say that people without drink problems suffer from depression or indeed all depressed alcoholics don't necessarily become 'un-depressed' when they stop drinking -- but imo an awful lot do ---- certainly I did anyway..... but it's not that clear cut when we ARE drinking --- everything is a bit of a muddle really isn't it!
I was a depressed alkie but I may as well have chucked the anti-ds down the bog..........now I'm all sobery they're doing the job it says on the packet.It could be worse, I could be filing.
AF since 7/7/2009
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Army Thread Tuesday 4th March
Noon all I haven't greeted yet - Sweetiepeapie who's wanting coffee, Foxy who's meeting and and JC who's orificing.
mollyka;1634026 wrote: Have a good day Jackieclaire -- really hope that poor lady sorts herself out --- I feel for her so much - I really really do --- it's so easy to think 'ah get a grip' --- and we all know --- it's so hard to 'get that grip'!!! Once we have it -- to throw it away is a travesty imvvvvho :-)
Laters love --- now deciding between a rock bun or a sausage batch loaf sandwich ---- DECISIONS!!!!
Yes, that grip - probably the world's most difficult thing to catch and hold on to. It took me long enough to get it - please let me never let go of it.14 October 2013 was the first day of the best days of my life!
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Army Thread Tuesday 4th March
Spag bol is always good. Had planned an elaboratish meal, then settled for a good old cheese and tomato sandwich. :H:H:H
Hate it when I have unexpected visitors and the house looks like a demolition site. So, bolting stable doors with horses gone, I'm in tidying-up mode. Anybody who would like to join me is more than welcome.14 October 2013 was the first day of the best days of my life!
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Army Thread Tuesday 4th March
:waving: Molly and Tips and everybody else
Yes, chillies. Hen hunting in your fragile state? Are you off tomorrow as well - if you're still off your feed I think you should be!
Thanks for reminding me of Brideshead Revisited - going to tuck myself in bed with it.
Oh, and I couldn't bolt the door - it was my own personal blueberry consultant, coming to see why my babies were not thriving. Mission of mercy, sort of.14 October 2013 was the first day of the best days of my life!
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:hallo: and good evening
Spag bog here as well but no pancakes.
Amazingly the lady seems to be back on track............she had a little booster chat and seems to have taken everything all on board.............fingers crossed.
That picture is just fabulous, Dreamy.It could be worse, I could be filing.
AF since 7/7/2009
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Army Thread Tuesday 4th March
Been trying to get the BR DVD for ages; so it's the dead tree version.
I didn't get many blueberries last year, but the bushes are still young, so hoping for a better harvest this year. May be hoping in vain.
Off to bed myself - just popped in to say good night and sweet dreams to all. :l:l:l14 October 2013 was the first day of the best days of my life!
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Army Thread Tuesday 4th March
:waving: Shite day - thouroughly pissed off with being dumped with more work - someone else doesn't want ! Then being where I am I can see who gets what - and I'm not happy at all. Being totally taken for granted. Going to go sick soon - for a long time I think. See how that works for them !!!
mollyka;1634136 wrote:
Had a pig of a day -- well --- a chicken sorta one ---- the poor aul thing was wandering around as she does and a cat came in and terrified her --- she literally flew over quite a high wall --- she was gone all day -- I walked around all the gardens and fields around us --- knocking on doors to see had they seen her an all --- eventually had given up about 4pm and feeling very sad was looking through a gap in the hedge --- there's a creche next door to me --- there she was --- as bold as brass tapping her beak on their front door --- what a RELIEF!!!! AND --- wild animals my eye --- I went running round to get her --- and she ran towards me when I called her --- what an ADVENTURE!!!! -- I'll have to cordon off some of the garden now tho......What's her name Molls ?
DreamThinkDo;1634139 wrote: :waving: Molly and Tips and everybody else
Oh, and I couldn't bolt the door - it was my own personal blueberry consultant, coming to see why my babies were not thriving. Mission of mercy, sort of.
Sewing Bee - BBC 2 - love it !
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