One Step at a Time - November 2014

[fennel]

Mama, I think that OITNB would be an awesome costume idea for next Halloween! :welldone:

Dotts, what are you up to today?

[fennel]

Nice to see you, Alky!

Glad you're feeling better, FT.

Kradle, good on your not drinking. Snickers are the lesser of evils.

[Dottie Belle]

Morning all,
Alky thanks for giving the instruction on the time thingy...I had logged off last night and didn't see the question.
We voted this morning now having something to eat. Dh has a dental appointment today. He broke a tooth so now he needs a damn crown $$$$$$$$ but what choice do we have except to pull it and I don't think that is a good option based on location of the tooth. Always something!!!!
I have monthly committee meeting at church tonight...don't we live an exciting life..
But the weather sure is nice today!!!

[paulywogg]

Hey all,Dots you guys stay busy and thats a good thing,sorry about seemung bitchy yesterday,i just get tired of making friends here then they leave,makes me sad,glad the trip was good Liz,hey FT,glad the new job is working out,and yesterday was a manic monday,hopefully it's a tame Tuesday

[K9Lover]

Welcome back Liz! Hope you had a GREAT trip!

Sunni - I was laughing at your comment about Mama and her dinner's always in the oven, I think the same frozen lasagna has been in there for a month...hehe! LOL I've been known to use the oven as storage. HA p.s. Feel free to have the "grumps" any old time, we totally get it!!!

I can't decide whether to take some time off on Monday "THE" day of the move. I was sad last night because there are several boxes and bags of clothes piling up. She says they will be leaving in the morning, so I'm not sure I want to sit there the rest of the day brooding over it. Maybe coming to work the whole day is the best thing. Sierra says either way is fine with her. I think it would be harder on ME to watch her leave...

Alky - Did you ever watch Game of Thrones (in private?) I am on Season Two, one of my co-workers owns them all so I told him I'd probably need to borrow Season's 3 & 4 since I am 145th in line at the library!

Mama - I've never read 50 Shades of Grey, can you believe it? I heard that Charlie Humman (our beloved Jax Teller) was supposed to star in it but dropped out because of conflicts with SOA. Damn!!

FT - Speaking of jobs, the last job I left a few months ago...well they ended up hiring someone and she lasted 3 weeks. But nope, they won't get the "hint"!!!

Alright, off to try to do a little work, then I'll be back.

Pauly - Hope you're ok today...check in and let us know how you and your 'fro are doing today! LOL

:heartbeat::heartbeat:

[K9Lover]

xPost Pauly!!! :love:

[Kradle123]

Thanks ALKY. Found it, no worries Dots

I'm so glad you weren't mad at me Mama...I having a hard time lately getting out from under the self loathing log. I'm getting almost phobic about saying anything or ging anywhere...
Tough morning here as I just wish my husband would find some place else to live... :sad: what a complete #%*+{ he is being....

Also, for the first Time in forever I don't want to vote....I just feel hopeless I guess.. Sorry for Being a downer...Sun, I know how you feel!

Love you all...I'll snap out of it eventually...when my husband leaves I think ( the house that is... Not the marriage)

[paulywogg]

K9, i took the Saturday off that Bobbi left,and tbh all i did was throw a pity party for one,i think going to work is a good distraction,i was ku d of a wreck last nite too but i think it was woman stuff related if you get my drift

[paulywogg]

X-post Kradle,what's wrong hon?just everything?

[K9Lover]

Kradle - We are here for you and we DO understand. I am in a bit of a downer mood today myself.

I was actually trying to get everyone's opinion on whether I should be at home when Sierra leaves, or just let her go and distract myself at work? I mean, does it look bad if her mother isn't even home when she moves out????

[paulywogg]

It's gunna be hard either way Niner,last nite i was luuking at some of Bobbi's stuff and bawling,listening to our old songs bawling,grrr,

[K9Lover]

I am just gonna ask her if she wants me there when she leaves. If she says no, then that's fine...I'm just so torn. I hate the thought of her dad and step mom packing up and thinking "her mom isn't even here?"....although they probably won't even think that. LOL

[K9Lover]

She said not to be there. I think it may be harder on her too. I am still taking off at 1:30 so I can go home and cry. :sad:

[mama bear]

oh shit K9....that would make me cry too...........................
Clay, my 285 lb. 19 year old, crawled into bed with me last night for about 30 seconds and told me he had felt sick to his stomach all day....so I rubbed his head and we chatted..it was nice......I will be a wreck when they leave.
Guess I better start looking for a bunch of Orange jumpsuits, huh?
Fen- I had no idea KILZ was so nasty....my guys use it all the time....maybe they are used to it
Niner...when will you see Sierra once she's moved out?

I am not as grumpy pants today as I was yesterday. A good nights sleep and some sinus meds may have helped, but I still have an apt with my doc in the a.m.
To make yesterday worse...get this....I dumped coffee all over my dresser top. I spilled a Pepsi IN my purse and I broke a nail that I just had fixed the day before. I sound like Scarlett O'Hara with all this drama
NORA..............where are you?
Pauly - I know exactly what you mean about making friends and then seeing them disappear....
I got my pm's and my time zone right.............thanks all
back to fake some work
I LOVE YOU ALL:heartbeat:

[Kradle123]

K9 I think you will be processing Sierras situation for a while so the one day will melt into the whole...so to speak. I would talk to her the night before..go out for dinner.... Maybe take this opportunity to be completely in the moment., not future tripping which is my favorite trip to take!
:hug:
....my upset ness this morning really stems from a strong of events- 2 years ago a big tree fell on the house...last summer my husband noticed cracks warps in the house siding and porch...farmers ins comes out, did a half assed assessment ( according to my husband) and refuses to help pay to fix this new problem.
There is an enormous crack in the foundation- even I see it! And my dream house is becoming a frickin nightmare- now he went and hired another engineer ( for three hundred dollars) to re- do the assessment in an attempt to get Farmers to pay because apparently our house will eventually fall in if we don't fix this and it's going to cost big time....

Meanwhile, back at the ranch, I have Mathieu begging for dad to come to see him in AZ....I have the camp director saying we are going to owe thousands more to keep him there until he makes Maverick...and my husband hasn't worked steadily for over a year...
So in short , this is not the life I envisioned having...ever....not even fucking close (sorry Sun...) and the worst part is that since finding all of you, I can no longer live in the fantasy that drinking will not affect any of this crap...that it will simply give me some relief ....I feel like that guy in the matrix who says just let me go back to living in ignorance if I give up the location of the rebels....
Anyway, I'm off to chant and have a breakdown....love you all
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