One Step at a Time - March 2015

[allswell]

Hi All, it was so heart warming to be able to log in for the first time in too many months today and see so many familiar faces continuing on. Been gone too long that's for sure.
So sorry Dottie.

[mama bear]

Hi Allswell! Good to see you! How are you?
Getting ready for date night! Sorry Dots - I feel bad even saying that!

[Lizann]

Hey allswell, good to see you!
Nora and Pauly, I sure know how you feel. It's so hard. I have not had a drink, but darn it, I WANT one!
Mama, "peckerheads", lol!!! Saw your picture on FB, beautiful! Do you do date night every week?
Did a lot of shopping today! Bought a kitchen floor this morning. Then went furniture shopping with Erin, all afternoon. She needs some things to fill the loft. A lot of fun! Her hubby bought her a new diamond wedding band for their first wedding anniversary. We got to pick it up today as it had to be sized. OMG, had a blast in that jewelry store! Love me some diamonds! A good day all in all.
Dottie, how was your day? Are you going to church tomorrow?
Not looking forward to an hour less sleep. Already set my clocks ahead. It's such a mind thing with me!
Sweet dreams:love:

[Dottie Belle]

Evening all,
I went to the flea market today that hubbs and I organized. The fellows in our club wore a name tag that said "this one is for Don" and I just cried....what a great group and he was so loved by so many people.....why oh why is he gone and all the shitheads are still here....
I went to a church with a friend and her husband tonight. Not my regular church. One with more up beat music and a different kind of message. Glad I went.
Not sure if I can go to church yet without him and without crying about what we had together there. My heart just aches..
Hope I can sleep tonight without thinking about all this....

[Lizann]

Cross post Dottie. I am glad you went tonight too. Praying for you and sending you more hugs!

[Rusty]

Good Evening, Friends,

Dottie-for someone who wasn't sure if she could even take one step at a time, it sounds like today, you took LONG STRIDES. GOOD FOR YOU!! It's times like these when people of faith have the advantage, I think. It's faith that carries you and prods you to do herculean things when you don't feel like you have the strength. How wonderful that you went to a different church and could worship in a more upbeat way, with friends! And organizing a flea market...now that's work! I am delighted that your dh's friends chose to honor him in that way. When it's time to go back to your church and you feel strong enough to go alone, you'll know.:happy2:

Mama-Congratulations on accepting the job!!! I am so proud and happy for you!! Are you going to buy a new, corporate wardrobe?

Liz-jewelry shopping and lurking....ooh, so dangerous for me. Haha! Love it. Sounds like you had a busy and fun day. Great job on turning down the wine.

Allswell-great to see you here.

Big hellos to Nora, K9, Bird, Sun, Pauly, Recluse, Mr. G (insert beating heart here) and anyone I missed...see you tomorrow. I am off to bed!

[jane27]

Dottie, I know you're hurting and I have nothing but respect & admiration for the way you are getting through this one breath at a time.
Wishing everyone a good MAE. Am really happy about daylight savings. Mama, congrats on the new job, & wowsers re the cost of Obama Care. Why they gotta make everything so hard to understand? Sounds like it could be summed up on one page with bullet points. but that wouldn't be politics. So much wasted energy, time & money on dressing up nothing.

[sunshinedaisies]

Good morning all - mum is coming home today so I am cleaning like crazy! They say she is okay to manage alone but I am glad that I will be here until Wednesday to see how she goes....

Dottie - good for you going to the other church - I can understand how upsetting it will be to go to yours. How are the dogs ? I know that our furries always know when something is going on .....

Way too much to reply to - it is overwhelming when you haven't posted for a while - will try and keep up a bit better - things should calm down now I am not spending most of each day traveling to and from the hospital and fielding phone calls as soon as I get home !! I have no mobile here so Skype and mums phone ring constantly !

On the plus side apparently our house has had a few people go and look at it since I have left which is good ....

Hugs, Sun xx

[Recluse]

Good morning steppers :happy2:

Dottie, I totally understand that feeling of it not seeming real at the moment, and being alone after having been married to hubbs for so long has got to be a huge shock to your system, but it will get easier, I promise you, it just takes time. I really wish there was some way of lessening your pain and speeding up the grieving process. That is very moving about the folks in your club wearing the name tag for hubbs, you must feel very proud of him.

