didnt hear from neighbour, was waiting in dreaded anticipation. started to think maybe she meant to have her dog from the evening or she had it sorted and didnt bother to tell me. didnt want to call her as that felt like inviting it over and i didnt want it. now, i had the tight chest and irritation, anxiety, annoyance at myself for reacting in such a way over really a small thing. ridiculous. had drinking craving badly. but i knew i didnt want a drink. its reverting to habit. so i ate homebaked ginger biscuits because theyre so good for me arent they.
took brother to station and got a text when i got back at 4.30. ' ive sorted out a system so two dont have to bump into each other. good to know you are around if we need you though' . ffs. tension left me immediately. i didnt want that dog here, i hadnt even offered. seems im now open to having any dog of hers when she needs me to. how did that happen?
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