Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

[abcowboy]

Just a quick check in and a belated Happy Anniversary Ginger! Things are good in my world, finally over the "funk" Will be back tonight... have a great one my friends, a new month for the new us!

[Lizann]

Good morning everyone. I read back last night, but was too tired to post.
Turnagain thank you so much for your post. Profound indeed. I will use some of these positive mind sets as I continue on my journey!
Had a good day yesterday. Did a 5k in the morning. Then went to my daughters bfs new cafe and painted for hours! There was a bunch of us there and it was actually a good time. We worked for a good ten hours! You'd think that I would've slept good, alas I did not. Nightmares all night, perhaps it was from all the paint fumes!
Anyway off to my usual Monday chores. Have a good one.

[paulywogg]

Happy June everybody been dealing with a lot of anxiety this past week, I think its cuz one daughter is here from Portland with her boyfriend and my oldest daughter is having boyfriend issues so she's here,its just throwing my routine off and making me feel stressed, I love them of course, I'm just used to my usual, hello to all,let's have a nice Monday

[jane27]

Thanks for sharing that Jane,did you feel those 2 relapses coming or were they spur of the moment? "

Pauly, the trip to Vegas was the killer- too many stressors, too early in the quit.

what made your last quit"the one"

December 1st 2013 was my first day not working at the job I'd been in for 16 years. Downsizing had resulted in those left standing absorbing the responsibilities of the ones laid off, and the pressure was unbearable. I went through a huge depression and drank thru December just like any month.The hangovers were bad and my heart pounded in a way that felt unhealthy and ominous. January 1st came and went. On January 7 I woke up at 12pm feeling sick as usual. I had a deeper than conscious feeling that it had to stop. So I just planned to get through the day, and spent most of it in bed. I felt fragile, desperate, scared, disgusted, ashamed and unworthy of posting in the Nest. I felt like the biggest loser in the world and I hated myself. I didn't believe myself on day 2, 3, or 4 - Id have to go back and look through my journal to see when I had the balls to believe that what I was saying (no more AL) was true. I posted in the Nest each day, and I reached out via PM to Byrdie who took me right in under her wing. My attitude about my quit to myself was quiet & sheltered - like a church mouse wearing blinders. Think about nothing and just do this one thing. I focused my energy on self brainwashing. When I made a rare trip outside to the pharmacy to pick up some medication, passing an old liquor store haunt along the way, and felt a yearning pull, I closed my eyes and said "I do not shoot heroin any more.' Using visualization I followed that with "I do not sit down at a table, tie a tourniquet on my arm, and use a needle to shoot heroin into my veins." Never in my life have I even considered doing heroin or using needles. I chose heroin, because I needed something big and scary in order to get AL off the table.
Long answer to your question! Hugs to everyone. Its just one little day :-)

[paulywogg]

Amazing story Jane,thanks for taking the time to open up that has got to be hard being estranged from your mom,has she always been so cold?yeah, LV is tough,when I first moved here I was intrigued by the strip and casinos, now I couldn't give a rat's ass!(well sometimes I'm tempted) but as I said a few days ago,it only took 5 bux and a couple spins on a slot machine to get those addiction balls rolling, kinda freaked me out

[Lizann]

Wow, Jane thanks for sharing. You did have a lot going on!

[open halo]

Thanks for sharing Jane :hug:. Despite a lot of stressful situations you found a way, very proud of you for finding your way out, truly inspiring .

[abcowboy]

Howdy all! Jane, thanks for sharing! I think it's important to hear stories like that, turning points, how it happened for different people. Someone may read those words and it will "click", and they'll start on their last quit...

It's been pretty quiet on our thread, but I think it's the time of year. Everybody is outside enjoying the weather, working on lawns, gardens, etc. But it's also just important that a few are checking in everyday to help any of those who are going through a struggle. Haven't heard from a lot of the regulars lately, so hopefully everyone is doing fine and staying away from temptations... have a good one my friends, remember, every gun has a trigger, that doesn't mean you have to pull it..

[Ginger999]

MAE everyone! Happy Tuesday. Hope you are all hanging in there and reading lots of threads. Jane, thank you so much for sharing your story. ABC is so right about the "click". We just never know when something we post here will click with someone. That's why it's so important to check in!

Not much going on with me. Just dealing with Mom stuff and counting down until my beach trip! Hubs is out of his sling and plugging away on his rehab. Same ol', same ol'.

Read/Post/Read!

[paulywogg]

Hey all,it seems like all of the threads are slow right now Cowboy, I think it's like you said, people are busy outdoors and stuff, hello to all,hopefully we all have a great day, not just good,I want great haha

[Lizann]

Hey all, quick check in for me. Need to get dinner going, then off to my meeting. A very dear friend of our family s husband passed away suddenly yesterday. He was only 66. Still reeling from the shock. Not drinking, just kinda numb. Hope everyone is ok.

[Ginger999]

Oh, Liz, I saw that on FB. I'm so sorry for your friends loss and the loss of a good friend. Take care.

[abcowboy]

Liz, sorry about the bad news.....all involved will be in my thoughts and prayers....

Pauly, you make everyone's day Great!

No quitting everyone!

[paulywogg]

That's cute Cowboy Liz,so sorry about your friend passing, that's too young!was he in an accident?my allergies are in full swing today,darn wind,hope everyone has a good night and I hope people will check in

[BeachGirly]

hi gang...

Liz - so sorry to hear about your friend. Hugs.

I wish I was outside working in the yard - but no, I have had a few busy days of work. Well, not yesterday - I took the entire day off to myself. Spoiled. Even went to bed early. That felt good.

I am still working away at Dr Hymans 8 week blood sugar solution. Basically clean eating, no processed stuff. I am feeling great. There is a huge component of the social community there as well, so trying to post there also. Met two ladies there that are on this same journey, so have invited them to come check us out. Interesting how we meet people these days.

We are into the final few weeks of school for my grade 9 boy. This is the last year at the school, so grad parties etc. He has final exams next week (read - Beachy is studying all weekend). then he has a week camping adventure trip - which has kayaking, rock climbing, team building, camping on a deserted island - so good for them. Dinner dance and then recognition night. Whew - if you don’t hear from me - I am supervising an event, cleaning up - or have crashed and fallen asleep. All fun!!

Stay happy and healthy my friends.