So it seems I get two or three days under my belt and that's where I keep hitting the wall. With both AF and NF. It all is generally pretty smooth, nothing tumultuous. Yesterday was typical.
I was talking to a co-worker at a location remote from me and he brought up drinking, why I don't I come down some time we'll tear up the town, etc., etc., etc. Didn't say anything just kind of chuckled and then we hung up. On the drive home I start thinking do I go to the Dojang today as there is no Friday class (which is typically the day I go and so this was the plan) or do I go grocery shopping. So I decide to go to Whole Foods and just get to the Dojang for the meditation at 8:30. I get out of Whole Foods without beer or wine.
The whole time in the back of my head is that voice telling me that I can have just one like hypnosis and it just keeps lingering. The rest is pretty self explanatory. At 3 am I'm jumping in the shower so I can be up to head out to work by 8:30 am. Why????????? The only thing I can reason is the exact place I screw up is that I start changing my plan. Then it keeps changing.
I'm not angry at myself, I'm actually not hungover which I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. Back to day 1. Not as bad a crash as it they had been before I started lurking but no ticker day parade.
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