Sun, I am so pleased for you that your mum is recovering well and that you will be able to bring her home today. Sorry about the tiring journey over here and the upset tummy, you've had such a lot to deal with recently. Getting an emergency alarm for your mum sounds like a great idea. Glad you are getting some house viewings already, that is encouraging.

Mama, many congratulations on getting the job, I hope you will be very happy in your new workplace. I trust that Brenda fully understands the importance of your being able to check in with us all throughout the working day! :happy2: Sorry about the way the boys are treating you, that can't be nice. How is nana doing now?

Pauly, sorry to hear about your struggles on the drinking front. I would think that tiredness would have had something to do with it, considering how little sleep you have been getting. Have to say that I don't much like the sound of your sessions with the addiction counsellor and wonder whether you might be better off seeing someone else? Making you talk about stuff you really don't want to talk about doesn't sound right to me, unless you feel it is helping.

Rusty, sorry but you did make me laugh with your novel explanation of POETS day! In answer to your question from a few days back, amy still gets her long walks every day, it is only the swimming that I have to forego. I rather fear that it will be a few more months before I will be able to risk getting back in the pool again, unfortunately. My annual pass there expired last month. You have finished in Chicago, haven't you? Where are you working now? I hope you will be able to sleep in your own bed again, at least for a little while.

Liz, sounds like you had a fun day yesterday! What kind of floor did you get for the kitchen? I hope you found something nice, a well chosen floor can make all the difference to the feel of a room.

Nora, sorry you have been unwell again, but I am glad you are feeling better now. You need to take better care of yourself, I think, but it is not always an easy thing to do when you are under so much pressure.

Niner, how did the yard sale(s) go? You must have a lot of stuff to have so many yard sales!

Hi to bird, sk, jane, rags, alls and apologies to anyone I haven't mentioned.

Another mild, very early spring day here, so I am going to try and get outdoors and do some more tidying up of the garden before the footy starts. Hope we all have as good a Sunday as possible. :happy2:

[Lizann]

Recci, you are so good with your posts! Keeping up with everybody. We got a gray wood lamenent floor. After three attempts over the past two weeks to shop being cancelled due to the snow, we get to the floor store and were greeted by five fire engines and various rescue vehicles!!! I was beginning to think this floor was not meant to be. Turns out it was a false alarm and they let us in the store about a half hour later!

Sunny have fun with mom coming home today! I'm guessing you don't have a car. How is mom getting home?

Wishing it was warm and spring like here, recci! I think we're going to have a high of 38 today, woohoo! Anyway off to get ready for church. Ill check in later.

[Dottie Belle]

Morning all,
I got up wanting to go to our church but I just dont think I am ready yet. I cant sit there and remember all the things we did together and not cry....just cant do it.
So no clue what I will do today. It i totally empty and that scares me. Being here all alone is no good either. what a mess...

[Lizann]

We are here Dottie talk to us! It's nice here, can you take the doggies for a walk. Move a little, maybe that will help!

[Dottie Belle]

I am doing laundry. I need to do something with the flowers in the dining room. Should have left them at church...
Dog knocked over my morning drink and broke a glass all over the floor. I am not coping well. Slept in my clothes last night. I know it is depression...I have a group tomorrow night and counselor on Tuesday. Weekends are going to be the hardest. I am such a mess...

[mama bear]

yes Lizz...we have date night every Saturday
Hi everyone...so much has been posted.....I love it.....I have read everything but am not the great responder that Reccie is~
Hello Beloved Mr Bear:love:
Trying to decide what to do today...I need to go to the nail salon> And yes, Rusty - I will eventually have to go buy some suits for work.
Dottie - just feel my hugs.....I cannot imagine your pain...but I am glad you are surrounded by people that love you.

[Recluse]

Glad you finally managed to get your floor, liz! :happy2: 38F isn't too bad, we got up to a slightly more comfortable 52F earlier.

Dottie, church will still be there next week and next month, so wait until you feel ready for it, no good will come of putting yourself through unnecessary pain. Could you maybe exercise a little on the treadmill (I think you have one, don't you?) if you can't walk the dogs? Or perhaps prepare healthy meals in advance for those times when you might not feel like cooking or are too plain tired? Just a couple of probably not very helpful suggestions, I am guessing that there is very little that will seem appealing to you right now.

Hello beloved mrs bear. Your food last night looked absolutely delicious! :happy2: