Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

[MinStar]

Hello all and welcome ADD. Glad you're here with us!

How's everyone?!?

friday and I'm feeling weak

I've no Al in so hopefully can ride this out. Kind of sorted things with hubby last night so he is being super friendly today. He has bathtime and I'm sitting here twiddling thumbs and getting my sparkling on.


Thank you cowboy. Your little sentence has made me hold on tight to this seat. I do want this. Why do these thoughts come in.

Well dinner done. So I'm going to stuff my face and hopefully banish these evil thoughts.

Sorry guys. I wish I was more positive. Will post later when kids in bed. X

Stay stron

[Bandit]

Hi folks
Yes, Fridays are tough, well being honest, I find every day tough.
Well done Daisy, hi ADD and hand in there Minstar
Have a good Fri evening everyone

[MinStar]

Evening. Just off to bed. Managed to eat and wave off this craving. I'm scared for what tomorrow brings. I know weekends are a trigger. Heck what isn't grhhh.
Anyway- looking forward to waking up unhungover. Still not particularly wide awake but tonight I don't have baby- hubby taking him- so maybe a full nights sleep will help.

Today I used my usual- wait and eat and then if I still want a drink I can go and get one. I haven't drunk so I can even drive IF I want to get some drink in. I kept reminding myself how I would be starting again on D1, how I feel after an evening of drinking, how I can't stop at just one.

My friends (play date mums) are all what's apping- we were out with then today- all are drinking- heck it's friday they say. Actually by the time I recieved their messages I was full from dinner and was glad to say I wasn't indulging. They've all confess to it being able to drink just a glass- one got small bottle in and then went ahead and opened a full bottle. Makes me wonder 'do they not think that is a problem?'

Anyway more tamblings. Hope everyone managed to stay on their quit. Tomorrow I will feel better to wake with no hangover. I haven't hit double figures in a while and I would like to challenge myself. How about jointing ME?

[daisy45]

Good for you Minstar! Imagine all those sore heads in the morning!

[abcowboy]

Really quick check in, first, Bandit, nice to see you again! And great to see everyone doing well!

Now, another thing I love about MWO is the wealth of knowledge that can be tapped here. It's like having our own Wiki-pedia at our fingertips! I'm sitting here watching another one of my favorite shows "Mayday" and they refer to England, Britain, and the U.K. So Min, and Bandit, and anyone else from the UK, can you explain to me, in language an old cowboy like me can understand, what is the difference between England, Britain, Great Britain, and the UK?? I Googled it and seemed to get conflicting answers! Help please!!

[Knitty]

Hi Cowboy, haven't heard of that show, will have to look out for it. Great Britain/Britain is made up of England, Scotland, and Wales (the total island). The United Kingdom is England, Scotland, Wales, and Northern Ireland. England is just the middle bit with the top (Scotland) and side (Wales) cut off. I'm a transplanted Brit

Welcome ADD! We have all had similar experiences so we understand. Well done on not drinking tonight. I have been trying to just focus on one day without alcohol at a time, just one day, and then when tomorrow comes do the same again. Stay close and ask for help whenever you need it.

Minstar, I'm so glad things with hubby are sorted and better. We can all look forward to waking up feeling wonderful in the morning. I just love hangover-free Saturdays (tomorrow will be my 3rd in a row) - well any day really but Saturdays are especially good

Daisy, what a great swim!! That is fantastic exercise. I need to step up my exercise - have been slacking lately. Bandit, hope you're doing okay. Weekends are always harder. Perhaps quickly eating something and drinking a large glass of water/juice when you have a craving might help fill the emptiness and pass the time until the craving passes? I have also been trying to scare myself each day around 5 pm by thinking about all the harmful things that alcohol can do to the body/brain and it seems to kill my cravings for AL almost before they start, but I have to do that daily as my brain will forget pretty quickly otherwise. Mr. V, you're right about being alone as a trigger. I have had a full house since I quit which has helped me, but in a few weeks it will just be me and my dog for an extended period of time so I need to make a plan.

Pauly, reading your post I have just realized I have not had any dreams recently and I used to have vivid dreams every night. Perhaps I just cannot remember them. I hope you had a lovely day off.

Today was a pretty good day, although time has flown by and I can't believe it is so late already. Must go to bed. Good night all.

[Lizann]

Good morning! Slept a lot better last night. Lucy got up around 3 am and there up again. She ate some chicken and rice, and I gave her her "pill". I may never go on vacation again, I'm exhausted with this dog. Raining today so not sure what I will do. Hopefully Skype with my boy later, have a food one guys,

[Ginger999]

Hi quitters!
Quick check in for me. Had a great AF trip with family. So glad to be able to go like that without the hangovers. They used to be brutal. Off again this Thursday for Leavenworth. Fun little town.

Glad to see new faces. Stay close you guys. One day at a time!

[MinStar]

Well done Knitty. You did well lol.

[JackieM]

Hello All-

Welcome ADD! I hope you stay with us.

