Hi,
Thanks to all of you I've finally taken myself to the doctor and I'm now taking Campral, early days yet, but I feel different, like I have hope in overcoming this demon that lives inside me. I'm also going to be contacted shortly by an alchohol and drug councellor and I'm making an appointment to see a phsyciatrist.
And I also decided to do something that has been my lifelong dream to do. Today I went for my first Scuba Dive.
What an amazing experience, I felt so at home under the water, it was just amazing, I got to feed Gropers that were bigger than me, swam through an underwater cave, and went to shark gutter, where I saw 5 grey nurse sharks, they're huge!!!! two swam by , one at a time, then 3 of them came around the corner together, and one seemed to take an interest in us and swam up close and then just glided past,
I swam over cliffs and held starfish and a lobster, and saw so many colourful fish of every shape and description, it was just surreal, I felt like I was in a movie, and despite my nervousness on the boat, once in the water I felt no fear at all, it was like being in another world, a calm, beautiful world. I have to laugh, I feel like Homer Simpson now, I want to run away and live under the sea!
I feel like my life has turned a corner, and I've decided to continue and do the course to become a dive instructor, It's not cheap, but the dive master is a great guy, we talked about alot of stuff, and he is doing me a deal, I can take it one step at a time, and I can pay it off in my own time.
I can't say enough how much I owe all of you for being the inspirations that you are, and for giving me the hope that I can beat this and do the things I've always thought were just a dream to me. Thanks. I can't stop smiling, I've just had one of the best days of my life!!!
Love to you all!!! Jasmin xxx
Thanks to all of you I've finally taken myself to the doctor and I'm now taking Campral, early days yet, but I feel different, like I have hope in overcoming this demon that lives inside me. I'm also going to be contacted shortly by an alchohol and drug councellor and I'm making an appointment to see a phsyciatrist.
And I also decided to do something that has been my lifelong dream to do. Today I went for my first Scuba Dive.
What an amazing experience, I felt so at home under the water, it was just amazing, I got to feed Gropers that were bigger than me, swam through an underwater cave, and went to shark gutter, where I saw 5 grey nurse sharks, they're huge!!!! two swam by , one at a time, then 3 of them came around the corner together, and one seemed to take an interest in us and swam up close and then just glided past,
I swam over cliffs and held starfish and a lobster, and saw so many colourful fish of every shape and description, it was just surreal, I felt like I was in a movie, and despite my nervousness on the boat, once in the water I felt no fear at all, it was like being in another world, a calm, beautiful world. I have to laugh, I feel like Homer Simpson now, I want to run away and live under the sea!
I feel like my life has turned a corner, and I've decided to continue and do the course to become a dive instructor, It's not cheap, but the dive master is a great guy, we talked about alot of stuff, and he is doing me a deal, I can take it one step at a time, and I can pay it off in my own time.
I can't say enough how much I owe all of you for being the inspirations that you are, and for giving me the hope that I can beat this and do the things I've always thought were just a dream to me. Thanks. I can't stop smiling, I've just had one of the best days of my life!!!
Love to you all!!! Jasmin xxx
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