One Step at a Time - November 2014

[Dottie Belle]

Morning all,
Woke up to 62 degrees in the house. Thermostat provided by energy company is not working so heat not turning on. Called them and they said no one was in on Saturday..so I asked them who I should sue if we get pneumonia?? Well sure enough they found someone for me to talk to....they are going to send someone out I guess now we have to rearrange our whole day....damn...
Now the darn phone is not working correctly....that is the cable company who I have been on hold with for 5 minutes.....Good grief....
I am on the funeral committee at church and we had a member pass last night so I had to rearrange my days next week to take care of that....I need a vacation..
Other than that the sun is out but cold....

[Kradle123]

Choir this morning with the girls.
Cold but sunny. Going to walk with my girl friend here shortly.

Tired today. Everyone have a safe and happy Saturday:heartbeat:

[mama bear]

some very wise words spoken here!
I am doing some laundry but other than that just being lazy.
Date night later .....
I am thinking of K9 and Nursie, too.

[Dottie Belle]

Had a great day. Doggies got to play time at the meet up place and the thermostat is fixed, which I could have done myself if the gal on the phone had just told me what to do....next time.
Home phone is going to require the cable company to come out...
In for the evening.

[Kradle123]

Dots I love what you said to the heating guy!! Well done and glad it's fixed. :heartbeat:
Mama enjoy Date night. No matter what else may go wrong, the fact you gave a good man is everything. You did good!
:goodjob

Sun, how was your meeting?
Nora, do you have an iPod ???
Liz hope your cheering up:heartbeat:
K9 how's the family party going? Thinking of you tonight sweetie:heartbeat:

Home without Alcohol tonight but that was a hard chore to be sure, I'm afraid. Choir en visits to Los friends but couldn't help but feel deeply sad.... Hubs left after we got home to 'visit friends...' God I wish he were having an affair but...no such luck...

Love you all. Home in bed ...Supernatural ......

[Kradle123]

I completely apologize for laying this out there...I am way way way in the box with my husband...with Alcohol even,,,...Arbinger Style and ping ponging around. I will take the steps to get out of the box...for myself, for Mathieu and my marriage....fingers crossed.

:heartbeat:

[Dottie Belle]

Kradle what is up??? Can we help???? Talk to us.....
DO NOT DRINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sunshinedaisies]

I completely apologize for laying this out there...I am way way way in the box with my husband...with Alcohol even,,,...Arbinger Style and ping ponging around. I will take the steps to get out of the box...for myself, for Mathieu and my marriage....fingers crossed.

I do not profess to understand ANY of that Kradle, apart from knowing that you are desperately unhappy right now..... I am so sorry - it is a rotten feeling...... and I do not know what to suggest. I too am unhappy but have nothing going on in my life to make me unhappy. I am going to start taking some rhodiola and see if that will help - why don't you give it a try - it can really just take the edge off. Thing is I don't think they have any locally so am going to have to order it - I got some a long time ago and that place doesn't have it ....

You do have a lot going on right now - can YOU go for counselling - on your own ? Just a thought - maybe talking things out with someone professional might help.

Hi to everyone else - got to get ready for work ..... back later, Hugs, Sun XXX

[Lizann]

Kradle, so sorry you are so unhappy. Sending hugs your way!!! Sunny has some great advice.

[meggie]

Sun, you are a breath of sunshine. I am interested in the herb or whatever you are talking about. I need to get off this sinking boat and focus on a healthy me.

[Dottie Belle]

Morning all,
Kradle I don't know what to say either. I know you are under a lot of stress and maybe counseling will help...but stay close and talk to us..
Off to church then a train club thingy. I am not feeling well, head full of snot again...wish I knew what causes this...weather is crazy so maybe that is not helping...
Back later.

[Kradle123]

Good morning my people.
I write this truly to be helpful for anyone in a similar position... I have realized over the years of my struggle with this thing called Alcohol that when I stop for any serious length of time...such as now, my bi polar resurdes with a vengeance . I am on medication wich (frankly pulled me from any worse pit of emotional despair - so that was a happy thing) but continuing to drink, even though reduced, could never allow the therapy and mess to to their job properly... I know that belive me....but everyone here knows how hard it is to face that pain without Al instant fix and that has been my bug a boo for years...
So stopping AL is basically crazy making for me...at least for a while and usually leads me back to AL,
I suppose it is the age old debate of which comes first- the emotional illness or the addiction it doesn't make a difference really anymore for me, because they are I infinately connected and I must simply figure out how to live, cope, whatever....living one without the other...

There it is. I hope I explained it in any helpful manner.

Love you all. :heartbeat:

[Kradle123]

Sorry for the spelling and autocorrected sentences...my iPad wouldn't let me preview the post!

[mama bear]

Kradle - I get it! I have been taking anti depressants for years, and just last week my doctor upped my dose for just a few weeks. I used to drink as it made me feel so much better and the SE of the AD disappeared....for a bit.
Throw in a pile of work and financial stress, and you have a very Crazy Mama on your hands. I was hoping for some hormonal relief since I am almost 54 and I had pinned my hopes on menopause and the decrease in progesterone. This is your "happy' hormone. But, due my type of breast cancer, I am not a candidate.
SO- I soldier on. That's all we can do. But I agree with everyone that you need to focus on yourself.....so if you are not already doing so, find a good therapist. And I hope you can find a happier place in your marriage if that's what you want. I know put poor hubs through ringer with all my issues and that's one of the reasons I am so devoted to him.
I love you sister

[Kradle123]

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Kradle - I get it! I have been taking anti depressants for years, and just last week my doctor upped my dose for just a few weeks. I used to drink as it made me feel so much better and the SE of the AD disappeared....for a bit.
Throw in a pile of work and financial stress, and you have a very Crazy Mama on your hands. I was hoping for some hormonal relief since I am almost 54 and I had pinned my hopes on menopause and the decrease in progesterone. This is your "happy' hormone. But, due my type of breast cancer, I am not a candidate.
SO- I soldier on. That's all we can do. But I agree with everyone that you need to focus on yourself.....so if you are not already doing so, find a good therapist. And I hope you can find a happier place in your marriage if that's what you want. I know put poor hubs through ringer with all my issues and that's one of the reasons I am so devoted to him.
I love you sister

I will keep this post forever, Mama! :heartbeat:
You are a true survivor in every sense of that word.
I know you get it. Your words say everything. :hug:
I will soldier on....promise:heartbeat: