"That" tragic day is a day that will never leave my mind. I think about "that" day every time I read in the news of any terrorism event or threat thereof. I made a gratitude post relative to this topic and would really like to hear from others what they (you) experienced that day -in your mind, your life, and your family's life.
As for me, I was outside working on a construction site and heard that a plane had crashed into one of the towers. My first thought was "what a tragic accident". My next thought was just exactly how does an "accident" like this happen. Shortly thereafter, I heard about the other plane and then I knew that we were under attack. I remember thinking "what the hell is going on?" I could not put into perspective what was going on. I felt "helpless" in the sense that no one could immediately control what was going on and I could not control anything that was going on either.
"That" day, I did not drink more than I usually did each day -and in fact, I probably drank less. This was a period in time when I was attending AA and trying to quit. That afternoon, thoughts of alcohol did not immediately enter my mind; instead thoughts of sadness, fear, action entered my mind.
"That" day, that afternoon, I left my construction project and told everyone else to go home as well. Thoughts raced through my mind on the way home and the only real thought that I had was that I could hang an American flag on the telephone pole near my home -and that is just exactly what I did. I did not care what anyone thought about me or what I was doing that afternoon - stepladder, flag, busy highway -nailing a flag to a pole. (Typically, I would have been concerned "what others thought".) This was the only thing that helped me to 'feel' a fractional bit better about what was going. Three or four hours later, there were American flags hanging everywhere, on streets-buildings-poles,etc. Perhaps many of us "just" wanted to try to do 'something' to feel as though we were helping and standing in allegiance with our fellow suffering Americans?
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