Hi everyone. I felt an intense need to talk to you all this evening... it gives me strength. Been quite a full day rushing to finalise my latest graphics for print, noticed a MAJOR mistake just in the nick of time and had to reformat the art work.. but thank goodness it was sorted. By this evening I felt knackered, had smoked far too many cigs (having abstained totally for 3 days!!) and found myself 'thinking' about dropping by for a few soft drinks with friends at the club (after 4 days of no alcoholic drinks). Luckily the right worm niggled my brain and reminded me that seeings I'd broken my promise of not smoking I'd probably break my resolution not to drink alcohol as well, if I so much as entered the club!
Anyways I drove home and poured myself a cranberry juice, swallowed a Kudzu and quickly switched on to here. I actually felt fear whilst driving home. Guess it was the thought that my new found determination could be so easily compromized and the fact that no one here knows what I'm trying to beat alone.
Its been a weird 7 days leading up to here. Lots of stress with graphics and the offer of a consultancy job in the bush for 2 months, which after a lot of thought I declined because my business cannot sustain my absence for that long. Rather ironic considering I was ready to fly the coop several days back because my personal life is weighing me down!!!
I'm determined to be very positive and know I can do this. Its just a bit scarey right now.
I read Niblet's advice aimed at Charlotte under the category 'My own storey' and it was like a life line. Her words hit me smack between the eyes and was just what I needed to read. I've saved the piece " You TEACH people how to TREAT you " on my desktop - for contiuous referal. I'd stick it on my office wall but have too many clients coming round to see their graphics.
I'm going to go back on the Abstinence board and I'm going to do this.... SO ALL OF YOU, IF I SOUND WOBBLY OR RANT & RAVE HERE PLEASE BARE WITH ME. When I first joined here I did 27 days abs... now I want to do 30 and then some more! By then I will have cleared a lot of baggage out of my life... and well ....I'll take it from there. :thanks: for being here.
Anyways I drove home and poured myself a cranberry juice, swallowed a Kudzu and quickly switched on to here. I actually felt fear whilst driving home. Guess it was the thought that my new found determination could be so easily compromized and the fact that no one here knows what I'm trying to beat alone.
Its been a weird 7 days leading up to here. Lots of stress with graphics and the offer of a consultancy job in the bush for 2 months, which after a lot of thought I declined because my business cannot sustain my absence for that long. Rather ironic considering I was ready to fly the coop several days back because my personal life is weighing me down!!!
I'm determined to be very positive and know I can do this. Its just a bit scarey right now.
I read Niblet's advice aimed at Charlotte under the category 'My own storey' and it was like a life line. Her words hit me smack between the eyes and was just what I needed to read. I've saved the piece " You TEACH people how to TREAT you " on my desktop - for contiuous referal. I'd stick it on my office wall but have too many clients coming round to see their graphics.
I'm going to go back on the Abstinence board and I'm going to do this.... SO ALL OF YOU, IF I SOUND WOBBLY OR RANT & RAVE HERE PLEASE BARE WITH ME. When I first joined here I did 27 days abs... now I want to do 30 and then some more! By then I will have cleared a lot of baggage out of my life... and well ....I'll take it from there. :thanks: for being here.
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