I want to thank everyone for there kind words and understanding and especially not judging me(do eough of that myself) You people are and inspiration to me and help me to believe i am not a lost cause. I will do the things you all have said, and yes i will even try not to beat myself up, but i think you are right make this sadness the start of my sobriety, join the MWO crew and excersise this demond alcohol. When my tools arrive i will be unstopable
:thanks: again my new friends is so nice to have some again
chilli:h