One Step at a time - July 2015

[paulywogg]

Hey guys,good to see you Skendall Mama,that coughing pill sounds weird, what's it called? I'm guessing it dries up mucous?hope you're on the mend,Rusty,glad you're feeling better, summer colds are totally worse than regular colds,Nora,hope we can break this dumb cycle, was at the docs and she won't give me anymore antabuse until I see the in-house addiction counselor to figure out why I drink,stoopid cuz if I feckin knew why I drank I probably wouldn't have done it for 10 years,same reason everyone drinks I guess,was fun,relieved stress,made me feel good,etc,until it didn't but getting my mind to remember how shitty it makes me feel now iswwhat trips me up,anyways, Dots,you motorcycle mama!! I love it I also love big squishy men,makes me feel small and not so squishy haha,hey Liz,how's Lucy?hope everyone has a Fabulous Friday,much love to all

[Dottie Belle]

Hello all,
I was up early to go feed my friends cat and run a few errands.
Now doing a load of laundry and just took shower.
Seeing Dave tonight for our dance lesson then dinner. He is thin and athletic. Taller so I can wear heals but not nearly as tall as bid squishy man. That is Jerry. I am seeing him most all day tomorrow. I am limiting it to these 2. Got a call from another contender but had to decline. This is just crazy but fun. Jerry wants to spend a lot of time with me and I am not sure how I feel about it just yet. He has such a great way about him that makes me feel very special. He is affectionate without being overtly sexual. Time will tell for sure. He met the dogs last night and seemed OK. He petted them and talked to them. They were totally crazy and he didnt go running for the door and I did hear from him today so I guess he is not totally scared off.

Pauly I dont understand the stuff about the AB. Don't we all know why we drank . I am not a big fan of addiction counselors.
mama the antibiotics have taken care of the infection and pain but I still need to schedule a root canal which I am not looking forward to . She did give me a Valium type drug to take before and I have asked my girlfriend to take me. I just had such bad luck with these kinds of things.
And you need to slow down too. We dont want to see you face down from exhaustion.
Rusty, SKendal and Nora good to see you.

[mama bear]

boring day in bed....I am watching Bonanza reruns and an loving Little Joe all over again...but jeez is the show dated and corney!!
Nora - I agree...take the AB, but you have to want to quit.
Pauly - you can order AB here, but not sure how much it is..
The coughing pill is called benzonatate, and I am not sure it is working....I am coughing so much. I have to hold my rubs coz it hurts..
enough of being a crybaby.....just bored

[paulywogg]

TBH,Mama I don't really care for antabuse much anyways, plus I have about 100 pills left anyways I can use if I want, take advantage of being bored for the day,you'll feel better manana,where the hell is Liz?anybody talk to K9 lately?

[Rusty]

Pauly, I read your thread, "who am I?" and you mentioned that alcohol abuse was all over your charts...doctor's, life insurance, etc..and because that info. is so well known, what will you do if something happens to Louie's parents and you end up with custody of Louie, would they let you have custody because of your AL addiction? What about life insurance? Will you be able to get it? Yup, I get it, my little friend (somehow I think you're a tiny person:happy2. I have had your same concerns. I sent you a PM. :-)

[Lizann]

Good morning my loves. Suffering still from jet lag. Lucy threw up again at some point during the night but she is eating chicken and rice. CJ is home today, so maybe some shopping with her or something. It's raining today, so no walk I guess. Have a good one guys!

[mama bear]

good morning love bugs
I am watching "Grace and Frankie" on Netflix and it is hysterical. Jane Fonda and Lily Tomlin are in it.
Absolutely nothing to report. My big excitement for the day is a shower and the grocery....

[mama bear]

Lizz - poor little Lucy! xo

[Dottie Belle]

Morning all
Date with Dave was lots of fun. We did the first dance lesson and he was very good. Of course they tried to sign him up for more but he held strong. They kept making assumptions about us and I finally had to pull the instructor aside and tell her I was there as his date and to NOT read any more into it than that. The lady that talked to him about more lessons was the instructor hubby and I had when we took lessons there. I may go back and sigh up for lessons for ME. I have always loved it and was dancing before I met hubbs so why the heck not.
Planning to see Jerry later today. I think he wants more of a relationship than I am ready for but I am not going to kick him to the curb. I like him, he is nice, soft and squishy and treats me very well. Besides I am enjoying his company too.
It is so hot and humid here today that any outside activities I might have wanted to do are out of the question. So I will just hide in the A/C and be grateful that I have it.
OK time for everyone else to check in.

[NoraC]

Hello, hello....

Today was yard sale day. We are in the midst of a horrible drought. So, guess what........hard rain, thunder, lightning. Frantically tried to cover the books, records (no success) and now no more rain. Please give us more rain!!!!

Rusty - thank you so much for your post. If you feel comfortable in messaging me your cell phone number, I would love it. If I can make it home every day, then I am set. But, the leaving work & getting home is my downfall. I think that I am going to try to post right when I leave work and right when I get home. I do have a gym membership but haven't been using it! I am fighting depression/anxiety so much.........but, the truth is, if I would just NOT DRINK, those would go away. Being sober for a few days at a time is not the answer. I need to commit to this! I can't rely on AB or any other drug - this has to come from me. The stress in my life isn't going anywhere but I have the power to control what I do and how I react.

Sorry to make this all about me.

Love & hugs to everyone. Mama, feel better, sweetie. Dottie - I love that you are meeting nice people!

xxxxxxoooooooo

[Dottie Belle]

Thanks Nora it makes me happy to have nice folks in my life. I am sorry you are having such a hard time. I know when I drank I became much more depressed. I am so much happier now and things look brighter. Hang in there we are here for you.

[SKendall]

Nora, I's so sorry you are struggling. Mama are you resting?

[Lizann]

Aww Nora, sending hugs your way! Not much new to report today. Did absolutely nothing yesterday! Going to be super hot today. Hopefully will Skype Mark later.

[available]

Liz how is your fur baby? I hope she has recovered now. Mine is now under my bed snoring. she wont sleep anywhere except right under where i sleep bless her.

[mama bear]

I am here.....resting and blowing nose and taking meds......that's about it....bleh,,,not sure if I will make it in tomorrow
Nora - I am so sorry
Dots - I am living through you since I am so bored!!