Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

[Ginger999]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Chief, glad you had a good run.

Hope everyone else is doing ok. Check in soon!

[Orimus]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Hope everyone had a good labor day weekend. (I know, a couple of days late on that one.)

Chief - Glad it was a good 5K.

Ginger - Glad you got some bonding time with your sis.

SS - Procrastination is my best frenemy besides AL. Sometimes I don't wonder if they sometimes go hand in hand.

Liz - So sorry your beautiful week ended like that.

Picking myself up again, hoping my kudzu gets here soon. Haven't had any for the past two weeks. Hammering through my midlife angst and embarrassing myself as the twice I've crashed in that time I've also babbled out my self psychoanalysis. Or rather I had to analyze for myself the babble I was spewing. Apparently although I thought I was ok with leaving my semi former relationship in limbo to focus on my sobriety is simply maintaining the idea that I somehow failed and wasted several years. Failed her, failed me, failed her daughter. All bullshit of course. Just have to pick up the things I never followed through with. Don't like how I got to this insight especially since I know better ways that would've been a lot quicker I can be thankful that I got there. And now friends and family all I know I have a drinking problem.

Fortunately the manufacturer of the brand of Kudzu that I get is coming out of back order after months.
Have to get back on track with getting to the Dojang or even pick up the pace from twice a week to three times and one for Qi Gong. Have a promise to keep to myself and 4 months left to do it. That and have to get back out into the woods which I put off most of the summer.

I'm beginning to babble a bit. Have to say I did try stimulating by throat chakra a few weeks ago when it seemed stifled.

[Ginger999]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Ori, Thanks for sharing. As I read your post I'm touched by the wisdom you shared with us. It sounds to me like you know everything you need to do and to change. That is the first step in all this. Stay with it and with us. And do get to the woods as soon as an opportunity arises for you. The mountains are soul healing for many of us. Me included. Stay close.

[Lizann]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

[QUOTE=Chief;1700778]5K was great.....cloudy but no rain. It was fun.

How are you doing Lizann? Try to look back and determine exactly when you decided to drink. It's not necessarily immediately before you took that first drink. Were you covertly "planning on" drinking for a time before you actually did? Was The Beast talking to you in advance, giving you reasons?.... Sometimes we trick ourselves or allow ourselves to be tricked. Just try and figure it out for next time. How do you feel now? Are you still drinking? Let us know......you know we care about

I don't know how the thought started. I agree I was thinking about it. I think about al, drinking and not drinking a lot!! This particular time, it is the stresses of moving hubby's office. It is affecting our entire household! I did drink last night again. I wasn't going to but hubby and I argued about how things will be set up here in our home. Thanks for caring,. I really need you all right now. I will not drink today! My oldest daughter is coming over in a bit and we will hang out in the pool. I have no al in the house. I'll check in later.

[Ginger999]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Hi Lizann, Hang in there. When the thoughts of drinking creep into your head, come here ASAP. Post what you are feeling. Cross post to the newbie nest (more activity there), go to the toolbox (link in my sig line below) and read through the tips others have given to avoid AL. There is some very valuable tools there to help keep your AFness intact. Have a great day with your daughter!

[Chief]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

So glad you posted Lizann. We are here for you. We all think about drinking and not drinking. That doesn't mean we are destined to drink. It means we know we have a problem with alcohol and we also know that we really do have a choice and a say in whether we do drink or not. Just because we have a problem with alcohol doesn't mean we are helpless and will always succumb to the bottle when times are tough. That's what we are use to doing. That's what we always did. But now we don't like that and want to change that behavior. That's why we're all here, right?

So ask yourself...what do I really want to do?

I don't know if that helps or makes sense. Just trying to get you thinking....:l

Don

[Ginger999]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Enjoyed some time in the mountains today. We are getting ready to take off next Friday for two weeks in south central Oregon. Going to get in some fall hiking. Can't wait!!

How are you guys? Hope you are enjoying a great AF weekend.

[SoberSoul]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Hi Everyone... been burying my head in the sand lately when it comes to do with anything to do with sobriety. I am active on Facebook, Pinterest and meditation forums but seem to avoid this subject; the one I need to keep forefront in my life.

Lizanne, it's so hard to go through stress without reaching for the tried and true tools. I know exactly how it works and there have been times lately that if it was there I would have drank it.

Ginger, travelling is awesome sober, eh.. we are not half as tired as when we do it drinking every evening.

