I have been a moderate to heavy drinker since I was 21. I am 45 now. I abstained for 2 years to conceive/be pregnant with/and nurse my child. I abstained for 1 year while losing 130 lbs because I knew my liver was stressed from the weight loss. Then I went back to drinking my normal (much less than in my 20's), which is more than the experts say is healthy for a woman.
However, I had my rules... I never had even one and then drove; I didn't start until my child was in bed or my husband was watching her. Any way some stressful events led me to begin breaking my rules about 2 years ago, but it didn't get really out-of-control until August and by Christmas I have become physically dependent where I shake so badly when I wake up I need at least a bottle of wine to function. I would keep on for the rest of the day.
I had made to decision not to buy any more of my favorites in the house and quit for awhile beginning today. I am fearful of a week long withdrawal. I woke up yesterday feeling good enough to not drink that morning. I didn't feel that great but decided to stay off the sauce. So I started a day early even though the house is full f wine. I feel even better today.
My question (after all this) is that I see that a lot to people don't even start wd until 2 days into abstinence. lately I have felt I was withdrawing and drunk at the same time. By the afternoon no matter how much I drank, I felt shakey and would throw up and have no appetite. I will go for a week without eating.
I'm hoping the worst is over for me and I will continue to improve and not all of a sudden tomorrow I am back into needing a drink just to feel normal again. My cravings aren't my worst enemy... it is that cycle of needing something to get rid of thst horrible feelings from drinking before.
Let me know your experiences please. Thanks!
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