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    #496
    Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

    Alky;1675192 wrote: Hello everyone. I relapsed and am just coming off a week long binge. Each detox gets more and more brutal. This is by far the worst, and I've had some serious doozies. I've never felt this bad 24 hours in. I have to stop because I have a feeling the next one will enter seizure/DT territory for sure. I haven't had one yet this time, but I'm not out the woods. I was medically detoxed last month and can't afford a return visit. And the county facility is booked solid. Plus I can't be away from home for a week again. I am going to see an addiction psychiatrist tomorrow that a friend from detox recommended.

    This one is so unpleasant that I don't think I'll pick up a bottle ever again. I don't think I had a firm commitment to quitting drinking in the past. But this detox has changed that. I don't want to ever be this miserable ever again. In addition to ongoing therapy and psychiatrist appointments, I need to step up my AA game and finally ask for a sponsor.
    Oh, dear. Hang in there.... and come back and read your post in this thread once you have been sober again for a while and starting to feel like 'you can handle it.'
    I think this is one of the best thing about posting... you can read and re-read your own posts later.
    Hang tight.. stay close... you are worth it!
    (AF since 17 May 2014) 2 years 5 months sober

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      #497
      Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

      Yeah, okay so what is the plan?


      Orimus;1675019 wrote: Was curious that my cravings since I've been focusing on kicking the bottle have been particularly strong. Thought it was just, after having reduced my use substantially over the past few years, that it only made sense getting over this last hump would be the most difficult. Or that maybe I was, despite my best intentions, still too much focusing on pink elephants. (Don't think of them!!) However in looking at what I have continually seen about people's cravings for sugar made me wonder as to my cutting carbs as well as some carb cravings.
      As I was looking into this I found an article that explained that when you first quit alcohol your Serotonin levels plummet and leaves our bodies looking to replenish them. The way it does this is by craving carbs/sugar. I wonder if eating more leafy greens and meats with Tryptophan to boost seritonin would help with those sugar cravings? Probably another reason diet is so important and where the benefit of St. John's Wort lies.
      https://docs.google.com/file/d/0B4v9jNqnuYQpMzEwYzU1N2YtNTMwYi00ZTYyLTlkMGQtNjllO TgyNzlkNDg4/edit?hl=en_US
      (AF since 17 May 2014) 2 years 5 months sober

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        #498
        Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

        Hi all,what's going on Alky?i was half tempted to go buy beers yesterday,woke up from a short nap feeling funny,but then i thought of withdrawal and it shut that fucking thought up real fast! the last time i drank it started on a sunday afternoon,just a couple spread out over a few hours then i went to bed,well couldn't sleep,had acid reflux and a headache at midnight,went to work and felt shit,so what did i do?same thing i always do when i feel uncomfortable,hair of the dog of course,first day is always fun,second day not too bad,third,fourth,fifth,i'm hitting the wall! finally muster up enough strength to say thats it,but yes the detoxes are getting rough,a whole week of my life lost because of just a few on a sunday,better off just fighting the good fight,even though it's hard as nails sometimes,hope everyone has a good Tuesday
        I have too much shit to do today and tomorrow to drink:sohappy:

        I'm taking care of the "tomorrow me":thumbsup:
        Drinkin won't help a damn thing! Will only make me sick for DAYS and that ugly, spacey dumb feeling-no thanks!

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          #499
          Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

          More was thinking out loud for the moment Eloise. Still taking the St. John's wort minus the carbs/sugar . . . looking into natural ways to boost Serotonin in addition to the St. John's. Like making sure to eat me greens. :0)
          “If we are facing in the right direction, all we have to do is keep on walking.” – Zen proverb

          "See it as it is, not worse than it is just so you have a reason not to try." - Tony Robbins.

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            #500
            Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

            Good luck with the counselor Alky and bravo on making the decision you need the sponsor. Sounds like a good follow up to committing to your quit.
            “If we are facing in the right direction, all we have to do is keep on walking.” – Zen proverb

            "See it as it is, not worse than it is just so you have a reason not to try." - Tony Robbins.

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              #501
              Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

              Alky, So sorry to hear about your last few days. I'm so glad you are going to get a sponsor. Come back often and read, post, read, post. It has helped me so much just knowing I have all of you out there, not just for support but for accountablility. I'm sending you AF vibes....

              Ori, I'm really struggling with the sugar/carb thing but kind of giving myself some slack these first AF days. Today is 51 so I think it's time to step up that game. I'm vegan and get tons of fresh everything. When I eat sweets it's good stuff but it's just WAY too much!! I've been reading a lot about sugar cravings and it does affect the brain the same way as alcohol with the whole dopamine thing. I'm taking L-glut under the tongue when the craving hits but I'm not sure I can tell the dif.

              We are at the beach and it's raining hard here. That was a trigger for me in the past but thanks to you guys.... I'm doing this instead. LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

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                #502
                Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

                I definitely go on a sugar crave/craze when I stop drinking. I still haven't grabbed any L-Glut which I have found helps me. I'm trying to eat more fruits instead of junk food to get my sugar. We'll see how that goes.
                Have a great day everyone!
                "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
                ..........
                AF - 7-27-15

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                  #503
                  Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

                  Thank you everyone for your support. I had a seizure leaving the AA meeting this morning and a very kind man insisted he drive me to an ER, which resulted in a suspended driver license. I just hope the neurologist evaluating me is a reasonable and kind man so my license is reinstated as quickly as possible.