Cowboy-Is Hank doing better? My previous lab had swollen ears and Benadryl+steroids took care of it. The vet thought maybe he'd been stung by a bee. If Hank has to go on a special diet, good luck. I tried that with my dog and it did not go well. I could not keep him from eating everything in sight.

Knitty-Sounds like you are doing well. Make sure you come up with a plan for your alone time. I like to listen to the Bubble Hour and work on neglected projects. Closet cleaning, organizing-that kind of thing. It keeps me occupied and it feels good to get rid of clutter.

Min, Daisy&Bandit-Keep up the good work. Focus on how awesome it is to wake up without a hangover. It does get better after a couple of weeks alcohol free.

Pauly-I have had drinking dreams many, many times. Mine are so real they are scary! I have woken up in a panic wondering what I said or did the night before...

Nice to see you Ginger! I hope you have a good time in Leavenworth. I haven't been over there in a few years. I snowboard at Steven's Pass a couple times a year but didn't go last year because of the lack of snow.

Hello BG, Bri, Liz, Mr. V, OH, AG and everyone else out there reading.

I hope everyone has an awesome alcohol free weekend!

JackieM

[MinStar]

Hello again all!

How's everyone doing this Saturday? Another difficult day for me. I know being home and being saturday I feel I need a treat. Even had hubby do an errand and suggested he get some drink but at the last minute said- oh just get a big bottle of sparkling. Thing is he forgot that and wine so I'm now in the crazy loop of thinking- shall I nip to the shops?

Of course usual hunger is on the cards. We're having homemade pizza so I'm about to put the 'adults' ones in. Kids fed/feeding and bathing so on the home stretch.

I just need to keep reminding myself of the way I feel after a night of drinking. Remind myself what it is like waking with a hangover , remind myself I can't have just one. I never stop at one, and a bottle of wine will never be enough. M

Thanks JackieM. I know the first few weeks Are the worst. Just need to get through the weekend and I know I'll be stronger.

Thankfully, I'm at my mums wednesday onwards until the end of the weekend. I find it easier to forget the drinking when I'm home.

Anyway ramblings. Better get that pizza in. I warn you guys. I may be back in a bit with more rambles :-(

[All done drinking]

Thankfully my friend has forgiven me (I got w-a-a-y too drunk at her birthday party). Learned I sang a totally inappropriate birthday song to her (hurtful with a tragedy in her life that I made it into some stupid joke in the song). Totally difficult to hear when we are faced with the reality of bad choices and things we do when we have drunk too much. Of course, I TOTALLY planned to have only 2 drinks (no more than 3) and who knows how many I had once I was in a blackout. She confirmed I fell off my chair (had a big bruise on my thigh the next morning) so I feared something had happened. I woke that next day in a panic without knowing how bad I was, what I had said or done, etc. I have been fooling myself for too many years thinking I can control this because sometimes I can. When the shut off valve doesn't work (but sometimes it does?!) easy to be deluded into thinking it will work all of the time. I am so done potentially hurting others, embarrassing my family, etc. I called a recovering friend today crying and admitting (she lives out of state) that my attempts at trying to control this are no longer working and I know the downside is not worth the upside although the fear of giving it all up put me into a slight panic and depression today. I am staying strong though and determined to do this as I know for me 1 drink and I can be on the spiral downward again with the delusional thinking.
Addy (All done drinking? Yes!)

[JackieM]

Addy-

I have made a total ass of myself many, many times due to alcohol. I too always told myself I would just have one or two. Waking up the day after a drunken binge is terrible. The guilt and shame can be all consuming.

I know the thought of never drinking again can be overwhelming. Just try to get through one day at a time for now. Try to read and post here as much as possible. It is nice to be able to come here knowing others completely understand what you are going through.

After being on the stop/start merry-go-round for years, I have finally had enough. I know I will never be a take it or leave it drinker. I cannot have one or two so I choose to have none. It is awesome to wake up without a hangover and without regrets.

I hope you find your way out. Please let us know if we can do anything to help you.

Stay strong and try to enjoy the journey. It can be tough at times but it is totally worth it. Take care.

JackieM

[MinStar]

Welcome Addy!
I think taking it one day, even one hour at a time can help. For me- the thought of completely stopping is too much to handle. It sends me into bi drinking- 'for one last time' so just saying 'I will not drink today/now/this hour' is workable. I have managed a few difficult moments by waiting- if I want a drink I can after kids in bed/I've made dinner or after I've had dinner. The latter being the most important. Normally after I have eaten it's resided.

Have you checked the tool box and made a list of triggers? Rid the house of alcohol and find something to occupy you- maybe a new book you've never got around to?

Happy you came here and you're ready to tackle this. Join us new quitters! And learn form the wise ones :-)

[Lizann]

Good morning guys. Cowboy, have not read complelety back, what's up with hank? Lucy is better, but threw up at 5 am. Funny thing, since she's been at my parents she's not eating dry dog food anymore. She used to get us up before dawn for breakfast. Wonder what's up with that? I must admit I'm struggling a bit with vacation withdrawal. So nothing to look forward to. Just taking it one day at a time, right now even one minute at a time.