One Step at a Time - March 2015

[Dottie Belle]

Getting out is most certainly helping my mood. Sitting here and looking around at all his things is very depressing. So for now I will keep busy and pack his things when I am ready and not before.
Gym today then f2f counselor.
I will let u all know how that goes.

[K9Lover]

Quick check in...will read back and post in a bit...

[mama bear]

they promoted the assistant manager from another property and I just got told Friday would be my last day here...I get off paid.....it's nice, but I was taken aback and my feeling were hurt at first.....
I have ALOT to get done in three days!!
Dots- - I agree - get out of the house babe!
Hey Bird and K9!!

[sunshinedaisies]

No time to post but have read back - so much going on !! I leave tomorrow at 4.00 in the afternoon here - stay overnight in Amsterdam, then arrive Newark sometime !! (LOL). then another layover and another 2 1/2 hour flight.

Will catch up when I get home - promise !! Love and hugs to all,

Love, Sun XXX

[mama bear]

safe travels hunny bunny!

[K9Lover]

I wrote my current landlord an email this morning informing him that I would be unable to afford a new lawn or the last months rent (that I won't even be in the house...I was directed by my attorney to do this) and you would NOT believe the mean, insulting, berating email his wife wrote me back. She even brought up my religion and told me I am a horrible example of my "beliefs". She went on and on about my spending habits and how she hopes I am disgusted with myself, because she is. She says once I am settled and have no debt she wants me to think about them and other responsible people like them that have to work hard to pay for MY lifestyle. Long story short, I forwarded her response to my attorney, and I won't be putting much elbow grease into cleaning the house. Funny how she left out the part of my paying on the FIRST of every month for the last 6.5 years.

Sorry for the rant

[Dottie Belle]

K9 that took a lot of nerve for her to write that....who does she think she is???? Some people just irk me no end.

Counselor was great. I plan to see her for some time to come. She also has a group on Tuesday nights starting on the 24th that I plan to check out and I found one close to home on the 2nd and 4th Wednesdays so I will check that out too.
I have good stretched of time and bad ones too. Still cant fathom being alone. Damn it anyhow.....
Meeting at church tonight. Poor dogs are being left alone too much but cant help that.
Still working through the legal quagmire that is our system....making me crazy....glad I am not drinking or I would be in even more pain and not able to handle any of this....sigh.

[paulywogg]

Hey all, jeez,what a bitch K9!how's Sierra? Dots, your doing amazingI'm not, I'm so disgusted at myself,I can't eat, can't sleep, everyone thinks I drink to get drunk, unfortunately I drink to get through my life, ugh,should not have posted this

[Dottie Belle]

pauly I get it...I would be right there with you but I dont think I have another quit in me and that would be a disaster on all fronts right now.
What can we do to help you??

[mama bear]

Oh Pauly - I am so sorry. Like Dots said, what can we do?
K9 - you are renting from a private owner, right? In Florida, I could not respond like that or I would be sued. And religious belief is a protected class, so you could sue the shit out of her.
Chicken and yellow rice for dinner...yum.
Dottie, I am glad you are reaching out....you are a rock star.
So....I have next week off and have no idea what to do.....maybe the beach all by myself?

[K9Lover]

Pauly, I completely understand. And thank you for being honest with us, no matter what it is. I am kind of on the same page as you right now...
Mama - That's what I was wondering...can she shame and humiliate me like that? And bring up my religion? I forwarded it to my attorney, we will see what he says tomorrow. You should enjoy your week off...or hey, come help me paint my new place. LOL

[Lizann]

Just read back, a lot going on with everyone. K9, why was she so angry with you? I just don't get people sometimes. Just move on honey and don't look back!
Pauly I'm sorry you are having a tough time of it. You are going through a slump. You did thirty days, you CAN do it again. Is there anything I can do to help. I think about drinking everyday to help me cope. Truth is, I'm doing fine without it. I miss you, hang out here with us.
Dottie, sounds like another good day for you. You seem hopeful and encouraged. You really are one heck of a strong women!
Mama, a week off! Pamper yourself. Yes go to the beach! I know I would! Happy birthday to your baby boy.
Sunny, safe travels. Hope mom is ok.
Rusty and Nora, how are you?
Hubby, BIL and nephew are starting on the kitchen floor. Hope it's not a big project like the back splash.
Sweet dreams guys.

[Dottie Belle]

Meeting at church tonight and I just started crying on the way home knowing he would not be here waiting for me. I feel so alone. I miss his touch and hugs and voice....I just cant stand this....I am doing the best I can but I am just miserable.....Went from the best time of my life to the worst.....I hate this.

[Rusty]

Dottie-:hug::hug: Awww.....I have no words of comfort for you, and even if I did, they would be the right words, and even if they were the right words, they would never be enough. You were incredibly brave to go to church tonight, and I know how sad you must have been....hopefully the tears will bring you healing a little bit at a time. Hope you can sleep tonight.

Pauly-do you know why the 30 day AF mark haunts you when it comes to your drinking? You mentioned that you drink to get through your life. Is your life really that bad or does your past haunt you so terribly?:hug:

K9-good riddance to that psycho wife of your soon-to-be-ex-landlord! And why is the lawn YOUR responsibility when you are renting???

Mama-I say go to the beach and enjoy your week off.

Lizz-a new floor....ooh, how wonderful! Enjoy! Good job on NOT drinking! Have your sisters called lately?

Sun-safe journey back to the Midwest. Hope your Mum's ok.

Nora, Recluse, Bird...how are you guys doing??

A sleepy hello from Alabama, where it rained all day but it's 61 degrees! Expected to be in the 70s tomorrow. New client and really nice people. There's a mall across the street, so of course I tried it out and found some great bargains. :-)

Off to bed...see you tomorrow night!

[Kradle123]

Hello my people, :hug:
Huge hugs Dottie. I think of you everyday. K9 same thing happened to me years ago- I still a stomach ache when I think of the betrayal. :hug:
Pauly- your still, with best people here. I know your doing this! Nora, liz, Reccie et al :newhere:

I know I've away but I wanted to let everyone know I'm doing really good. No drinking at all and what's more...no desire at all- honest injun...

But the even bigger news is Mathieu has made it to graduation!!! We are leaving tomorrow for Arizona and he will graduate Friday- yes, Friday the 13th... For those on FB I put a video of him singing a song ( one of many) he has written. That boy has truly become a man of deep integrity. :welldone: I want to thank each and every one of you for holding my hands through this journey. The last part was the absolute hardest!!

There's so much to say ...so much gratitude . I'm heading to bed for early flight. It's 85 degrees in Az. And 45 degrees here. I'm bringing sunscreens boxes and boxes of Kleenex .
Love you all.
Stay strong !