ARMY...................MOON GATES NOW OPEN..........week beginning 21st June 2015

[roxane]

Hey Molly, I feel the same way when you and other Army members talk about places in Ireland, etc. I feel the same way. Cleveland is in the Midwestern part of the U.S...in Ohio. :-)
Hi Bandit!

and england

mooched with dog along the river which he cant go in because its got algae and found a kingfisher flapping on the path. managed to catch it and put it in the long grass. had a quick look while i did it, wont get the chance to see one close up again. hope it will be ok but i doubt it.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Evening ladies, hang in there Bandit, its the only choice there I reckon, well it is for me.
Just back from a 2 hour trip, DW needed to collect something and wanted the company. Rewind back a few weeks and not a snowballs chance in hell of my voluntering, just another little bonus of being sober. And on that note I had to call to the shop on the way back for a few message to put in the press, (Rusty more Irish turns of phrase (insert smiley winking face icon here)) and isnt it soooooo much cheaper at the checkout without the bottles of poison in the basket!

xpost, a KINGFISHER wow how cool is that, is he ok?

[satz123]

love pot roast --- haven't made one for years....... have to wait till this warm weather cools ---- no idea where Cleveland is ---- really must google a map of the america's some day ---- yeah --- tired wasn't one for me -- I agree --- but deffo the other 3 -- in fact I used to postpone my dinner to get more good drinking time in....

Yep same here. Created very elegant dishes while I drank my way through a bottle of wine.

Full tummy always put me off too !!!

[satz123]

Yoo hoo Tabbers ! - you are going great.
Doesn't it feel marvellous when you walk out of the shop without the grog ?

[satz123]

Hi all,
Thanks for asking if I am ok. Being honest I am not feeling the best at the min, had a rough night last night. Not feeling great today either but then that's ok, I know its not going to be easy, if it was I wouldn't be here now. Mr. Bandit is off to AC/DC tonight, Normally I would see that as an opportunity to have a few drinks while he was out but we've already been to the shops and didn't get any. Just to make sure I also have no cash on me and he is taking my bank cards with him and the bank is closed - many a time before he has made sure I have no money on me only for me to race to the bank and physically withdraw it - so sad but true.

:hug: Bandy.
Is your drinking out in the open with hubby ?

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Yep same here. Created very elegant dishes while I drank my way through a bottle of wine.

Full tummy always put me off too !!!

Nothing put me off even when really ill I still drank, couldnt eat mind.

Yoo hoo Tabbers ! - you are going great.
Doesn't it feel marvellous when you walk out of the shop without the grog ?

It feels like a miracle tbh., cant believe I was craving a pint of ice cold fizzy water with freshly squeezed lemon on the way home instead of my usual soul destroyer.

[roxane]

Morning.

That's great tabs, the Pavlovian reaction is a sod and it looks like you're breaking it.

How did you get on last night bandit? Do you have a clean kitchen?

The kingfisher looked undamaged but for me to be able to handle it was not a good sign.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Thanks, yeah its going well for now but as I know only two well that can change in a split second, so seriously on my guard for stinkin thinkin.
Hopefully they made a mistake Molly dear but sure worst come to the worst 150 a week is do-able short term?

[roxane]

its all read molly.

[satz123]

ah yeah -- I'll manage as a 'kept' woman for a couple weeks alright --- just not sure why they've done it.... buggers --- yeah --- I used to find around the 4-6 week mark that stinkin thinkin would arise --- I'd be feeling REALLY good -- healthy -- the head in the right place -- sort of --- and everyone around me happy with me --- and back then --- feeling SOOOOO happy --- the little voice would start there's only one thing missing -- ! so until I REALLY taught myself that I was missing NOTHING --- and replacing the void that was left by the alcohol --- time-wise emotional-wise -- FUN-wise -- cos lets face it --- most of us (well me anyway) believed that it WAS fun RIGHT up to the end --- it's only really in hindsight that we can look back and say WTF????

the time and the emotional bit are fairly self evident - takes work -- but it is easy enough --- the fun part --- imo --- it takes time --- sometimes a lot of time --- to get fun out of ALL those things -- little things - that we overrode with the immediate 'hit' of alcohol --- we didn't NEED to appreciate the lovely day -- the splash having a paddle in the sea on a lovely day --- the birds feeding in the garden -- getting a laugh with a mate at work and realising that that belly laugh I'd been putting on for years and years --- was real...... that's when I feel I truly turned a corner

anyway --- I'm sure you are gone to work ---- so prolly just talking to myself ;-)

:welldone: agree with all of that ...................

[Bandit]

Hey all

Thank you for all the support. Feeling a lot better today

Yeah, a good meal for me usually helps - did that last night and watched a few films with the kids. I use to do that too - spend ages making a nice meal for the family, drinking my way through it of course, then not eat any of it and keep drinking on an empty stomach. I am really bad at eating breakfast, lunch and dinner, often skip right thru to dinner so that is something I have to work on.

Yes, himself is fully aware of my drinking and is very supportive, he won't drink if I'm not etc.. but his drinking has also increased due to me so he is finding it hard to give up too and if he sees me having a hard time he can be quick to go out and get a bottle of wine to make me feel better or just to take the edge off, for a long time I think he hoped that moderation would work but even he knows that's not going to happen for me. So I feel bad that he is having to give up because of me (well he has chosen to) but I couldn't handle him having drink in the house at the moment or even coming in smelling of drink, I thought he might have had a few at the concert last night but he didn't, he said he would have felt guilty, he is very good like that, unlike me who would have drank at any available opportunity and many a time hid drink from him or snuck a few during the day thinking of course that he wouldn't notice (yeah right)

Anyway, enough moaning, hope all are having a good day.

[roxane]

dont feel bad, its his choice to stop and sounds like a good thing anyway. also dont worry about him, think of yourself right now. yes its selfish, you have to be to get past this stage. on a completely contradictary note :happy2: you can support each other in this. when one gets wobbly the other can help, it helps the supporter, it really does.

[roxane]

i feel all included now, i just had a scam call from microsoft windows. lovely fella.

[Bandit]

I've never had one of those calls Roxane, I feel all excluded now!

Good point about the hubby and yes it is a good thing that we are both doing it as he has probably become too dependent on it also but its still hard especially if both of us are having a wobbly moment at the same time!

Off to get the dinner

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Evening all, I am here, was gone to work earlier Molly but have read your words. No doubt it will sneak up on me again but I am ready I hope.

Well done Bandit, hang in there you can make this work.

Well just back from a lovely potter around the garden for the last few hours, what a glorious evening it is. Now I wonder is there anything more sweet than the strawberries I have just been eating, still warm from the sun and not a chemical in sight.