This last weekend

[hablur]

Well all,

I have been away since Friday visiting a friend a couple of states away for the weekend. I had a terriffic time even though we ended up leaving early on Sunday night instead of staying until Monday.

I drank. I drank so much less than I normally would and I drank in a way that I actually think is far more social than I was ever able to do it before. I give thanks to Topa for this even though I started Topa only last Monday at 25mg. Friday I had 5 beers over an 8 hour period and Saturday I had 6 beers over a 9 hour period. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I never felt tipsy and just enjoyed the flavor and company. Sunday we went fishing and drank water.

I'll be honest, I do not even remotely feel quilty at all. Maybe I should, as I am going for AF but it was a party with lots of folks and I totally controlled it and did it with no freeking urges to slam beers. I just enjoyed myself going slow.

Monday I started taking 50mg of Topa. We will see how this week goes. So far I dont really plan on drinking. I didnt on Sunday and had a few at the BBQ on Monday but back to just living life and going to work etc this week so no reason to drink

[ducky]

This last weekend

Hablur, sounds like a fun time. I remember someone talking about DF a week or two ago. Maybe that is what you achieved this w/e. Seems like you are ready to get back on track this week! I don't think you need to feel guilty.

[Guest]

This last weekend

WAY TO GO!!!!! Happy for you!!!

[soloman]

This last weekend

I wish I could moderate like that! You should feel Great!

[soloman]

This last weekend

I wish I could moderate like that--it really wakes you up to the fact that being so out of it isn't the way to go! Congrats!

[WilliamTheFree]

This last weekend

Way to Go...congratulations...keep up the good work!

[sammys]

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You did good!! I know you are just questioning yourself right now which is good. I think you did great even if you want to be AF. I know its not easy. You should not feel guilty at all its your decision no one elses. I have felt exactly like you have!!


Sammys

[hablur]

This last weekend

Thanks guys for all the comments. I wanted to say though that I am in no way at all questioning myself. I learned an important lesson over the weekend. I know it was primarily because of the topa but it is this... You can have a good time drinking in moderation! No need whatsoever to get blasted and get the high to have an equally fun time. In fact I recall everything from this weekend That is a definate plus.

This week I plan on not drinking and frankly I am planning, at least at this moment, not drinking at all thsi weekend. I have some projects I want to get done this weekend and I want to get an early start on them. Kinda hard to do that if I am sleeping in trying to avoid a hangover.

[hart]

This last weekend

(((Hablur)))

I'm proud of you!:goodjob: This weekend was tough for me, I really wanted to drink. So I don't think I can moderate now. When I feel I can do what you did, less than a beer an hour, then I may do so.

I'm glad you had a great weekend!

[ScoobyDoo]

This last weekend

Hey Hab, that's great to hear that the topa is working!

I think it's a good exercise to monitor your triggers. If I use myself as an example, at times (in the past), I was actually be more vulnerable on weeknights, when I'm under stress and want to self medicate (as I know has also been your case recently) so when you were away on the weekend, you were out of the norm routine so it might;ve been easier to break the cycle and drink sensibly. I might be off track here, but just thought I'd offer my thought just in case.

Lots of love
Scoobs

[hablur]

This last weekend

Hmmm Scoob. I hadn't thought of that. I was actually terrified of this weekend because my friend is a very heavy drinker and likes to get really blasted and as I predicted he did and wanted me right there with him. Interestingly enough though it was easy to convince him I was drinking more than I actually was

[ScoobyDoo]

This last weekend

Hab... that sounds like he was possibly thinking that as long as he knew that you were still his ol' drinking buddy he was comfortable, but that he was really more interested in what he was drinking and 'putting away' so to speak. Know what I mean?

You sound like you're making awesome progress Hab... work it baby!

[Mags]

This last weekend

Success

Hab - Sounds like a success story to me. Great job, :wd: I'm glad you had such a great time. Sometimes I really think mod is much more difficult than ab. You are an inspiration to many of us.
:h

[julie001]

This last weekend

Congrats Hablur. I never feel guilty when I am able to successfully moderate either. It sounds like you are in a very positive frame of mind. Good for you! Good luck with the topa.

Julie

[Mags]

This last weekend

Hab - Sometimes it works to just grab a beer early in the party, pour out a little in the bushes or toilet somewhere, and just hold it all night. Everyone thinks you are "cool" but you are much smarter than they are!!!