We were at the lake this weekend and everyone was dipsy except moi. Because I was relaxed it did not bother me. Love being around the little ones and we had a one year old there so that took care of any desire I might have had.

Orimus, you really do know yourself; it's just a matter of hitting the wall and knowing this is it, no matter what. It's a feeling that's hard to describe but very final. Maybe it's not like that for everyone but it was like that for me. I just hit a wall with my drinking and that was it.

Chief, thanks for being at the head of the cheering squad. You really have a handle on things and seem to be eating up all the positives from abstaining.

I have to come visit daily or I am going to drink. It's inevitable.

[Ginger999]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Hi SS, We really miss your wisdom around here. :/ You have so much to offer us. I know your life is crazy busy but do check in as much as possible. We need it as much as you do! PS.... You DO NOT DRINK!!

Lizann and Ori, Hope everthing is going ok and you are protecting your AFness.

Howdy, Chief!!

[Chief]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Good to hear from you, SS! I know what you mean about hitting the wall with drinking. That's what happened to me. I was just so sick of drinking and all the negative effects of it. I still have thoughts of drinking like everyone else but there is no way I'm going back to that lifestyle.....no way. And by the way,SS...it IS NOT inevitable that you will drink!

Ori....Lizann...? What's happening?

Hi Ginger!

[Lizann]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Ok so maybe that's my problem, I have not hit that wall. Kinda of wish I could. I am AF as of the moment but I feel like I'm walking a thin line. I have a vacation coming up in October and would love to be able to do it completely sober. I m sure Id enjoy it so much more.

[Ginger999]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Hi Lizann, My hubs and I travel a lot. My first sober trip in May was really scary and quite frankly I was dreading it something terrible. I started a thread called "Into the Abyss" and I got lots of support before I left. I printed out their replies to take along because I was going to be off the grid with no WIFI or cell service to speak of. I also printed off some things from the toolbox. I had a plan in place if I got wiggly. Well it worked! I stayed AF that trip. There has been five more since that one and all have been AF. It really does feel good to experience all those great places completely AF and focused. You can do this! Make a plan and stick to it. If you have WIFI while you're away make sure to check in everyday, even if it's only for a few minutes. We will be watching for you!! Enjoy!!

[Chief]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

Lizann, you have time before your trip to really get use to living AF. If you start now I think it will be easier when you're gone. Let me ask you something.....how do you feel when you're drinking? Do you enjoy it?

[SoberSoul]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

As expected, I drank last night.

I see how easy it would be to continue to drink.

My alcoholic neighbor came to visit just when I had taken my first glass of wine and cheered me on. Him and hubby both talked gushingly on how drinking wine is good for the health, sociable and, generally, the right thing to do. They actually thought they were very wise and helpful.

By coincidence, after my second glass of wine my son who is trying to cut down his drinking called to say he'd be dropping over. When he and his wife arrived I held up my glass of wine and announced that, after four months of abstaining, I was having drinks. They were both HAPPY! My hubby chimed in and said he was glad he got his drinking buddy back and that I had been boring while abstaining. I have to say that my son told me he was proud of me for abstaining for that length of time; only he, a fellow problem drinker, knows how tough it can be. Everyone excitedly discussed how we can have drinks together in the new house and how it'll be so much fun.

I woke up this morning with a pounding headache and the determination not to let this slip result in the daily drinking of tons of wine. Last night, I buckled under intense pressure and stress and am still feeling like I don't want to be here, in this trailer, in this mud, dealing with business and personal issues waiting for the house to be completed. Escape is tempting.

If I drink tonight I am doomed. I can't go down that road again. I want to be able to say in a few weeks that I've done five months sober with one little hiccup. It will take every ounce of strength I have to follow through.

I am NOT boring when I am sober. I think hubby and everyone else would think I was fun to be around if I had a glass of something red in my hand; no matter what was in it. I feel like I have to 'secretly' not drink. I have the opposite problem of those who secretly drink. Go figure!!

Screw everyone! I have to do this for me.

[Ginger999]

Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

SS, It was just one night so get back on that wagon and keep on keeping on! That one slip doesn't mean anything in the bigger picture. You DO NOT drink any more. Right? What worries me more is your support system being so happy you were drinking. I guess they really don't get what you are trying to do with your sobriety. Like you said, this will be one little slip in a few more months of AFness. Hang on and stay closer!!