One Step at a Time - September 2015

[paulywogg]

I seen it on the umpteenth thread wish she'd talk to us,you and I keep cross posting Fen haha,btw,was the chat up guy cute at least?

[NoraC]

Hey all

Obviously, I need to go buy some panties & bras. ROTFL Dottie, see what you have started!! :rotlf:

Pauly - how are you feeling?

Fen - don't really understand Mrs F. She wants a divorce so why would you want to sit & chat with her? Just doesn't make sense to me. So, what did you sign? You didn't sign off any of your rights or money did you? I'm worried that you are too nice and are going to be taken advantage of.

Liz - I understand! Really great job on coming right back here. I always went into benders. Do you know what caused you to drink? Were there safeguards you had in place that didn't work or were you just to the point where you said F***K it?

I have been trying to examine what is going on when I start having those 'cravings'. Quite often, it is stress. So, for me, I must find a healthy way to deal with stress. I'm hoping that will help.
Fen & Pauly, thanks for that info about depression in the early stages. It makes sense. I'm trying to learn to live again in a way that I haven't for a very long time. No wonder there is an adjustment period.
I've been thinking about other times - I would have over 30 or 60 or 90 or even 100 days and then I would drink. I wonder why that is.....Oh well, I'm not worrying about the future - I am not drinking right now.

Mama - are you home?

Rusty - are you home? We finally had a luncheon and it was mentioned that we passed the audit. Seriously! How many months ago was that? Wouldn't it have been nice to make an announcement back then? Oh well, August was the end of our fiscal year so we had a nice lunch and we got to leave early. So, I'll stop complaining.

SK - How's Peggy today?

FT - So good to see you here. You make me laugh!

Blue - did you have a good birthday?

Think I'm going to challenge hubby to a game of Blokus. I'll be back.

[paulywogg]

What's Blokus Nora?

[SKendall]

Hugs to Lizz.

Nora it is very common what you are feeling, just surf the urge. You are doing great.

Peggy is still improving, but relapses a little between doses.

I was watching the tennis today and my guy won.

Pauly, feeling any better?

Fen, I can relate. Hubby wanted to be best friends during the affair. Pfft!

Hi F.T. and anyone else.

[Lizann]

Thanks guys. Don't know why I did it, I just did. I'm just so upset with myself. I appreciate the understanding, it means a lot.

[NoraC]

Oh - Blokus is a fun board game - strategy, there are game pieces in different shapes and you have to place a piece touching your same color with only corner to corner contact. And, you're trying to block your opponent at the same time. There is a 4 player game but we like the 2 player/travel game.

[paulywogg]

Sounds fun Nora glad to hear Peggy is improving a bit Skendall,Liz,I'm glad you came back as Nora said,mine always turned into benders too,I feel better after taking the antibiotics,now Brady's sick though no Louie this afternoon so I've just been hanging around here

[Frequent Traveler]

Blokus ??? is that a new name for "checkers" :welldone:

FT

[NoraC]

Blokus ??? is that a new name for "checkers" :welldone:

FT

:rotlf: :rotlf: :rotlf:

I think that Dottie is the only one that has any chance at playing checkers!

[paulywogg]

I think so too Nora haha!

[fennel]

:rotlf: :rotlf: :rotlf:

I think that Dottie is the only one that has any chance at playing checkers!

God, that's for certain!

[Dottie Belle]

Roger that!! LOL...:welldone::yay:

[Dottie Belle]

Liz I missed that too what is up??? Do you know what happened???

[Lizann]

Dottie, I don't know what happened. Im Just so tired of always thinking about it! I just caved with the urge. Was just going to have one glass of wine, well you know how that ended. I thought no one would know. Had a talk with my son yesterday, he wants me to get "help". He said he's not gonna back off. I told him I would think about it. I'm just so embarrassed and drained. Gotta pick myself up and move forward. Very weepy this morning and I appreciate allowing me to vent. You guys get it and I can't even tell you how much I appreciate the support. Love you all!

[Rusty]

Hi Liz!:hug::love: I am sorry I wasn't here for you!! I truly apologize. I should have taken the time to post and I didn't. Oh, how I KNOW, I KNOW how you feel...the SHAME is the WORST feeling. I never thought it would go away. Do you know why you drank...were you celebrating Mark's homecoming or did you suddenly get anxious about something? Anyway, I so do NOT mean to pry....but when I'd drink after some sober time, I'd try to think of what set me off so I could be prepared the next time. Also, and this was a biggy for me....sometimes I THOUGHT I was craving AL when I was really just HUNGRY. Once I ate, I really was FINE...the "craving" went away. I think there were thousands of times when I drank because I thought the craving was too strong and it would be easier to just give in and drink, when I was just hungry. Sneaking a drink can't be any fun. HUGS