One Step at a time - April 2015

[paulywogg]

Hey all, sheesh headache from hell ALL DAY! Think it's this dusty air,hey Sam K9,please just TTFP,no dirty thoughts of skipping it,I'm new to taking it and I know it stays around for a bit so I usually take it every few days,at target, they have coconut flavored coffee and toasted almond too,I'm going to get both hope everyone is enjoying their day

[mama bear]

I am home and eating chicken wings...not much else to report except that I spent hours on computer training and tomorrow I have to go get fingerprints for my new license for condo management
Sun- I hope your house sells soon
Hugs and kisses to the sore ribs K9

[mama bear]

Hey Pauly! And of course love and hugs to our Dots!

[mama bear]

good for everyone that is TTFP'ing

[paulywogg]

For realz Mama, so nice to know that drinking is NOT an option, I always thought I had that one stuck in my head but I guess a part of me was leaving the door cracked a bit,enjoy your night

[Lizann]

Quick check in tonight. Another long day at work plus a ton of traffic on the way home. Took me close to an hour to get home. Made dinner quick and cleaned up. Just gonna chill with Lucy and the boys a bit and off to bed. I'll be home tomorrow :welldone: and will post more. Have a good night.

[mama bear]

well I had a lovely evening running back and forth to the toilet all night with the poopies.....washing sheets and jumping in the shower...eeewwwwwwwwwwwwwww

[Dottie Belle]

I am up early to meet with the fellow from the train club. He is coming by to get the file cabinets to sell for me. I just hate all of this but I cant keep everything and someday I will need to move and I might as well start getting rid of things I dont use/need now.
Tomorrow I take the RV to be sold. Hope he makes me a good offer and I know he has to make a profit so I am not expecting a lot but let me fair about this anyway.
Grief counselor and gym later today. One day at a time for many things but this grief thing for sure.

mama hope u feel better today.

[Lizann]

So sorry mama! Was it the wings? Are you going to work today. Sadly, that's one way to lose weight.
Pauly, you are sounding very strong, I have been reading your posts all around. Good for you! Just wondering, did the meetings help you at all? Truthfully I was a bit frightened by my meeting this week. I by no means think I'm better than anyone else, but i was afraid to walk out to the parking lot. I did meet another women there who has been sober for 30 years and we exchanged phone numbers. Hubby insists I need to do these 12 steps, but I don't know.
Home today. Woke up early feeling a little queasy. Maybe a little shopping later if this passes. Hubby is upset because CJ is going to Atlantic city with the boyfriend, there was a bottle of vodka in her car. He tells me and I'm supposed to "handle" it. It's kinda always been that way. Ugh, sorry I just needed to vent. Maybe I should've just gone to work.
Anyway enjoy your day guys. Off to pull myself together and I'll check back later.

[Lizann]

Cross post Dottie. You need to move? Is that a good thing? I'm glad you are seeing the grief counselor today. Is she helpful?

[Dottie Belle]

Liz no someday I will move. Not any time soon. When there are not so many dogs and things I would like to get out of this house into a condo or something where I dont have to do so much. For now I am staying here for sure. Even though it hurts to see him and his touches on the house everywhere....

[sunshinedaisies]

Dottie I have read that one is not supposed to make any major changes for at least a year after one loses a spouse - so thinking about moving way down the line might be good but best if you stay put for now !

Liz - why were you scared to walk out to the car-park? Was the meeting in a bad area or was in the other people ? And WHY should you be the one to deal with CJ and the bottle of vodka ? After all, you are the one with the problem - (pity that one cannot use a sarcasm emoticon) so it would make more sense for hubs to deal with it !!

MB - sorry you are not well - hopefully you feel better today ?

Pauly - I also agree that 3 dogs and 2 cats are too many but it is what it is. I have talked to hubs about finding a home for one dog but we cannot agree on which one - it truly would be a very difficult decision ! And I was woken throughout the night by one of the cats chewing on the roots of my hair and then shaking his head ! Not sure if he thought he had caught an animal of some sort or what but it was really annoying!

K9 - glad that you are TTDP - good for you. I keep thinking about it .....

Nora - sorry that the trial is going on and on .... what a pain and I agree with whomever else said it - why not talk to your bosses about it and tell them. After all, you have been there for so long, that must mean something !

hey to everyone else - I need to get moving - had a lie in this morning as I do not work today!

Hugs, Sun XX

[Dottie Belle]

More stuff gone and he brought me money from the stuff he sold at the meeting on Sunday. So glad his train stuff is going to train fellows who will enjoy it. Still makes me sad but something I have to do right now.
NO no moving any time soon. This house has way too many stairs so the reason to move would be that I cant do all the stairs. I have too many dogs to go anywhere and I dont want to. We remodeled this house and it is mostly just as I want it and it is paid for so here I stay.
Rain on the way..boohiss but they did get the grass cut yesterday.

[K9Lover]

Good morning everyone!

I TTFP again today, last night I had those thoughts again, but I slept SO good last night, so down went the pill this morning!! I sure DO NOT miss the anxiety and the 3am wake-up calls that AL brings on.

Mama - Sorry to hear you have bubble gut!! Are you going to make it to work today? The guys here always tease me about missing so much work, they say I'm "awesome when I show up"...LOL. Hey, I've had a hell of a year so far and I hope my absences become few and far between in the near future. I know they are just kidding with me. Now if I could just stop breaking parts of my body that would be a big help. The ribs are healing and feel much better, but NO moving anything this weekend!

Dots - I agree that a move would be too much right now, and I know you know that too. But I have to say that moving into a smaller condo has been great for me and Sierra. Such a relief not to have so much "stuff" to take care of and clean.

Sunni - Do you have AB available to take? Just plunge in and do it....you won't regret it! (Ok lets be honest, you might regret it for a bit, but later you will be glad you did!) :love:

Liz - Sorry about CJ and the bottle. I agree that it shouldn't be YOUR responsibility to deal with it, although maybe coming from you and some honest words about where it can lead to wouldn't hurt...I am very open and honest with Sierra about my struggles and I think (hope) she understands.

Pauly - Glad you're TTFP too! It IS such a relief to know that drinking is off the table. Plus the longer you take it, the longer it takes to clear your system. In the past I would take it 2 days and then (unfortunately) be able to drink the first day I skipped it. Then again I also found the "antedote" to AB that makes it clear out quicker. Damn, now if only I could use my genius for good instead of evil. LOL

I have been cooking like a mad woman lately, despite not having all my kitchen gadgets in place yet. Last night we had chicken stroganoff and today I have a pot roast in the crockpot and will make mashed potatoes to go along with it. Due to my week off last week (unpaid) I may be short on rent this month but that's where Sierra's father will come in. Thankfully he is very generous in that regard.

Well...off to a boring staff meeting. These guys get off topic so quickly, I usually end up saying "moving on..." LOL

Be back later. Hope everyone has a great day!!

xoxo

[paulywogg]

Hey all, quick post, got food poisoning last night from stupid frozen chicken, I threw up 5times, ssat on the toilet all night, had to call in today, I'm so weak and dehydrated but scared to drink water, keep getting the knife stabbing pain in my guts,that's what I get for eating crap! Just glad Louie wasn't here to eat any,Brady didn't eat it,hubs only ate a little, ha 've a good day guys, try to be back later