I just put a big zero in my drink tracker today marking one week without a drink!
I have had a few trials this week that I successfully overcame... The hardest was the fact that I totally forgot that my wife and I joined a wine club that delivers 2 bottles a month to my home(Doh!). My wife has been out of town on business and the package sat unopened for 3 days, (I was afraid to physically touch it). My wife came home tonight pleased to see that I hadn't guzzled the wine while she was away (which I surely would have done if it arrived a week ago). She had a couple glasses with diner (I opened the wine for her as usual), and just before writing this I actually poured a half full glass that she had left on the night-stand back into the bottle...
I feel so frikkin good right now! ... but strangely I also feel worried and anxious about the future. Part of me is afraid that any day now I might slip, and the stakes seem so much higher because I've come so far. I feel that if I blow it tomorrow it will be even worse than if I blew it today. I know that some of this is just a fear of change, but the more sober I get the more I realize how much alcohol has affected me and and how vulnerable I am right now.
Well, one day at a time I guess.
Thanks everyone for all of your support. I could never have made it this far without all of your help!
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