                  I definitely have a renewed commitment to being AF. I've never suffered a seizure in past detoxes. If I continue to drink, the next two stops are DTs and death. I have no choice but to stop. I'm flirting with the reaper now.

                  Also, the man I asked to sponsor me said he'll point out at the next meeting people who have been sober for years but will never be right in head again because they have wet brain.
                  In the middle of my life's journey, I found myself in a dark wood, as I had lost the straight path. It is a difficult thing to speak about, how wild, harsh and impenetrable that wood is. Just thinking about it recreates the fear. It is scarcely less bitter than death, but in order to tell of the good that I found there, I must tell of the other things I saw there. --Dante, paraphrased

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                    #504
                    Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

                    Omg Alky,are you o.k?that's so scary,what did it feel like,and was it sudden or could you feel it coming?sorry to be so nosy,just worried about you,sucks about the license it happened to my friends hubs but he did get it back,just try and take it easy,my thoughts are with you
                    I have too much shit to do today and tomorrow to drink:sohappy:

                    I'm taking care of the "tomorrow me":thumbsup:
                    Drinkin won't help a damn thing! Will only make me sick for DAYS and that ugly, spacey dumb feeling-no thanks!

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                      #505
                      Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

                      Hi all, I was with my mother when she had a alcohol withdrawal seizure and she had just asked to go to bed and then within a minute had the seizure. She felt very tired in the moments before the event.

                      Alky, do you remember feeling extremely tired just before you seized? Please let this be your last quit. We want you around here buddy.

                      Very happy with the loyalty to this thread. Without you I would NEVER have made it to sixty days (tomorrow). I have only ever made it 30I days once and I drank to celebrate. Duhhh!!

                      I had a great talk with my alcoholic son tonight and he said his ending his heavy drinking probably saved his life. I am so relieved. Imagine how happy that makes me. He said he is able to only have one or two... I know, I know... he is at the beginning of his journey. I am fully expecting a full blown drunken episode or two before he stops completely but hey, who am I to judge. I've been around MWO since 2008.

                      Ginger, have fun on holidays and keep sucking on that sugar.

                      Nora, thanks for the congrats and I was moved to read that my post touched you. We are all living parallel lives and experiencing the same dramas.

                      Pauly, Chief, Orimus and the others, you guys are the backbone of this thread, supporting each other and we're all here til there's no drunks reporting. When the world is sober our job is done... LOL...
                      "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
                      Lao-Tzu

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                        #506
                        Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

                        Alky, I'm glad you're still with us. What did they say at the ER? Are you taking any meds for withdrawl? I hope you're drinking plenty of water and trying to eat some good things to help get rid of the toxins. Are you into exercising?.....that will also help you physically and mentally. Also, a multivitamin and maybe l-glut for cravings if it's okay with your doctor.

                        The question is, do you want to quit drinking or do you think you have to? There's a big difference. When it comes right down to it, you and only you are responsible for what you do and how things turn out. We can help you and support you and so can sponsors and doctors but it's up to you to get in the game and take control of yourself.

                        Think about this and stick with us and read and post and let us know how you're doing....

                        Don

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                          #507
                          Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

                          Alky, I'm so sorry you are going through this. I'm so glad you are here with us. Check in often!

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                            #508
                            Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

                            Hi all,well look at you SS,60 days!!!! congratulations,you've really put your nose to the grindstone and are doing it,i'm so proud of youstill floating along here,Alky's story really hit it home that this isn't fun and games anymore,it's serious,i'm a serious alcoholic,one slip leads me down a path of darkness that feels impossible to get out of,i read around on here of people who are trying to quit drinking cuz 3 glasses of wine a nite is a habit and bugging them,if i was drinking 3 glasses of wine a nite and that's all,i wouldn't bother quitting tbh,i'm not like that,i drink to get drunk,super drunk,each relapse has gotten worse,the time sober between shorter,the drinking heavier,detoxes worse,it just isn't worth it to go back,each relapse chips away at who i am as a person,or who i want to be anyway,Alky i hope everything is ok,let's all have a good Wednesday
                            I have too much shit to do today and tomorrow to drink:sohappy:

                            I'm taking care of the "tomorrow me":thumbsup:
                            Drinkin won't help a damn thing! Will only make me sick for DAYS and that ugly, spacey dumb feeling-no thanks!

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                              #509
                              Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

                              Well said, Pauly...

                              How are you today, Alky?

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                                #510
                                Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

                                This has now become a legal matter because I'm fighting the suspension, so I probably shouldn't say anything more on the matter until it's resolved.
                                In the middle of my life's journey, I found myself in a dark wood, as I had lost the straight path. It is a difficult thing to speak about, how wild, harsh and impenetrable that wood is. Just thinking about it recreates the fear. It is scarcely less bitter than death, but in order to tell of the good that I found there, I must tell of the other things I saw there. --Dante, paraphrased

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