Since I have been at MWO, I have always labeled myself an alcoholic with no qualifications. And where wine is concerned, that much is true. Yet, I have a lot of AL accessible to me right now and I couldn't care less about any of it. It actually sounds downright unappealing. All I crave is wine. So I am deep in thought right now, which can be dangerous. If it was the buzz I was craving, wouldn't vodka, or beer, or gin do the trick for me? Instead, I have an aversion to all of it (always have) and would rather drink water. So what is it about white wine? I know to many here this will sound like nit-picking, that I'm just trying to strip myself of the "alcoholic label" (I'm not) but I feel like I'm onto to something here. I feel like there is an answer to this riddle and I'm missing it. This may be the key to breaking my addiction once and for all. Well - I realize that not drinking wine is the answer to ending my addiction, but it sure would be nice to eliminate the intense cravings.
I know this may be a controversial post. I'm just truly wondering if my craving for white wine is less about the AL content, and more about something else in the wine that my body is craving. Of course, if that were totally true, I could just drink white grape juice and call it a day, so the AL combined with whatever - sugar, carbs, etc. is the key. Time to do some serious research. A good friend once told me that she read that we crave the very thing we are allergic too. This is only anecdotal of course, and I have no scientific proof to back it up, but it may be something to check out.
Anyone else out there like me - can completely pass on AL unless it's in the right carrier? But God help me when I start on the Pinot. I've lost just about everything dear to me because of my poison of choice so I'm not minimizing my drinking problem, or the devastation it has brought to my life. Truthfully, I'm just confused and thinking out loud.
Thanks all. In the time it took me to write this, another wine craving has been conquered.
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