Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

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Thanks for the support everyone. As far as triggers go , I think it's just everything piling up...work, taking care of kids, family issues and husband away on business and the straws seem to be just piling up, and piling up. Then there is just that one small thing,like my son throwing a massive temper tantrum when I'm completely exhausted and the urge to consume AL is like a tidal wave. And this wave is going to run right over you and wash you up onto some unknown shore. And a part of you doesn't care you just want to go along for the ride. The feeling to "escape" even for a little while is still ingrained in me and I used AL to accomplish this for sooooo long. I am trying other ways to cope: fitness, reading, baking for others, so many things but sometimes it feels like it is not enough. Sorry for the ramblings, just scared , thought I was past feeling so vulnerable. That is why this place is a god send.

So minstar, mama, and piper, remember there is no judgement here, people are here to help, it is not easy and at least for me, impossible to do alone. :hug:

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BIG CONGRATS PAULY !!! One month is Awesome! :sohappy:

[MinStar]

Thanks guys.

Congrats on one month Pauly.


OH. I hear you on that tidal wave and so many triggers. Glad you stayed strong.

itutorials. Now that's an idea. Lol

I hope to start today stronger than ever. Did have a glass with hubby last night after fighting temptation all evening. I just need to focus.

All Al out of house bar the little wine from last night. I shall be ridding the house of that too.

Why so many day one?!? I hope today everyone is strong.

[abcowboy]

Morning quitters! My sobriety calendar tells me it's that time again...



BeachGirly on your 4 month milestone!

[BeachGirly]

Cowboy - you are so fantastic!
Thank you very much!

[paulywogg]

Hello friends, Beachy congratulations honey that's so wonderful, just got back from grocery shopping a chore I hate!but at least it's done, not much else planned for the day, have Louie later so I'm sure my tv viewing is gonna be boring today, golf, basketball or something haha, hope everyone is enjoying their Sunday

[abcowboy]

Pauly, you watching the Master's Final Round?

[paulywogg]

Not by choice Cowboy haha,Louie's 2 though so basically whatever keeps him calm and out of trouble

[abcowboy]

Howdy everyone! Half past noon here and the Master's Final Round is underway! And the NHL Stanley Cup Playoffs start Wednesday, hockey every night, but alas, my Oilers missed playoffs yet again... Oh well, 5 Canadian teams are in so hopefully the Cup will get north of the border this year! Since 2003 the kids and us, along with their partners have an annual hockey playoff pool with a big trophy awarded to the winner at the end.

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Bubba and I started the pool so that at least once a year we are all together, even miles apart! And no, the pic isn't at our house lol, it resided last year at our son's as our DIL won the pool last year. But you can see that my son's DOC is the same as his dad's (was) right down to the Budweiser's. He is fortunate enough to know when to stop though, unlike his old man haha.

Have a fantastic Sunday everyone!

[BeachGirly]

oh boy - hockey - my fav time of year (I am being sarcastic ).

But good for you Cowboy having this family challenge. What fun for you all. Love those silly things families do. We have a bowling trophy that keeps going around.

Pauly - one month - Way to go GIRL!!!!

HI to everyone. Keep up the good work, and keep reading and posting as everyone has said.

[Lizann]

Beachygirl congrats on four months! How does it feel?
Cowboy, this happens to be my daughters least favorite time of year,because there's hockey on every single night. Such is the life of a wife.
Pauly I love grocery shopping! One of my favorite things to do, since I was a little girl going with my mom!
MinStar how was your day? Those first few days are tough. I've had a ton of day ones myself.
Busy day for me. Got things done around here as I will likely be working all week plus overtime. Walked with my boys and the dog. Just beautiful out. Did some shopping on my own and got a new pair of shoes! You know, because I need another pair. I live in a county with "blue laws". Does anyone else, or is that just right here. Just wondering. Off to chill a bit and into bed early.

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Way to go BeachyGirl! 4 months rocks!:hug:

[Ginger999]

Beachy! Four months! You rock!

[paulywogg]

Hello friends, Liz,what's a blue law?took my walk and my mind started wandering and it put me in a funk a little started thinking about the past and the future, too much thinking! I really need to focus on now,for now, suppose the other stuff will work itself out anyways, hope everyone has a lovely Monday

[abcowboy]

Morning everyone! Not much to comment on, but I will share something that brought a few tears to my eyes last night. Bubba and I are usually in bed by 9 every night then read for 30 - 45 minutes before lights out. Last night as I was reading, Bubba reached over and kissed me on the cheek and said "thank you" A kiss isn't unusual, but the thank you seemed a bit strange to me so I asked her why? She said that she had hoped and prayed that this quit was finally going to be the last one after my night in the hospital, that she didn't think she could handle going through that again. And every day that she came home from work she worried that my truck wouldn't be in the driveway. She told me that there was no way I could understand the relief she felt when she turned the corner onto our street and saw the truck! She said that she believed that I was sincere this time in my vow to her to quit drinking forever. With a tear or two in my eyes, I reached over and gave her a kiss, and said thank you to her for not giving up on me! And I made a promise to her that I would always text her to explain the reason if my truck wasn't in the driveway when she turned the corner. That the reason could be anything, but it would never again be that I was drinking!

Even though we are taking this journey for ourselves, to get back the person we used to be, we are also doing it for our loved ones. And something as simple as what Bubba said to me last night made me realize all the pain and suffering that I put her through. That something as simple as my truck not being in the driveway could affect her that way. I guess it goes to show you that the we were more selfish when we were drinking, that no one else mattered to us as much as the next drink! So if you're struggling, or wondering why you are taking this journey, just give your loved one a kiss on the cheek and say thank you!

Not enough time to mention everyone today, but MS, piper, and mama, stick with it and you'll one day earn your kiss on the cheek! And pauly, you have a couple of cheeks that will get my boot if you don't make it through this week lol, this time you are going to get past week 5 and way beyond!

Have a great day my friends, stay away from the bad stuff eh, a kiss on the cheek is much more satisfying!