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I think these narrow minded people dont understand the battle we go through to stay sober. It is a hell of a lot easier now but it is a lifelong road to stay sober. This was from a friend with a drinking problem that "was not as bad as mine". She did mention that her withdrawals were not good but thank god she did not drink as much as me! Losing me as a friend will be her loss, not mine.

Good on you for starting a new course. god i did french in high school (just a few years ago) and i can count to 10 but probably missing a few numbers now! I am looking into a drug and al course and am yet to here about payment options. I have had my doubts that i can do this as i have not studied for 20+ years but i will never know unless i try and i am sure i will suprise myself and i can do this, i am regaining confidence that i lost due to al.

Keep your head down with al but keep your head up on being proud of being sober. f

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Hi, Choice

You are an awesome role-model for what to do if I should ever lose my resolve and choose to drink. I don't plan to ever do that but I will always keep in mind how you came back quickly with such a calm, clear, and certain goal.

Au Revoir , NS

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Baby is still asleep... Hehe more time to post . I say take the course! Honestly not a heck of a lot is tougher then getting yourself sober. You'll be surprised how much confidence you have because you did this. Yeah, people aye? Give her time, she may surprise you and come around. If not yep... Her loss for sure.. Some of my good friends just took a while to feel comfortable with my decision. If you were a big drinker... Then they have adjusting to do with your new identity. One of my friends actually said she was happy to see the old choice back. She still drinks quite a bit, and I can tell feels a little strange having wine in front of me. But after she has a few... Totally forgets that I'm not drinking. And she ends up drinking less. Mind you, I couldn't have hung out in this situation early in the game... And would probably steer away from that for a while now.... Ug baby up

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Thanks NoSugar, I don't know... Hopefully I'm not confusing that I slipped and am coming back is a green light for some. I wouldn't promote it, cravings pretty much were very close to how they were before I stopped the first time. Intense! It's so hard to stop that train. Au Revoir... Hehe I'm learning already!

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Day 10 AF

Doing well. I'm glad I'm in the French class. It was a total break from thinking about drinking and also from baby stuff. I feel like I sound like an idiot but oh well. I'm feeling pretty confident. Just wish all this work I'm doing at the gym would result in some weight loss... And that my cravings for sugar would ease a bit.

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Choice, I remember you from way back. You were and are an inspiration. For my own selfish reasons I am glad you are here and kicking Al-Asss again as I remember how you helped me then.........unlike you, I never got past 3 months. But that was then......tomorrow is a new day!
So glad all is so great in your life - showing us all how it's done!

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Dont you hate those constant nagging al thoughts but they do eventually get less and less and you know not to let them win. God sugar, i am still eating the stuff but as long as i am not drinking it does not matter and hey at least you are getting fit while eating sugar. I was never a sugar person, always savoury but i can go to the shops now and get 3 chocolate bars and a bag of lollies to go with it. whatever takes my fancy i have. oh well it is getting less so cant complain and i am loving those 5kgs i ahve gained. i never ate when drinking.

Its early days, be gentle with yourself Choice.

Daisy you will get way past 3 months.

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Day 11 AF

Is it only day 11? Haha... Hi Daisy! I remember you too. :l. This is what's wonderful about being back. Old faces so to speak. I thought about that yesterday available... I was sitting in the gym posting and feeling bad because I'd caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and was just too hard on myself. I do need to go easy. It's funny, I didn't even understand the point of dessert when I was drinking heavy... The sugar just made the wine not taste as good. I was a savory person too. Now I'm both... But major sweet tooth a chocolates... Well, forget about it!

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Day 11 already, wow im impressed, time flies when you are having fun.

God i didnt understand the point of eating when i drank. i would cook a meal and also drink while doing it then keep drinking and not eat the meal. I was getting way too thin not eating but i used to justify to myself that i was eating fruit, in the form of grapes, so i was at least doing that.

I jsut went for a sausage sizzle at work and it is for "dry July", well i will make a big effort to be sober in July. I used to see those "dry" month doobies and think "i may just do that" and last oh a day and then drink again and think i dont need to not drink for a whole month, my how times have changed.

yes go easy on yourself Choice, i have no expectations except to not drink and like myself again. Two accomplishments thus far and the longer i am sober the more i will add. Stress used to be a big part of why i drank (any excuse really) so now the less stress the easier it is. One day at a time!

Im very proud of you lovely.

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Day 12 AF

Good morning... well almost afternoon. Drinking thoughts were pretty big yesterday. It was a sunny afternoon and lots of people out at the cafes drinking their drinks. I felt good and in charge, like maybe I could handle one in the future. But when I woke up today to go to yoga I felt really great being hangover free and healthy. I'm pretty sure I enjoy hangover free days more then anything. :thanks:

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those al thoughts try and get you and you know where modding led the last few times choice, so now you know that moderating is not an option for an alky. I had thoughts of a wine yesterday, damn it was friday, thats what we do (forgetting the mondy to thursday drinking also) but i know i can never buy that bottle, i can never drink when someone asks if i want a wine. But that is all it was a thought. they still come and go but now i realistically know that i cant drink. I still miss my ex best friend but he is dead and i can never get/have him back. I forget what its like to wake up with a hangover but i bloody know i dont want to drink and see what the consequences are. I forget what wine tastes like now though i do know i loved the taste but it was the addiction i was in. i think now that wine would taste foul. makes me shudder thinking about it.

you are doing so well and day 14 coming up, the worst is over and i bet your baby loves her mumma so much more sober and being with her daily. those memories are so precious.

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Yep, Friday... it looked appealing... but only that. All I have to do is remind myself that the last time I got drunk was on a Monday night, while everyone was asleep... um... so what is appealing about that? Nothing!
Especially with how my head felt Tuesday... and how down in the dumps I was emotionally. x

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I remember now why i ended up on mwo and it wasnt to make friends but that is the added bonus! I remember how i was on a downhill slide to being totally unwell and just waiting for something bad to happen due to al. Now i worry about my smoking but giving that up on 1st june when i am 6 months af. its time to get rid of another addiction.

I do not miss the anxiety and depression one bit and funny how i blamed them on everything but al.

Glad you are doing so well Choice

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Day 14 AF

I couldn't get internet service yesterday. I'm glad your feeling better available. I remember when I drank that I also was just waiting for something bad to happen. It's so very sad how AL makes us neglect ourselves. Good for you on ditching the smokes in time. I smoked for 20 years so understand how hard it is. It's a little harder for the first few days and weeks.., but that addiction doesn't sneak up on me at all... Like the drinking one. Thank heavens.. They are so bloody expensive these days! :h

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congrats on your 14 days, 2 weeks, excellent work. Nearly the worst over and now its just the plodding along day by day, week by week, just living life without al and its so much better. I always thought there would be dancing girls and a parade when i stopped drinking but nope, nothing, just another day. I want a parade for my 6 months but dont think i will get one lol.

I am not looking forward to giving up smoking but i need/want to so it has to be done, i went to the drs and got the drugs so fingers crossed. Another thing to give up with determination and will power and thank god there are not as many people that smoke than there are drinkers. I'd never leave the house otherwise.