A couple folks asked me how I've managed to get the drinking in control and what has worked -- so here it is. I respond very well to kudzu which allows me to establish new habits, I've used topa but am not currently taking it, I think these boards make abs/mods a daily goal that is somehow alot more tangible than just a nagging thought or vague goal that I ought to cut back or quit or do something different. I haven't used the tapes (that's my ace in the hole if I ever need it). I read the book and reread parts every now and then.
So, no magic bullet -- I think I am the perfect candidate for this program. I certainly had a drinking problem, but I was more to the middle of the progression than to the point I had serious health or relational issues and fortunately had not yet caused any damage to myself or others.
I did abs for about 70 days and then, with much trepidation, began to moderate. I have to say that I was not sure I could do it. But, it's been good. I can have a glass or two of wine when we're out to dinner or for a special occasion. But, I don't come home and start pouring when I start making dinner and fall asleep with an empty glass on the nightstand and wake up wondering what I said or did, what I read or wrote. I don't feel crappy each day and eat a ton of food trying to feel better and using the hangover as an excuse to not exercise or get work done, etc. I don't have guilt each day about abusing myself and cheating my family out of a mom who isn't a drunk. There is no greater feeling than the absence of guilt -- I think I get high on it!
I don't think I have all the answers, but for right now, it's working and I believe I can do this for a long, long time.
Thanks for all the kind words -- I really did miss all of you.
So, no magic bullet -- I think I am the perfect candidate for this program. I certainly had a drinking problem, but I was more to the middle of the progression than to the point I had serious health or relational issues and fortunately had not yet caused any damage to myself or others.
I did abs for about 70 days and then, with much trepidation, began to moderate. I have to say that I was not sure I could do it. But, it's been good. I can have a glass or two of wine when we're out to dinner or for a special occasion. But, I don't come home and start pouring when I start making dinner and fall asleep with an empty glass on the nightstand and wake up wondering what I said or did, what I read or wrote. I don't feel crappy each day and eat a ton of food trying to feel better and using the hangover as an excuse to not exercise or get work done, etc. I don't have guilt each day about abusing myself and cheating my family out of a mom who isn't a drunk. There is no greater feeling than the absence of guilt -- I think I get high on it!
I don't think I have all the answers, but for right now, it's working and I believe I can do this for a long, long time.
Thanks for all the kind words -- I really did miss all of you.
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