One Step at a Time - March 2015

[bird]

Hi all
Pauly, I do not like AA or the AA book. I feel that some doctors don't know much about alcoholism unless they have been there. There are so many better books. And 30 days is awesome. Remember how good it felt.....Sun, hope you got your house ready. Have a good flight!!......MB, your lunch sounded fun. I need to get out more with people....Recluse, that is to bad about your groin injury. I love to swim and would surely miss it. And I have put a cover on my couch in case Pouncer has another accident...Rusty, your job sounds good. Traveling all over!....Lizann, how old are your kids?...Dottie, you are going strong! You are doing it sober!!!....made it to work on time 2 days in a row but left 10 minutes early, oh well..oh and nobody cares. I was gonna stay but they had thrown a pile of stinking fish heads in the dumpster and it stunk the whole place up when they dumped them. It was bad...

[mama bear]

Bird - you always make me laugh!
Home and snuggling in with shepherds pie and Netflix
Thinking of you Dots.
Hi everybody else!
Nora - TTFP?

[abcowboy]

Paulette, I tried to pm you, but you need to clean out some messages, you're full.... now, I don't usually swear, but sh*t happens, wipe your butt and start over! As you can see, everyone including me, wants you here. It is the best place for you to pick yourself up and have another go, one day at a time...we're all here for you :hug:

[Dottie Belle]

I am so depressed tonight....I just dont know how I am going to keep moving forward.....want to drink to make it all go away but that wont help anything....what the hell am I going to do with the rest of my life....I am alone with no clue....why, why why...

[paulywogg]

Dots, I am the LAST person to give advice, but my heart broke when I heard the news,I started thinking about my husband and how I would handle it, you have kept it together, I don't think I could have, drinking will only make you more sad honey, trust me

[Dottie Belle]

Thanks pauly I know that logically but damn it anyway I feel like crap inside. The evenings are the worst. His sister leaves on Friday so you ALL Need to be here to hold my hand.....

[Lizann]

Hey bird, I have spoken to a doctor about AA. He never came right out and said it, but he was steering me away from AA. It's not for everyone. You made me laugh. Two days in a row, I am proud of you! I have three kids, my daughter is 28, she got married last year. She lives about six miles from here. My middle daughter just turned 25 and my son is 21. The two younger ones are still at home.

Mama, I agree, we all need a good laugh! It just feels good! Shepherds pie sounds delicious. I just made some turkey cutlets and broccoli.

Cowboy, you tell her! Pauly please stay with us.

Dottie, don't worry about the rest of your life right now. Just get through the next day, if you can. I wish I had answers for you. There is a purpose for you. Just a few more days for the grief counselor. Do your friends come by? Do you talk to anyone even on the phone? I gave you my number, if you want to talk, I am here for you. Please let us help you. Are you sleeping at night? How are the doggies dealing? I am sure there is some comfort being with them?

Nora you doing ok?

Sunny have a safe trip. Let us know how mom is doing ok?

Rusty, K9, TT. . Did I miss anyone, love you all. Good night

[Lizann]

Cross post Dottie. I am and will be here for you Dottie <3

[abcowboy]

Dottie, I won't pretend to understand what you're going through, after losing my parents and 2 brothers, you have made me think about Bubba, and just how precious the time we spend together really is! I know you are very spiritual and have a lot of faith, mine has finally returned to me and it has helped me tremendously. I know that you will recognize this poem, and find some comfort in it! We are always there for you as well....

One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.

After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.

This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."

[Dottie Belle]

cowboy that is what was on the back of his program. We both liked it....thanks.
I need to get out of the house and do something. This weather is the pitts and I have cabin fever too.....

[mama bear]

Dottie- you can call me too....I am so sad for you and I am glad you have us. Maybe we could all meet somewhere for a weekend? I'm in....I'm serious here peeps....or I could come to you Dottie.....
Sun- have a fabulous trip with your mum...travel safe

[Rusty]

Good Morning, Everyone!

Last day in Chicago and I am done early today! Yippee...finished by 11:30AM

Dottie, I wish I had some words of comfort for you when you posed the question about what to do with the rest of your life...but I don't and I am so sorry...other than to ask God for guidance so He will show you a path. That's what I do when I feel so completely lost and totally helpless. Somehow He answers my prayers. Ask your grief counseling group that question. Also, I would research books on Grief and Recovery...there must be a bunch of books out there. Is there anyone in your church you can meet up with right away after your SIL leaves so you don't feel so deserted. Also, it is TOTALLY OK to have days when you are not accomplishing a list of chores. It's OK to just "be" and if that means you bawl your eyes out, then do it and don't feel badly about it. If I didn't have such a horrendous travel schedule the next 2 months, I would seriously jump on a plane and come and see you.

Cowboy-I never tire of the "Footprint" story...what a coincidence it was on the back of Dottie's dh's funeral program.

Pauly-is there a Women For Sobriety group in your area or Rational Recovery or SMART??? A program where you are face to face with other people?

Bird-I laughed at your fish head story...What a mess!

Liz-is your kitchen done yet?

Mama-Shepherd's Pie-Love it!

Nora-what are you doing today?

Recluse-when do you think you'll be able to go on long walks with Amy again? Hopefully soon!

Well, time to get ready for work, and Hi to anyone I missed!!! Have a great hump day!

[Lizann]

Read back a bit. Mama, great idea, I'm in too, seriously!

[Dottie Belle]

Morning all,
Off to take care of some legal stuff today. Weather is supposed to get really bad later so I need to get this done. I slept a little better but not great. I know this will take time. I have some volunteer things that I did in the past that I can pick up again. i just dont want to be surrounded with "old" widows. I am too young for that.
Back later.

[sunshinedaisies]

Sorry again this is a quickie - need to sort my food for the journey then am ready to go. Being veggie there is nothing to eat at airports for me - so I always take a ton of food with me as I hate feeling hungry! Feeling very anxious and will be so glad to get on the plane ....

will post tomorrow from UK !!

Hugs to all, Sun XXX