A year in review

[sunshine_gg]

Well, as Bridgie requested... here's my "THEN AND NOW" comparison

Then: Fitful sleep, laced with anxiety
Now: So-so sleep, laced with late night munchies

Then: Dread of what the end of the day may look like
Now: Certainty that whatever may happen during the day or night, I'll be present and sober to deal with it

Then: Self loathing, guilt, shame
Now: Self criticism without guilt or shame

Then: Distorted view of life, family, and other relations and subsequent overreaction to interpersonal problems
Now: A much clearer perspective. The ability to separate persons from issues. The realization it's not all "about me"

Then: Heart gripping fear and anxiety
Now: The serenity prayer

Then: Feeling worthless, feeling not worthy of being treated well
Now: Demanding to be treated fairly and well

Then: Spending ungodly amounts of time planning to drink, planning to acquire booze, hide bottles, dispose of empties, etc.
Now: Waste my time in different manner


In all seriousness, it's a different life today. And, today is what counts... today may be all I have. I feel much more centred, anchored, and WHOLE. I know that I'm making better decisions when it comes to partner, kids 'n whatnot... I can feel it.

I wish to continue on this journey and I wish for each and every one of you to set out and/or continue on your own journey to sanity.

[bkyogagurl]

Wow... That is really a neat perspective...

Congratulations on your year Sunshine... I wish I was there.

[sunshine_gg]

Thank you girls
BkYoga, where are you at in your journey? Can we help?

[Guitarista]

Onya GG!

[myhappyplace]

Sunny love, that is so well put together. You're doing beautifully and the then and now's show that.

I do love the "waste my time in a different manner". I hear you :congratulatory:

[Byrdlady]

Congratulations, Sunny!
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It truly is a world of difference! GREAT JOB! Keep up the great work!! Byrdie