Will someone call me on 11/16/14 in the a.m. to give me support?
Hi all,
Trying to quit again, after multiple attempts to quit AL again. Lots of excuses in my life to drink. Lots of knowledge/logic to NOT drink. Can't even recall what my reason was this morning, to NOT go on the wagon.
See, I need to. There has been life changes in my life recently. Yesterday, my husband was laid off. He works at my company, and the company prognosis in the long run is pretty dim. I thought to myself that "today was going to be the day", and then said 'fuck it'.
My health is suffering. I'm getting AFIB-type heart palpitations. I am shirking my day-to-day responsibilities. I'm being really mean to myself. I know I have to take action, and I know that when I'm sober I actually deal with stress BETTER than when I'm drinking and hiding from it. So this is my roll call for support. I have no one in my life to kick me in the arse tomorrow morning. My husband is a functioning alcoholic, like me. But I'm 8.5 years older than him, and it's really affecting me physically. My husband will continue to drink, and that's his choice—but it's difficult to abstain oneself if your partner is drinking, too.
There's a lot more to say, and I could free-associate for hours here, but I will cease and desist. But the original topic remains: will someone call me on 11/16/14 in the a.m. to give me support?
I live in Michigan, Eastern U.S. time. Please message me and I will give you my phone number. I just need an "atta boy" pat on the back to nudge me in the right direction.
Heartfelt thanks,
Nichau/Wendy
Trying to quit again, after multiple attempts to quit AL again. Lots of excuses in my life to drink. Lots of knowledge/logic to NOT drink. Can't even recall what my reason was this morning, to NOT go on the wagon.
See, I need to. There has been life changes in my life recently. Yesterday, my husband was laid off. He works at my company, and the company prognosis in the long run is pretty dim. I thought to myself that "today was going to be the day", and then said 'fuck it'.
My health is suffering. I'm getting AFIB-type heart palpitations. I am shirking my day-to-day responsibilities. I'm being really mean to myself. I know I have to take action, and I know that when I'm sober I actually deal with stress BETTER than when I'm drinking and hiding from it. So this is my roll call for support. I have no one in my life to kick me in the arse tomorrow morning. My husband is a functioning alcoholic, like me. But I'm 8.5 years older than him, and it's really affecting me physically. My husband will continue to drink, and that's his choice—but it's difficult to abstain oneself if your partner is drinking, too.
There's a lot more to say, and I could free-associate for hours here, but I will cease and desist. But the original topic remains: will someone call me on 11/16/14 in the a.m. to give me support?
I live in Michigan, Eastern U.S. time. Please message me and I will give you my phone number. I just need an "atta boy" pat on the back to nudge me in the right direction.
Heartfelt thanks,
Nichau/Wendy
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