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    Hi Friends, it has been a long time since I've posted regularly and I really do feel bad about that. I know that when someone drifts away it leaves the rest with uncertainty and that is not very nice. I read a quote here today that said "Sobriety is contagious," from one of my favorite posters. It made me think about my need to post more frequently, which I have neglected. There are a lot of very fine people here that I think the world of.

    No, I haven't been drinking. Not just no, but NO HELL NO! Today is day 1350 AF for me and life is good.

    I burn lots of firewood so it is stacked all around my house. I love the dry heat and tinkering with the stove, carrying wood and all that. It has to dry for a long time so it heats well. I realized that every single piece of firewood I have, I stacked while I was sober. Taking a small step every day eventually adds up to some distance. Both of the dogs I have now have never smelled any beer on me because I got them after I quit. These thoughts give me some satisfaction.

    I'm learning to play a classical music instrument that I always wanted to play now. Life has so many possibilities without alcohol there to take, take, take. I hate alcohol so much because of what it takes. AF life on the other hand, is a blank canvas. We can make our lives what we want. Of course life is not perfect! It is much, much better than suffering by drinking though. I imagine that it is like steering a large ship. You make a small turn of the wheel and the whole thing turns very slowly.

    If alcohol is the problem, then not drinking is the solution. When we are having trouble keeping our head on straight, we need to remember the simple truths about this thing. Putting some distance between you and your last drink is the best way. If you are uncertain about sobriety then don't drink. If you are uncertain about drinking, then don't drink. Don't drink for a week and then see how you feel about it. I've never read about anyone regretting quitting or staying quit. Everyone seems to regret drinking again though...If you are considering drinking for whatever event in your life right now, then please take note of the following thought (I don't remember who posted it) to the effect that they might not have another quit left in them. That's a pretty scary thought to me. Take good care of yourselves!
    "When you have faults, do not fear to abandon them." Analects of Confucius
    AF 11/12/11

    #2
    Hey Pinecone, I remeber you! Glad you are doing so well.
    (AF since 17 May 2014) 2 years 5 months sober

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      #3
      Beautifully stated Pinecone, Amazing word pictures. I have struggled to quit for many, many years and have lived a roller coaster life for 7 or 8 years of thinking I could control my drinking to 1-3 a night 1-3 x a week. Absolutely ALWAYS failed at least 1x a month and it was the risk of that once a month failure that made my life hell as here and there I would totally embarrass myself and husband. Finally just said enough is enough and I have been AF since July 16 and plan on staying that way. Your post inspires and encourages me so thank you! Welcome back!

      Addy (All Done Drinking...Yes!)
      "Control your destiny or somebody else will" ~Jack Welsh~

      God didn't give you the strength to get back on your feet, so that you can run back to the same thing that knocked you down.

      But that was yesterday, and I was a different person then. ~ Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

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        #4
        It is great to hear from you, Pinecone. You were a very important poster for me as I was trying to quit. I hope you'll be around to share more of your thoughts with everyone here (but I think you'll be hard-pressed to top this beautiful post!). This sums it up:
        If alcohol is the problem, then not drinking is the solution.
        Alcohol is the problem, and you sure are right about the solution! If we were the problem, which is a prevailing opinion in the world and to an unfortunate extent on MWO, why is it that just about everyone here who has kicked alcohol out of their lives is doing pretty well if not great (like you are :smile? And certainly as well as the non-addicted population?

        Congratulations on 1350 days of living life to its potential! :hug: NS

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          #5
          Pinecone, it's GREAT to see you AND to hear you are thriving! I notice your avatar pinecone is now smaller, are you messing with me????
          Don't be a stranger! We miss you! Much love and admiration, Byrdie
          All you gotta do, is get thru this day. AF 1/20/2011
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            #6
            When I first decided to get free of alcohol, I was so scared about what it might take and how I would manage. But plainly stated messages like yours are what made me know I could do it.

            Just don't drink.

            Thanks, Pinecone!! Wonderful to hear how well you're doing.

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              #7
              Brilliant, Pine! It's truly satisfying to see the tangibles of living normally pile up. And, look at you go on your music! What instrument are you learning? Maybe we should form a MWO SKYPE jam band? We've got Guitarista on lead electric. I'll bring my accordion. And yes, I learned to play when I got sober so no one gets to make drunk polka jokes! Actually, I get the good fuzzies when I play. Music is powerful good medicine all around. So glad you checked in and shared this.


              PS - please, for Byrdie's sake...stop tricking her with your shrinking avie!:egad:
              Sober for the Revolution!
              AF & NF July 23, 2011

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                #8
                Pine what a great post. I totally get what you said. I am proud to say i am 600 days sober today. 600 days ago i had nothing to be proud of. Its been a rollercoaster journey but for the life of me now, i cant understand why i thought al was so important in my life. Time heals all wounds so they say and it is very true i have realised. Keep cutting that wood Pine!

                Congratulations on your wonderful sober days.
                AF free 1st December 2013 - 1st December 2022 - 9 years of freedom

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                  #9
                  And I love the sober wood pile analogy!
                  Happy day 600 available, very cool you continue to count your days. I plan to as well!
                  (AF since 17 May 2014) 2 years 5 months sober

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                    #10
                    Thanks for the comments.

                    NS, yes I struggled for YEARS (we probably all did) with the thought that I was at the root of my drinking problem. But when I quit drinking the damned stuff, the problem disappeared! Imagine that.

                    Byrdie, sorry about the optical illusion. It was a pretty cool pinecone that I saw in the woods and took a picture up. Maybe I'll just make it a tiny bit bigger every day ...(mwa ha ha!).

                    Turn, I'm learning the flute with lessons and everything. I have my music stand with my sheet music at the end of a hall. I play my scales and longtones. It makes me happy! It is not a huge pile of empty beer bottles to be ashamed of. It is wonderfully rewarding.

                    Ava, I love what you posted about why you can't understand why you thought al was so important in life. When you really turn your back on it completely, it is pretty mystifying. I always liked that AA saying about it being cunning, baffling and powerful. Away from the spell of it, life is very different.

                    You guys are awesome.:hug:
                    "When you have faults, do not fear to abandon them." Analects of Confucius
                    AF 11/12/11

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