One Step at a Time - March 2015

[mama bear]

Oh Dottie - HUGE hugs.......and more hugs.....and kisses...and prayers
Yes - Lizz...we are having date night. A lot had been building up inside me and I had enough liquid courage to let it all out.
We have a gift card to Outback and will be eating there.

[paulywogg]

Dots, you break my heart cry when you need to though, don't bottle it in,have fun on date night Mama,no drinkin! Hey Liz, you guys know we haven't seen FT in a looooong time, hope he's well

[Lizann]

Yes Pauly, you are right about FT. How did you manage at work today. Still sick?
Dottie, just keeping venting here. I wish we could help. As bad as it sounds I think the hysterical fits are healing? Really a month already? You really are a strong woman. I know I'd be drinking. A personal question that you do not have to answer, just a thought on my part. Have you considered maybe taking an antidepressant? I have in the past and it was a tremendous help to me. Please don't be upset, just a thought.
Mama, your picture on fb doesn't look like outback. What a special ring hubby is wearing. My hubs has a couple from his dad too, but they are still just laying around and it's been two years now.
Sunny, ouch in the waxing, you are very brave. My kids tell me I am furry too, on my arms, even though I am blonde too. Whatever. Did you turn red or anything?
Had a good day today. Went out to lunch with hubs, Erin and Mark, by Erin's house. It was a lot of fun and the food was great. Did some shopping, took a walk out side with the fam minus CJ, and then gave Lucy a bath. She's exhausted.
Hubs took her in the car when he went to the car wash, poor thing freaked out.
Well off to watch some netflix. No drinking for me tonight.
Sweet dreams!

[Dottie Belle]

Liz I considered it but I hate to take meds. I took paxil way back when and hated how it made me feel. I need to feel this as much as I dont want to.
Thanks for letting me vent here...you all are the best.

[Lizann]

Good for you Dottie!

[paulywogg]

Hey all, up at the ass crack of not even dawn again, oh well,get caught up on my infomercials haha,forgot about those, Dots, how did paxil make you feel? I still think you're doing well, of course you're gonna be sad but you're holding it together I should go take a walk, grr,drank too much coffee and have sour stomach now,how was outback Mama?love that place! Forgot to ask about"Gone Girl" Liz it was good? Did Kellie's birthday yesterday, hubs grilled chicken and we had lemon bundt cake, that's what she wanted so much easier now that they're grown, I still decorated a bit but I don't have to go all balls out like when they were little, just a few presents and a card with money, still trying to decide on the walk,took a time released melatonin and I think it's still releasing haha groggy as hey!

[sunshinedaisies]

Good Morning everyone !

Dottie - I think you are doing really well - and vent and cry all you need/want to - much better out than in !! Can't believe it has been a month ..... And you might want to consider taking something just to hep you temporarily - doesn't have to be Paxil - Rhodiola helps take the edge of things in my opinion - you would still feel but not quite as badly.... if that makes sense ?

Pauly - sorry you are feeling out of sorts .... I took a Melatonin and a Benadryl last night - I am determined to get some sleep!! Still didn't work that well - I never used to have a problem with sleep so am not sure why I am now - I am wondering if it is the Naltrexone..... Lemon Bundt cake sounds delicious - I love lemon anything !!

Lizann - the waxing didn't hurt that much and I was surprised that I wasn't red afterwards - good thing as I had to go to the supermarket!! Yes my arms are very hairy but being blonde I do not worry about them ... but my face was starting to bother me. I really like how it looks now - well as much as I ever like how my face looks anyway!!!

Liz - poor Lucy!! It did make me laugh though - she must have been totally freaked out by the car wash!!! I cannot imagine !!

Oh Jan - so sorry about you and hubs - you must have felt like a real heel if he got that upset ... so sorry ((((hugs)))) Anyway glad that you enjoyed your date night despite all that!!

I wonder where FT is and how he is doing these days then? I am not sure that he has posted anywhere on the boards at all ....

K9 - how did the move go ? Are you exhausted ? Hopefully you are all settled in now .....is it a lot smaller than your previous place ?

Hi to anyone I have missed - have a great Sunday,

Hugs, Sun XXX

[paulywogg]

Glad the waxing went well Sunni, ugh,back in my super heavy drinking days I used to get drunk and wax my bikini area myself, would only remember it the next morning when my legs were stuck together and it was always such a shitty job,thank goodness I got rid of the wax pot years ago

[sunshinedaisies]

Glad the waxing went well Sunni, ugh,back in my super heavy drinking days I used to get drunk and wax my bikini area myself, would only remember it the next morning when my legs were stuck together and it was always such a shitty job,thank goodness I got rid of the wax pot years ago

ROTFLMBO .......:welldone: Shouldn't really laugh - but that cracked me up !!!!

[Lizann]

OMG, Pauly, you are too funny! Waxing and drinking probably not a good combo. Well sounds like the three of us didn't have a good night. I'm happy it's day and time to get up.
Pauly gone girl was good. Lots of twists and turns. I would definitely recommend it! Im With sunny, I love lemon anything! Your party sounds fun. I agree so much easier now that they're older. I used to have such aniexty over those kiddie parties.
Dottie, how was your night? Did you sleep any better last night? Are you going to church today? Will be praying for you today especially. (((Hugs)))!
I'll check back in later. Have a good Sunday guys!

[mama bear]

Good morning love bugs! Hubs decided he wanted sushi as Outback is too loud and crowded. Pauly, I had three glasses of wine and that was it. Things are very calm and sweet right now...you know how it is after a fight and you both know you are both wrong..??????
Dottie - I agree with Lizz that the crying jags may be healing. As much pain as you are suffering cannot be bottled up.
Sun- I waxed for years, but I was threaded last time and will never wax again. I had my lip and eyebrows done. I have never waxed my lady parts, however!!
Niner - hope you are getting settled in
Gone Girl was a great book and really good movie. Enjoy!

[Dottie Belle]

Morning all,
Restless sleep. Dreams but I cant remember them. Dogs would not leave the dog next door alone at the fence. Barking and growling I just stood in the yard and cried. When will this end?? I am so darn miserable. I want to run away and start a new life. But I am here and cant go anywhere.
One month tomorrow brings back so many things. Why didn't I take him home when the scheduling was messed up. why, why, why didn't I tell him not to have the surgery....I could go on and on and it changes nothing. I am just lost and alone and I hate all of this.
Liz no church until at least Easter is over. We would dress up for Easter and I have a great picture of us together a few Easter's ago. So much history and good times we had together. How do I go on as one alone. I have to find something to do and not just sit here and cry and moan. This is NOT fair and I dont know why I had to wait my whole life to find Mr Right only to have our time cut short. SFDH.......

[mama bear]

can you go to the gym??? call a friend to come over??? I think an antidepressant may help, as well, but I understand not wanting to take them.
Do you have the energy to start a household project?? Or just grab a hammer and go beat on a tree or something......I so hate it that you are alone right now

[Dottie Belle]

I hate it too mama...a friend is coming over tomorrow night and spending the night. Tomorrow is one month gone and she spent the first 3 nights with me. Today I am doing laundry and might get the sweeper out. Just feel numb today remembering what could/should have been.
pauly the paxil made me feel like all my feelings were blunted. Zombie like and I didnt like it at all.
TV sucks on Sunday!

[mama bear]

I have been on Paxil 20+ years and feel like crap when I don't take it
just got a lecture from oldest son and am sure one is coming when second son gets home......not that I don't deserve it.
I need to do laundry too Dottie, but am enjoying being a bum!