One Step at a Time - July 2014

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Hello Mrs Bear-to-be and Beloved Mr. Bear
I laughed K9, as I remember you rearranging furniture when you first quit....anxious much?? I am SO happy you like your job. Maybe a raise will be forthcoming???
Nora - I tend to be very weepy when I have had drinks the night before, but it helps so much. So, weep away woman.
Wrecky - you are retired, right?? Or not working?? I must admit I am jealous, but bills must be paid and there are gargantuan children at home to feed. Plus, as I said earlier, the busy-ness is good for me.
I would rather have my head buried in a book or hands in the dirt tending a garden.
The whole business trip has been changed and I am not a happy camper. I am, however, a team player, and will do as I am told. Just different assignments and locations. I had all my maps saved in my phone and all my forms printed....sigh

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

x post Nursie
you sound fabulous!!!!! That makes me happy!!!
If I had any AB Niner, I would send some. But I sent mine to someone that is now making fun of us elsewhere. Oh well.

[fennel]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Have fun, Zenny!

Mama, I don't take Benadryl every night- you do build a tolerance to that, just like with benzos. Only take them when I want to just get to bed after a trying day. I picked up some timed release melatonin, and they work pretty well for me.

Niner, I'm glad you accomplished so much last night. Hang in there. :l

Pauly, keep on trying. :h

Nora, I hope things get better soon. You have a lot on your plate these days. Maybe you should read some comedies, or watch some Carol Burnett. :h

Dottie, good for you on getting to the gym.


Nursie, sounds like you're doing well.

[Dottie Belle]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

butt was kicked at the gym..I wont be able to lift my arms tomorrow...but we are back at it and I feel good.
I am in for the day. Need to do some laundry and try to catch up...

[fennel]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Met my best friend for breakfast and then went and did some shopping for mom, brought her her two CSK meals, and took her walking at the mall. Her pulmonary work out class is down to once a week, so on the days she would be at class, I am taking her walking at the mall. Walk for ten minutes, rest...walk, rest...walk rest. Takes an hour to get in thirty minutes of walking, but she really enjoyed it.

When we got home, I fried up her sweet corn fritters (this CSK rocks!) and served her one, along with her cole-slaw. She loves being waited on like that, LOL. While she was eating, I did her dishes and cleaned the kitchen, gave her cat his meds, got her clean skivvies out of the dryer, etc.

Now, I am heading to the cabin to do yet more cleaning, weed trimming, etc. Water the garden. I will be back tomorrow.

I love you guys. :h

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Fenny - will you be my mommy??
Good job Dots!!

[Recluse]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Glad you're doing well, nursie. How did your friend find the AA meeting?

Yes I am retired mama, but not irreversibly so. I totally agree with you that holding down a demanding job can be a big help in the battle to stay sober. My own drinking habit definitely became worse after I finished with work.

That's a pain in the bum about your business trip being changed. Is it still Orlando that you're going to?

Well done on getting yourself off to the gym dottie!

You really are a good daughter fenny. I hope your mum appreciates what you do for her.

[Nursie]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Mama, I am feeling pretty good! I'm so happy that makes YOU happy! That makes me smile. (Don't tell Niner, lol)
Reccie, I don't know if she ended up going. Her brother came for a surprise visit last night to talk with her and she didn't want to talk about it. He traveled quite a distance and she bailed on him and went to the city.

I think we all have different levels of crazy. The bottom line is that when we get some distance from alcohol, we begin to think it's ok to drink again. For most of us, that's when the wrecking ball should come smack us in the head! It's truly mind boggling the games Al plays with us. I think for me it is because I want to be a normal drinker. Sometimes I can. Most times I choose not to. Does that mean I can't? Probably. Alcohol really has no place in my life, but it beckons like an apologetic boyfriend...

I stopped at my favorite greek cafe on the way home from work, wasn't thinking of alcohol at all. But as we walked in (with my son) to order take out, I saw someone sitting at the bar, leisurely sipping a glass of what smelled like Shiraz and eating his dinner. He thoroughly enjoyed his food, and didn't even finish the wine. He seemed so happy.

I could have ordered a glass, but I took TTFP. HA!!! I'm bad Nursie when I drink. I'm good Nursie when I don't. It's that simple, but somehow is too complex to not try to find a way around! Like a broken record.

Anyway, enough of my Yappin.

I'm saving money for the down payment on my house with the money I would have been spending on Al and cigarettes. Then cash in some vacation time, and cash in a little retirement I could really have a nice down payment if I play my cards right. Maybe next year.

