Member Join Date: May 2007
Location: sydney australia
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My mistake
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HI everyone,
Thanks for the support, apparently i got the days mixed up, so my son told me when he got home from school i was on day 7 not 5 so today is day 8(no wonder it felt like forever)
Baby steps'
Well had a shit nights sleep, woke up about 4am crying in my sleep, then proceded to cry for another hour, god i think i will start drinking again the emotions are really freaking me out, i guess the booze was holding a lot back, not only that my skin has turned to crap, did anyone have these problems?
All my life i have been trying to make people like me, even my family , last night i must have been dreaming about it. The problem with wanting people to like you, is that you tend to put up with the wrong people, so since i realized that the people in my life were happier when i was a complete mess, i have re-thought who i should have as friends, and guess what not too many left.
A lot of my friends went when my partner an i split, funny even though they knew that he was mentaly and physicaly abusive, really finding hard to understand, i guess i must not be very likeable, feeling pretty alone right now, and now i have lost my best friend of all
Al- Alcohol. NO more numbing the feelings, god what a ride.
Its so hard to wake up every day and keep going, wondering why people dont like you, i just dont know what i am doing wrong,surley out of those 70 people that came to my 40th bithday some of them wernt pretending to be my friend because of Glenn, why cant i see what they see. anyway enought depression, sorry guys just venting. Hope everyone is doing well have a great day talk again soon
chilli
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