One Step at a time - January 2015

[SKendall]

Pauly, interesting re the anti-d's. One of the first posters here on MWO said her drinking had increased so much on anti-d's. She stopped them, still drank, but less. Anti-d's only work on 50% of people and I've been on a merry-go-round with them.

When I was no longer receptive to celexa, etc., dr put me on mirtazapine for depression AND anxiety. The major negative side effect is weight gain and I am 20 lb. heavier, but at size 8-10 could afford it. My anxiety has not completely left, but it is much better.

The drs here don't do anti-anxiety, which is a good thing, b/c we are forced to look into meditation, etc., more effective.

[Anjicia]

Afternoon steppers its the first Monday of 2015 and just thought i'd stop by and say hello. Anti depressants don't work 100% with heavy or regular drinking that's what I was told and its true. I still take 20g of Ciprimal anti ds that what my Dr prescribed a few years ago but I don't think that was a factor in my drinking too many other reasons or excuses. I used to forget to take meds when I was drinking. Have a good day and to anyone who is back to work after holidays.

[paulywogg]

Hi Skendall,that's interesting, before Zoloft I would drink a few and be done,on Zoloft I would drink and do the craziest stuff, I would go to work and leave to the casino and gamble my day away,I cut myself, I threw a microwave at hubs,I gained 50 lbs in 4 months, I drove drunk 3 hours to see my mom,all kinds of bizarro behavior!! I was on it 3 years and I guess that was enough time to embed a horrible al addiction even after I quit the Zoloft, sheesh,what a roller coaster ride I've been on,I wish doctors here weren't so quick to throw drugs at things,I told the doc straight up back then that I was a drinker,first thing he does is give me klonopin and Zoloft and tells me its ok to have 1 or 2 drinks on it,wtf? What a quack!!

[mama bear]

Morning all...
I had an epic post and hit something on my lappie and it disappeared...

I have been on AD's since my late 20's. I did not start having AL problems until I had gastric bypass and lost 100 pounds....my stomach is half it's original size and I metabolize food and liquids much faster.

Zoloft made me crazy as well, Pauly. I had to try about 4 before I found Paxil. How did you feel with the k-pin reductions?? Isn't it nutso how one little itty, pill can do so much??

I love seeing new faces! Hi Narilly. NS. you are a rock star round these parts, and SKendall....you are my dear friend!
It's Monday and I am going to kick some ass this week.
New Year!!! New Me!!

[Lizann]

Have I mentioned how much I love you guys?! Thanks for being here with me!

[paulywogg]

Well look at Miss Positive Pants Mama over here,haha,you know how I feel about Monday especially today my beautiful little Bobbi flew back to Portland, I've been balling all morning, now I have to go to work, bleh, hi Foxy,you sound pretty positive too I'll pull out of it,I just don't want my baby gone,Bobbi and Brady are my 2 super good kids that are always happy, Michelle is a stoned crab ass,and Kell's always in a funk cuz she hates her job and boyfriend, ho hum,hello to all,I'll check in after work,I may need some support,I hope today runs smoothly for us all

[mama bear]

Lizz...we are here.....what is your twin saying??
and Pauly...same to you, babe! Here, let me hand you a tissue...
I am so glad my kids are still home, but I know the day will come and I need to be prepared......time to make some friends, I suppose!!

[mama bear]

stoned crab ass.....sorry Pauly, but that's funny! :eek-new:

[Dottie Belle]

Morning all,
It is 16 degrees here...dogs didnt even want to stay out. The sun is out but that is NOT helping.
Off to the gym. will come home and do cardio. I dont want to go outside and have sweaty head and I hate taking a shower at the gym..bleh....
Hate to hear about all the issues with meds....I dont take anything except vitamins and I want to keep it that way if at all possible.
Back later.

[K9Lover]

Hi Everyone,
I had to read back the last 8 or so pages just to catch up. Sorry for the folks feeling down or sick. Good to see you here NS and Narily and SKendall! The more the merrier around here.
So I suppose you're all wondering about my checkers partner? (or maybe not? lol) Anyway, he stayed with me for a week, but last night I asked him to go to a friends house or something. I CANNOT get up and go to work and have a man at home, even if he is cleaning and crap. Sorry, but I did that for 7 years and I won't do it again. I know he's only been here a week and doesn't have a job/car/money but that's not really my problem. I know I sound a little hard hearted, but I guess I just don't "feel it" with him, not in the romantic way. And something else I discovered, is he is...ummm, how do I say this....impotent, basically. Seriously, the checkers has sucked. I know it can happen once in a while, but everytime being a disappointment? No thanks. Plus I decided I like being alone...for now... AND, I am definitely going to move, so I have a huge undertaking in the next couple of months. I need to focus on ME right now and getting settled. I had to borrow $100 from my dad last night....I just can't pay that much rent anymore...now I just need to get out of my lease.....I DREAD making that call, since I like my landlord so much.
Anyways, I guess that's enough about me now...trying to be positive in the new year...I'm actually looking forward to downsizing and not having such a big place all to myself...not to mention $600 extra per month.
Back later....everyone that was on vacation last week is now bombarding me with their crap. LOL

[mama bear]

K9, I have been dying to know how it was going!!
I agree with you completely and I am sorry about the impotence. Hubs has issues there, but that just started in the last year or so. Plus, he is an excellent daddy and works his ass off even if he can be a grump.
Where did Mike go?? I wondered if he had a job.....
Whatever makes you happy makes me happy....
Enjoy your solitude...the right guy will come along some day

[mama bear]

Dots, it's sunny and 65 here....sorry!!

[NoraC]

Quick check in. I just love seeing everyone joining us here. :heartbeat: It helps so much to hear the different sides of things.

Liz - hang in there!

K9 - sorry about your checkers partner but if you are not having wild games of checkers now, then that is not going to improve. (I speak from experience ) I think it is so wise of you to try to be alone for a bit. (((((((HUGS))))))))))

Pauly - sorry about Bobbi going home. That has to be so hard.

Waving wildly at everyone........got to get back to work.

[K9Lover]

I totally agree with you Mama and Nora, if the checkers is boring now, it's never going to get better. Plus he has all these "quirks" that I'm not sure I could put up with for too long...like getting out of bed and going to watch TV and falling asleep on the couch with the TV on...crap like that bugs the hell out of me. I dunno, I guess I've been alone too long, but I am much happier alone right now. PLUS, he doesn't help with the drinking. In fact, Thursday night he was drinking vodka and I did NOT like some things that transpired (nothing violent or anything, just the crappy "babysitting" shit....like having to tell him to stay his ass in bed and stop getting up). Wow, I am just totally blasting on him....LOL.
Anyway, I don't know how long he can stay at his friends house, but again, not my problem. I never offered to let him live with me....

[mama bear]

K9..you are one strong lady. I really admire you. I hate to be alone and would probably hang on out of desperation.
Wow, Nora...your arms must tired from all that crazy waving:yay: