Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

[MissMiss]

Ok I'm going to swallow hard and jump in and post. I was here in 2009 or 2010. I just read a lot hardly ever posted but I now realize that maybe posting would help me stay sober. I've lost count of how many times Ive quit before but I really feel the time is now to do it. Alittle about myself Im 49 yrs old married for going on 32 yrs. We have 4 children 31,23,21,16. Me and my husband farm. Its a hard life but a good life. A life I need to enjoy sober and not drink a 12 pack every night. Sorry I guess im rambling now. Ive read this thread and it has me written all over it. By the way abcowboy thank you for the welcome. It helped come on here and post

[Lizann]

I love you guys! Busy day off for me. Taking Lucy to the groomer. Going with hubs to clean some stuff out of the storage unit. Church is having a garage sale next month and if hubs wants to contribute I'm all in. Love my honey but he's a bit of a horder. Dinner with a friend tonight. Can't wait. Our oldest kids were in a playgroup together back in the day. Her son and my daughter both got married last year, so we will be sharing wedding albums.
Have a happy Thursday. Have I mentioned I love you guys?

[Lizann]

Miss miss, welcome! I find posting and reading to be so helpful. There is accountability and this really is a nice group, right here! Look forward to getting to know you.

[MissMiss]

Thanks Lizann. I wasn't real sure what to post. I just felt if I posted it would make me more accountable if that makes sense. I read half this thread yest and I just kept nodding my head saying yep that sounds like me

[abcowboy]

Top of the morning everyone! :welcome: Miss! Glad to see you here and I echo Liz's words. This is a small group, but we've grown to be great friends and I'm sure you'll fit right in. You're right about farming, it is a hard life, but a very rewarding one as well, Bubba (my wife's nickname) and I have our own general contracting business but I help good friends of ours with seeding and harvest. Seeding just ended for us. What area is your farm? I to was a beer drinker, and I never stopped at a 12 pack, I started right after lunch, sometimes before lunch, and continued to pass out time. Once again, welcome to our group! Get to know everyone and join in, ask questions, give your opinion, share whatever you'd like, we will be here for you no matter what...

So, I'm taking it we are all content with just staying here! Great, I love this place, and as Liz said, I love you guys!

Ginger, BG, Chief, AG, OH, SS, Pauly, Min, mama, Nora, Jane, NS, and Miss (think that covers everyone?) let's all stick together, help each other, and get through this one day...that's all we really have to do, just one day at a time! No quitting on your quit eh!

[Lizann]

Just post whatever! It feels a bit awkward at first maybe, but just keep coming here. Accountability is a big part of quitting, in my humble opinion.

[MissMiss]

Ok Idk what just happened to my post. It was here then gone lol. We farm in the US in IL. we have the corn done but still have a few beans to plant. We have beef cattle too. This is my 4th day with no drinks .

[Ginger999]

Welcome, Miss! Glad ABC pointed you to this thread. I lurked around MWO for well over a year before I finally started posting. As long as I didn't post I felt like I could still drink if I wanted to. As soon as I started making contact with others here and regularly posted, things changed for me. Like Liz said, I felt more accountability to those here. I became attached to these guys. We were like minded and in the same boat. Family are great support but if they don't know or understand the extent of our addicition, they aren't much help (IMO). Does your hubby support your quit? Does he drink the same way?

How is everyone else doing today? SS, where you be, girlfriend?

[MissMiss]

No he doesn't understand. My father was an alcoholic and a brother who spent time in jail for dui. Also have a couple more siblings that drink to much. As you can see it does seem to run in our genes. Ive tried to explain to him I don't have a shut off switch like most people. Once I start I don't stop till Im drunk. He hardly drinks at all and could always stop at 2 or 3 wth that's just a start for me . He says you are not that bad. I guess because im still able to get up every morning and do my work he thinks im not so bad idk Ive been trying to stop for 10 yrs or more. But Im just sick and tried of this crap. I feel awful in the mornings and cant rem what was said the night before. And im starting to see a lot of myself in my 21yo and it scares the shit out of me. Ive talk to him about my family history and my drinking. I told him I cant control it so that means it controls me He did finally say to a couple weeks ago that when he start he cant stop either. I know I haven't been a every good role model for him but I want to start being one. I didn't use to drink like this but we all know have it go. You just start having more and more to get that buzz.

[paulywogg]

Welcome back Miss you know, I was just reading your post and my hubs is the same way! He thinks that just cuz I can stop for stretches that I don't have a problem, he's seen me at my worst,through a night in jail,cleaned up my puke,put me to bed,etc,yet he still acts like it's no biggie, weirdo! That's why I'm happy to be here,everyone understands,been there,these hubbies without a problem just don't get it,ugh,been under the weather these past few days, if I feel sick tomorrow I'm gonna try and get a doc appointment, my throat is bugging me, hope everyone is having a good afternoon

[paulywogg]

Oh BTW Jane,thanks for sharing the moodtracker info,I'm all signed up its actually kinda fun and I like that it sends notifications,Liz,you know we want to see Lucy

[MissMiss]

Paulywogg I can't believe there is another man like my husband out there lol. But in his defense I've done the same trick on myself. A year ago I quit for 3 months. Then after awhile I said to myself maybe I wasn't so bad look at me I don't shake or sweat when I quit. It wasn't that hard. Then I decided to have a drink and you know what happened after that. Yep back to a 12 pack every night

[paulywogg]

Sometimes I think hubs likes when I drink Miss,I laugh,listen to music,get friskier,however that's only for a little bit, then I'm a crying, puking mess!and the next day I'ddrink again cuz I can't stand hangovers, at least I'm finally learning, albeit slowly

[MissMiss]

Oh I forgot to say. I hope you start feeling better soon Paulywogg

[MissMiss]

God we do sound a lot alike