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[Guitarista]

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Morning Cori and all to come,

Condolences and thoughts go out to the families of all who lost their lives in the Malaysian airlines crash over the Ukraine this morning. 27 Australians onboard. What a tragedy.

[coriander]

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Oh no ! Another Malaysian Airlines? That's terrible. Those poor families.
To think, mum and i were going to be flying that airline on our way to Sweden .

Terrifying, for those poor people.

[tawnyfrog]

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Reggie;1683632 wrote: Ok I am gonna go out and say it

Corrie you posted this sorta thing not once but numerous times over numerous years it begins....a post ... I have taken all the pills end of..not a talk you down from the precipice type thing... but a I have done it guys and I am shutting down now ... the thing that scares us all corrie is you are a vet you have the euthanasia drugs to do it we know you are not fantasizing .you can follow through and you are not just drunk and flirting with suicide.

Do you appreciate how this affects us ..everyone frantically tries calling cops ambulances neighbors and stuff and your phone ..no response ..then you pop up later and post as if everything is ok with no apologies for not responding . HOW the fuck do you think we feel ..we cant just park that in our back pocket..Seriously corrie we love you but shit dont do this to us anymore please suicide sends shivers down the caring spine ...its real to us
sorry i had to say this

I have been here a long time and Im sick of it to be honest seek help please...i am not abandoning you ..but you are scaring me and others shitless ..now ..I sense isolation and stuff i beg of you.... we are here on a web site for problem drinkers and are NOT equipped to help anything beyond that ...its unfair to expect that of us .....if you are suicidal..... sorry but we are not equipped .....you keep scaring the shit out of us and thinking its ok to put it down here ITS fucking not can i be clearer.
ring me if you wish to talk and discuss I am not heading up a cheer squad this is me your friend Reggie talking!!
Probably tired and stuff but i needed to get this off my chest.
this site is a support site for problem drinkers end of.

Thank you, Reggie. :l

[nicelife]

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Thank you our Reggie! I love you - truly :l:h

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Reggie;1683733 wrote: bump any one got comments i dont wanna do this alone

Yes I have a comment.

I wholeheartedly agree with everything you said Reg. Including the sentiment that we do indeed care very much. I wish only the best for you Corrie and strenuously encourage you to get help

However, recent posts have sent me directly into the worst anxiety attacks and consequent alcohol cravings that I've experienced in two years. I have to protect myself and my sobriety, and if that is selfish then so be it. We are all struggling with our own demons here.

It is for that reason that I will not return to posting on the Undies thread until this behaviour desists.

And Reg, you are a brave and scrupulously honest, as well as caring, man and I applaud you for putting forward a view which may well prove to be unpopular, but which needed to be said.

[coriander]

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Wow reggie.
I truly had NO IDEA of the impact upon any of you. I have seriously taken you all for granted, that because i can be so coldly clinical, that i didn't think ever that, at the other end of this keyboard......
I am so so so sorry. That's about all i can say at this point.

[A Better Me]

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Reggie;1683733 wrote: bump any one got comments i dont wanna do this alone

You're a big brave beautiful man Regalicious and what you said is very true & pretty much echoes how I have felt. Thank you. It's because we care about Cori that makes it suck. If we didn't care we'd just breeze over it.
I've been AWOL as I've been working...24/7 pretty much. My wallets fatter but I'm learning to say "No" so I can spend a bit more time with the family.
You're all awesome Undies and now I've gotta fly to...you guessed it...work again!

[A Better Me]

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coriander;1683889 wrote: Wow reggie.
I truly had NO IDEA of the impact upon any of you. I have seriously taken you all for granted, that because i can be so coldly clinical, that i didn't think ever that, at the other end of this keyboard......
I am so so so sorry. That's about all i can say at this point.

Thanks for the apology, hon :l

[Rags]

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It was all alluded to in the 170 series of posts a couple of weeks ago.
Amongst a lot of other things I was cheesed off that Mr. G's post #186 didn't even get a thankyou.
Glassy was so upset over your original post at some ungodly hour of the morning and when she did finally make contact you acted as if nothing had happened.
It just seems to me to be so egocentric on your part Corrie.
I have tried to be your friend, but it is a bit of a strain and I really wish I hadn't wandered into the recipe forum the other day..

This site will attract people who have problems other than those associated with alcohol, but for severe psychiatric or other mental health problems,
this is not the forum for that sort of assistance.

[coriander]

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Ok rags you've said what you feel.

[coriander]

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No one has ever called me egocentric before. But if that's how you perceive me then you're entitled to your opinion.

[Rags]

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I didn't get any enjoyment posting it Corrie.

[Miss Behaving]

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My 2cents worth.

Reggie, thanks for posting. It was brave and I appreciate that it was hard. You are a good man :l

Corrie, thank you for the apology. I hope you can understand that this conversation is happening precisely because we do care. We get to know a lot about each others inner lives on these forums, in a way that often doesn't happen in the "real world". That results in a agree of intimacy, and speaking for myself, I spend quite a lot of time thinking about what is going on for different undies - how x is coping with situation A, what's up with Y's animals/children/grandchildren, what the weather is doing in Queensland/Victoria/ Arizona etc etc. We've all been witness to your struggles over the last few years, and a number of us have been in touch and offered support. I don't underestimate just how hard that has been for you, but I'd also been thinking that you were making great strides this year in having moved out, taken steps to get legal advice and going regularly to counseling.

I read your post from last week when I woke up at about 4am and got up to make myself a up of tea. I had your phone number from a couple of years ago, but (a) it was 1am in WA and (b) I knew it was an old number and I suspected that if it was still connected I would be more than likely reach your ex instead. I went back to bed and spent hours wondering about what the best thing to do was.

Since I have been on MWO, there has been 1 death and 2 suicides amongst members. Plus a number of people who have ended up in emergency rooms and the like. The toll is devastating.

Like Reg says, we aren't specialists, just a bunch of alkies and addicts, who know a bit about what this struggle is like. I'd really like to know if you have a plan such as the one the Mr G suggested - someone who you can contact and who can get to you quickly to offer the support that you ned when you get into the sort of space that you were in last week.

take care :l

[coriander]

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I understand and harbour no resentment.

[coriander]

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I apologise for putting you all through that. Of course you're not equipped, that was extremely unfair of me.