Turning you weakest moment/time to your most powerful tool

[lizker]

What is the lowest point you ever found yourself in or something so horrible that you did,
that altered the way you will for ever look at alcohol? That moment that replays it self over and over that scares the daylights of you, that makes you say, never again...I have tons but one in particular creeps me out so bad that every time i relive that moment i just recoil and any thoughts of drinking just vanish as i never ever wanna be that person again. Never again do i want to give so much power and control to something that is out to destroy me.

[Lizann]

Thanks for this. Yes I've had more moments than I care to admit. Always managed to convince myself this time I can control it. But of course we know how the story ends,
I was so comforted by the bible verse at the bottom of your post. Exactly what I needed this morning, thank you!

[lizker]

Thanks for this. Yes I've had more moments than I care to admit. Always managed to convince myself this time I can control it. But of course we know how the story ends,
I was so comforted by the bible verse at the bottom of your post. Exactly what I needed this morning, thank you!

Wonderful Lizann, glad it helped. We have a relentless, vindictive, cunning opponent. Got to be vigilant.

[Byrdlady]

My moment was the morning of January 20, 2011. The night before, my hubs walked out with a few clothes in his hands. I dont remember my last drink that night. I remember crying myself to sleep over a big fight we'd had over AL, AGAIN. That morning he came back for more clothes and spoke rationally and methodically that he wasnt going to be married to a drunk. He told me to decide how to split our assests and that he would be moving out. The look on his face is one I will never forget. His expression held disdain, disgust, pity, anger and FEAR. It was horrible to see just how much pain I had caused him. THAT is my go-to image when I have a thought about AL. It goes away immediately. NO drink is worth what I saw that morning.
GREAT question, thanks for asking. Byrdie

[All done drinking]

My moment was the morning of January 20, 2011. The night before, my hubs walked out with a few clothes in his hands. I dont remember my last drink that night. I remember crying myself to sleep over a big fight we'd had over AL, AGAIN. That morning he came back for more clothes and spoke rationally and methodically that he wasnt going to be married to a drunk. He told me to decide how to split our assests and that he would be moving out. The look on his face is one I will never forget. His expression held disdain, disgust, pity, anger and FEAR. It was horrible to see just how much pain I had caused him. THAT is my go-to image when I have a thought about AL. It goes away immediately. NO drink is worth what I saw that morning.

Thanks for sharing such a powerful and personal memory. My hubby made a statement shortly before I quit where he mentioned that a couple were getting divorced. When I asked why he said "because she's an alcoholic and it's a real shame her drinking has destroyed their marriage." His nonverbals said more to me than his verbal statement did. Shortly afterwards I blew my moderating attempts twice in a row in a one week period and came to the same conclusion you did. My marriage was worth more than alcohol. I was simply all done drinking.

Addy~

[lizker]

Thanks for Sharing Ms Bydie, not only did you save your marriage and life but you are making great contributions saving other people's marriages and lives. Very purposeful living.
All done, I am sure your family will be forever grateful for the selfless choices you are making. Great job sticking to the quit.