Here's your cookie for you if you made it this far! Darn it, where are my smilies??? O

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Rock star Nursie!!! I am usually silly, relaxed Mama when I drink, but it does take a bad turn sometimes. And that makes it a problem. I am still a work in progress.
Beloved Mr Bear, yes, I am still going to Orlando, just a different location. I chose not to be mad and just roll with it. I was all printed and organized and now I am a bit discombobulated, as we say in the South, but I know my job and I will be fine.
Time for dinner and Greys Anatomy. I am really enjoying it, even if some of the medical stuff is a bit ridiculous.
Nursie.... Good luck with the house!! And don't tell K9 I am flirting with you!! She can get a little crazy.
Hi to eveyone else and special hugs to Pauly and Nora.

[allswell]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Hi All,

Mama, I forwarded AB I had on hand to someone who didn't seem to appreciate the effort either so I know how you feel. Favorable to know we try to be the best we can be and let the end result be what it is.

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

I was going to 'multi-quote' and be clever but I give up. :H

Nursie - your post hit the nail exactly on the head! I absolutely think that oh - I can control it this time. :sigh: You are doing great!

I think we all have different levels of crazy. The bottom line is that when we get some distance from alcohol, we begin to think it's ok to drink again. For most of us, that's when the wrecking ball should come smack us in the head! It's truly mind boggling the games Al plays with us. I think for me it is because I want to be a normal drinker. Sometimes I can. Most times I choose not to. Does that mean I can't? Probably. Alcohol really has no place in my life, but it beckons like an apologetic boyfriend...

Mama - I'm sorry that they changed up your plans. Hang in there sweetie. Remember that I'm here - you can call me anytime! You've been there enough times for me. :blushing:

K9 - are you moving furniture tonight? Maybe that is what I need to do. :H Actually, I am about to start going thru mounds of stuff (yes - I'm a pack rat) and get rid of. So, that is going to keep me very occupied!

Fen - I think it's so nice that you can spoil your Mom. :l I hope that you can survive your weekend company ok. What a pain in the ass!

Pauly - I've been thinking about you so much. Just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in your struggles. We ARE going to get this. We are just having a rough time. :h

Alls - I can't believe that you the person you sent the AB to wasn't appreciative. That is rotten. Just know that you did a great thing.

Dottie - great job on getting to the gym. I was going to go after work but I've been having tummy issues all day. Last thing I wanted to do was try work out with my aching stomach. But, my son & I are set to go tomorrow!

Out of my smilie limit so posting this and then continuing.....

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Night all. Early day tomorrow

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Here I am again - was going to insert a laughing icon but don't want to waste it. Yes - I guess I am addicted to the smilies............

Reccie - I think it's great that you are going swimming. If this isn't too personal - have you found that it really helps since you are busy in the evenings. I don't know your history and don't want to be nosy. :h I have 'INSISTED' to myself that I get back to the gym because right after work is my 'bad' time. I wasn't able to go today but plan on going tomorrow and I think it will really help. Just wondering about your experience.

Kradle - did you ever write about your visit with Matt? I missed it, if you did! You need to let me know your girls schedules so I know when you can talk. :H Did I hear that you are going camping? (I hope it's in an RV with a bathroom :H)

Ok - again - I have reached my smilie limit........:H

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

Zen - you cracked me up with your post today. :H:h You snuck into a theater?!? :H Anyway - have a great time. Can you also forward me the bankruptcy info? I don't think that's where I am going but would like to have the info. :upset:

Liz - where have you been or what have I missed?!?!? My memory is shot......between alcohol and menopause, I am doomed! :upset:

and on to the next post..........

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - July 2014

And, in saying that - I know that I haven't mentioned everyone and I apologize. I have got to pay some bills.

Thank you all for the PM's and messages about my sobbing. :upset: I needed it and it helped me feel so much better. So much going on in life right now and I needed a good cry. I got a text from my brother today where he said 'Do you ever have one of those days that you just want to say FUCK it?'. I called him and the first thing I said was that 'Yes - I do have those days.' At least it made him laugh. :H (He is the one that is taking care of my Mom. She is such a loving, happy person but he has to deal with everything. Today he was trying to have her get ready for her physical therapy appointment and she kept not getting ready. He kept telling her (and, admittedly, he is gruff/abrasive/rude, etc.) and she finally went in her bedroom to get dressed. He said he heard her say "SHIT". :H

PS - Fennel - Carol Burnett is a good idea You know I love her:h