Anyone in the First Week of Their Unpteenth Quit?

[daisy45]

Hi everyone....been off-line for a few days. My i-pad smashed so I had to send it away to get fixed.
Starting over again today. So ready for this.

[Lizann]

I'm going to have to check out that intervention thing. Where might I find it?
MinStar, how are you? I miss you. Hope you're doing ok. I'm here if you want to talk,
So a town meeting tonight for the building that will be taking place, directly across the street from me. A liquor store has purchased the property. Ironic, don't you think? Anyway, four houses to go up behind the store (3+acres). The towns have tried to be sneaky about variances and such. We will go just to make sure all is to our liking. It was a garden store with a farm. The neighborhood is changing and I don't like it. I'm pretty wired already and were not even there yet.
Hope you're all staying strong.

[briseus]

ActionGirl and Lizann - I have definitely watched some Intervention in my day...but this show was really scary/heartbreaking (hope I can post the link...? here it is anyways): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dJ97Vwoup4
If the link won't work it's called "Drugged: High On Alcohol".

Thanks for the welcome back Jackie. I am glad to be back. I am also glad to see you here as well.

Hey Daisy! Ugh...I would probably cry if my phone/ipad/whatever (!!) got smashed up! Technology is so expensive these days...I feel like sometimes my electronics are my lifeline...especially when it comes to checking in here and reading/researching.

Hope everyone is doing well tonight. I actually made it back to the gym today!! Although I was a teeny bit lazy on that elliptical, lol. Also had a huge salad...the anxiety was at a 5 out of 10 today...actually while sitting at work and the anxiety spiking the random thought of "WINE WILL HELP" just came and bombarded me out of nowhere! It was kinda scary. :/ Because I know that it DOES help...only temporarily though...then I wake up 10 times worse. Still doing more researching natural/healthy/holistic ways of dealing with this anxiety/depression/etc.

Okay enough rambling from me. Day 7 for me tomorrow. Thank goodness.

[Lizann]

Bri, let me know if you find anything interesting on dealing with anxiety and depression.
Thanks for the link. I will check it out.

[actiongirl46]

Hey Bri - nice job on Day 5 AND the gym. Awesome. I managed a great walk today as well. Felt wonderful as I've been very lazy lately.

Liz - the "Intervention" show is a mini-documentary about family members trying to save their loved ones from their addictions. I find it heartbreaking and sobering to watch. If you are in the states it is on A&E or probably on Netflix as well . . .

Daisy, I hope you are well. Great to see you here! MinS . . . where are ya??

Hang in there all - AG

[daisy45]

Well, after my feeling so ready to start yesterday.....went out and bought lovely healthy food and cooked a nice dinner. No wine in the house. Then last night my door knocked....old school friend who now lives in Canada. Her and her husband came in with 2 bottles of wine saying they really needed a drink. On day 1! So, afraid day 1 is today.
Did not see that one coming and I haven't told her about my drinking situation.
I have 2 anxiety pills left which I will take today. I am afraid to drink when I don't have any left, so it will help me get started. Once I stop drinking the anxiety goes down.

[daisy45]

Is anyone else finding it hard to get started because of the holidays? So many people I know are off work and have more free time, including myself. I make a resolve to stop and someone else appears expecting to have a drink. This would be easier after a few weeks of AF to say no, but as I am trying to get started it is much tougher to say no.

[Dutch1988]

daisy I would avoid them, or tell them your ill, or something else. Do what you have to do to to get this quit started, and make a plan. I started going to the gym at night around 11pm despite having a 2 year old I had to take care of in the morning. That was the best way for me to not drink, do something else around the witching hour that was late enough I had to go. i also made a commitment with a buddy so there was no excuse not to go, I am not the kind of person to cancel on someone last minute. What's your plan? Do you have something to drink as an alternative? A lot of people say they are on medication that doesn't let them drink. Look through the toolbox and make a plan.

[daisy45]

Thanks Dutch. I do need to prepare better. I think I need to announce it to the circle of people around me who have got used to me drinking again. When I get a good AF stretch, they stop calling to suggest drinks.

[available]

Daisy the very first day i gave up drinking and told my children i was stopping my daughter came around with a bottle of wine. The hardest word i had to say was 'no' but if i didnt stop then, then the circle of madness would continue. i gave up in December, how many occasions were people guzzling al then? Everyone i thought. learning to say 'no' and meaning it are vital to giving up al. otherwise the merry-go-round will never end and you will use any excuse to have a drink. There is never a good time to stop drinking but unless you want it badly enough it will never happen. Grit and determination Daisy. Give any excuse and protect your quit as it is your life you are saving.

[briseus]

Like Ava said...protect your quit...
I am on day 7 now...and day 4 (Saturday night) was pretty brutal as I had company - and everyone was drinking...I literally could reach over and grab a better and just chug it down if I wanted to. There was enough - and then I live across the beer store too......but I didn't. I said that I was on meds and couldn't drink and had some soda instead and went to bed early.
But....with that being said...I remember being in situations such as yours...countless times, where my day 1s...weren't my day 1s...the next day was...but now...I really really want to get away from that lifestyle....now's a good a time as any.
Trust me...we all KNOW just how hard this bullshit addiction is. You just gotta grit your teeth and get it over with.

And before this, I was off for a week on vacation...I don't remember half my vacation because I was perpetually drunk. I regret it. Because I didn't enjoy myself. I was only shitfaced, hungover or planning on a) how I was going to get my next drink and b) when I was going to have my next drink. Trying to "cut down" but that never happened. It sucked big time.
You can do this.
I'm now on day 7.

[briseus]

Oh and Lizann, I will definitely keep you posted...I am having a really tough time with my anxiety right now...I freakin' HATE it.
Moments like these I want to get so outside of myself it's not even funny...and I can't.

[briseus]

I am having a VERY hard time right now. I feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown. The anxiety is killing me. The OCD is bad. I want to cry an ocean right now. Feel trapped and afraid.
Never felt like this on day 7 before.
I'm scared.

[NoSugar]

It's ok to cry, Bri. Or maybe keep typing about what you're feeling if it helps. You can post it or choose not to.
If you've learned breathing or other meditation techniques, you could try those. Or take a walk.
You're not alone and the felling will pass. A drink would help only temporarily or not at all. You can get past this. :hug:

[Lizann]

Yes Bri, it's hard now with the anxiety. Could it possibly be withdraw? I know that's exactly how I feel. It gets better with time. Be kind to yourself. Maybe take a bath, sit in the park park. Something enjoyable. For me sometimes it's hard to get up in the morning and face the day. I saw on fb or Pinterest that said, get up, dress up and show up. I do feel better as I go on. Cry, I honestly feel better afterward. Were here, talk to us. Let us help. Hang in there, hopefully tomorrow will be better.