One Step at a Time - December 2014

[mama bear]

GM... Nora, I apologize for not saying Happy Birthday to Scott!
I, for one, keep no secrets. I am an open book and have always talked about AL, meds, checkers...everything. I do not like personal attacks, but other than that, I love this place. I hate it when people leave too. But it happens and I respect that.
Pauly- the pharmacist looked at me and said.."WHO is your doctor?" She was gobsmacked that I was being taken off the klono so fast. We shall see after today.
I can tell you that is a BAD drug to mix with AL. After my blackout episode, hubs and made the decision that something had to done. Thus my visit last week. I go again today at 1:15.
My birth mother, Jo, is being buried 5 hours north, next Saturday. I am not sure how we will fit a 10 hour drive and $200 of gas into this weeks plans...
off for some coffee...this Seroquel is great for sleeping, but it's hard to get moving in the morning.

[mama bear]

HI Lizz.....x post. You stated my sentiments exactly. I miss Sunny and Fenny and Zenny and Reccie....

[Dottie Belle]

Morning all,
Off to the gym then yoga later. I feel like a bloated mess from all the junk I have eaten lately. MUST get back on track with that.
I think we talk about AL when needed. I love seeing how we are all having a real life without it...that was always my fear. How do I have fun or be in social settings without it but I have done it and so it can be done.

[NoraC]

Morning all. Last night I thought to myself that the perfect gift to give myself is sobriety! I imagined myself unwrapping it and holding it in my hands. It was a powerful thought. I am holding that in my mind.

Mama - (((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

hello to everyone - got a ton of work here so I need to get back to it. Don't know if I'll be able to sneak on again or will catch you all this evening. :heartbeat:

[K9Lover]

Hi Everyone!
Just had a chance to read back. Yes I do tend to hibernate on the weekends, typing on my iPad is just so darn frustrating! Sunni - Glad to see your post. I hope that you will still pop in now and then, we just enjoy hearing from you. As far as AL goes, I haven't been doing well, and I will be honest about it. Just don't know how to get back to that happy place I used to be in. Now I have another "situation". There's a guy I went to high school with and we have been texting for a year or two (he says five, I say no...MAYBE 2). Anyways he's moving back here to start his life over, as he puts it. He very much wants to be in a relationship with me. When I am drinking at night I think it's a great idea...then the next morning I am full of doubts. I am just in a whirlwind of a mess right now. I kind of just want to check out and not deal with any of this...although I don't know what that means exactly. LOL
I miss my girl so much. I never see my parents. I feel like such a hermit. I need to break this cycle.
Enough "woe is me" for now. Will check in later.
Love you guys.

[Dottie Belle]

Hey K9 maybe he could be a distraction???? And you just might enjoy it. Way back when I isolated and drank alone and when I got out and had some fun I met dh and it was the best thing I ever did. You just never know until u try...what do you have to lose???

[K9Lover]

That's true Dots. I guess we could at least date and see what happens, I just don't want to rush into anything...

[K9Lover]

I have a Doctors appointment on Friday...she specializes in addiction. I really need to find something that works, but all these "drug" stories are scaring me. I know they are hard to come off of when it's time. All I take now is Prozac and Librium, but I don't think she wants me taking Librium anymore....we'll see. Maybe I can try Campral again for cravings...I probably didn't give it a fair chance (years ago).

[Dottie Belle]

K9 NO rush play checkers, hang from the ceiling. go to a movie......

[mama bear]

Dots - you surprise me, you nasty girl!!
K9 - I have texted a lot of stupid stuff when drinking. That being said, Dottie may be right. No promises to the guy, just maybe casual dating.
I know you miss Sierra. Why aren't you seeing your parents?
The doc upped my dose for two weeks. She walked in and was shocked to see how pitiful I looked. She upped my dose for 14 days and gave me a huge hug and said I was probably over the worst of it. She also prescribed a beta blocker to help ease the withdrawal from benzos. Feeling very hopeful right now. We can survive ANYTHING , right?
K9 - I think you should go back on a monster dose of AB for a bit, considering all you are going through. That would scare the shit out of me.....
I love you all, too.

[Dottie Belle]

mama just letting the real me hang out....LOL....:egad:

[K9Lover]

Dots suprised me too with the whole checkers and hanging from the ceiling thing...any other tips you wild woman??? LOL

[Dottie Belle]

Marry a younger man who has stamina...ok enough of this....:thumbsup:

[mama bear]

Dots, you are cracking me up. I admit to having three beers to help cope with this withdrawal stuff.....pleasantly calm and going to bed in a few...it's early, but I think I need the rest. Not drunk.....stopped over two hours ago

[K9Lover]

oh Dots...LOL...so like early 20's or so? My nephews do call me a Cougar.

Mama hope you get some good rest tonight!!