There are days where I feel like I can beat this, I feel so happy and secure with myself. Then there are days when I feel so weak, that I can not control my own behaviour and have a drink. I wish I could figure out what the triggers are. How can I go from such security, to being so insecure with my own thoughts and belief I thought I had in myself. Nothing really has changed for me over that one day span to cause these feelings to change.
Is it because I am away from my family support, raising a toddler in a foreign country? When I finally go home, will this stop? I don't know. I do find that when I am with my family I drink considerably less. I can stop at a couple glasses, but here it's harder. I believe I am drinking out of lonliness.
Can anyone else relate to me on this one?
Is it because I am away from my family support, raising a toddler in a foreign country? When I finally go home, will this stop? I don't know. I do find that when I am with my family I drink considerably less. I can stop at a couple glasses, but here it's harder. I believe I am drinking out of lonliness.
Can anyone else relate to me on this one?