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[amethyst]

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Camper, darlin... inlaws? the walk? there is nothing like the inlaws to MAGNIFY any situation-especially something so emotionally charged. Yeah, it was rough, but tomorrow IS a new day!

[Breez]

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Maybe your intention was to go to bed...hence the curtain being down because you wanted to cover yourself with it.

[happycamper68]

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I, like the rest of us, am not good with stress. I got home today after a 4 hour day and had to get my poor little baby off the bus, deal with therapist who is quitting, talk to agency to find new one which is not working out the way I planned, and look forward to an entire weekend plus Monday without hubby because he will be working late. Seriously the only time I stopped crying was after holding off from drinking anything for about 4 hours and then i was calm. I am so addicted physically. That is why i smoked and needed the patch to quit. I need a booze patch.

My nerves are shot. I wish I did not worry about everything so much or feel like everything was on me. Hopefully next week will be better, I won't have all the other pressures on me I had this past week and i will start over. The physical pain is reminding me of the horrible thing i did, I also have bruises.

It just makes me sad because so many other people have had it so much worse, and are having it really badly right now, and they don't cave, on this site, right this very second. I go through these waves where i feel like i am 5 years old and so weak and just want to be taken care of and I am not getting it (taken care of, I need my mom who is gone). BUT, I need to grow up (38 hello??) and be more positive about what i do have but when i try to make the list i cannot. My life used to be a lot better and it isn't only about "being younger". I am sure we can all say that I guess..

And Beaches, Autism walks are great but also really depressing.....but thank you all who donated. But still it made me really sad, especially walking down by Ground Zero. Just big fat blah sorry....

[happycamper68]

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Hey Breez,

I wish that were true, that happened when he was hoisting me out of the damn tub. Blah. And Breez you are a doll thank you. Sleeping in a tub isn't bad when you are aware of it. I love baths normally!

I feel like I have been hit by a truck from the neck down.

[lucky 2.0]

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Camper,

You know you are not alone in doing dumb things when drunk. Remember when I fell down my stairs and got the black eye? And right now between my eyes @ the top of my nose is very sore and I do not know why. I do know it has to do with too much wine.

I wish I could make you feel better.

xoxoxoxo

[SKendall]

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Camper, living near and walking close to Ground Zero has to evoke many dark thoughts and anxiety. It's been about 10 years but hubby had to "escort" me out of a fabulous restaurant with his boss and wife. Still, to this day I'm not sure how I got that way, there wasn't that much wine involved. Get a red face thinking about it even today. But remember the achy ribs. As you said dead weight.

So many painful memories.

[nancy]

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Happy Camper

oh how disturbing

i think you were so brave to post that message...

Take care, we are there with you

[Pisces]

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Hi,

Please don't feel you are alone, and the only one to have done something like this.

I've been undergoing some stress recently too, and I ashamed to say that after I had been doing really well, I drank 4 bottles of wine.

I live alone so noone was there to see me in that state, but I still feel ashamed of myself for doing it.

A couple of years ago I got so drunk I fell asleep under a blanket in front of the heater, and woke up to find the blanket alight, and the bottom of my slippers had melted, though miraculousy I didn't get burnt.

You would think I would have learn't from this, which goes to show how strong the cravings are, and again I was alone, I can only think that I wasn't meant to go, so woke up just in time before the house burnt down around me.

Just keep trying, just as we are, with determination we will get better!

Lot's of Love, Jas

[MonaCat]

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Happy, you know I adore you.
My heart achs for you right now.
I think this entire deal was brought on by the stress of your in-laws visiting, and then the start of the new job.
It's a lot for you to cope with right now.
Hopefully, the in-laws won't be back for a long time.
Just try to establish a new routine with your new work schedule.
It's tough be a working mom. Plus, I know you worry about your little one.
You will get through this and be okay.
Hopefully, your hubby will understand the pressure you are under.
XOXOX

[Prest4time]

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Pattycakes!

I have never taken a bath in PJ's either, but you know I have dived off of dressers! Okay, so there it is! We wont talk about side drawers.

So you BLEW IT. For me, these episodes that I have had are reminders of where I dont want to go again!

Life never gives you more than you can handle. It is up to us how we will handle our life.

Love you,
Allie

[weemelonhead]

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Campy my treasure:h
I'm just REALLY glad that nothing happened to you when you were in the tub....it was scary reading that you were asleep dear......
I love you Happer.......
Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow.........I've been there a hundred thousand times sweetie, and know exactly all the shame, giult, fear, despair and self questioning that goes on after these 'incidents'......
Hugs and MUCH more
Weemelonxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxx

[irishlady]

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Camper, as most people have said, we have all done and said things while drunk that we deeply regret...

One of my worst was about 15 years ago, it was Christmas eve evening and I was on the phone to my sister, who drank much more than me, well, the call lasted for about three hours during which I drank a large bottle of wine and a bottle of ginger wine ( UGH ).. I don't remember a thing till about 5.30am on Christmas morning when I came to on the bathroom floor, sore and bruised and shivering with cold, I must have tried to sit on the toilet and just fell off it onto the floor before passing out.. I crawled into bed with all my clothes on and fell asleep for a few hours.. The rest of the day was a nightmare, having to cook Christmas dinner for husband and kids and try to pretend I was ok.. It really hurts when I look back on it and think of the kind of day I gave my children, while they were at the table eating their Christmas dinner I was stretched out on the couch with a horrendous hangover...

Camper, I hope things get easier for you, but please don't give up giving up... I said in a thread of mine a few days ago that it took me almost ten years to get to where I am now and I'm so glad I kept on trying, for all you know this may be the time for you, and you know we are all here for you and wishing you well..


Here's loads of hugs and love from Louise xoxoxoxoxoxo

[Saint Jude]

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Oh Patty,
I'm so glad you're OK!:l :l
You've been dealing with so much lately. Go easy on yourself girl.

I love my In-laws... they're some of the kindest most thoughtfull people on the planet. But it can be stressful all the same. Just wondering if you're living up to your end of it...(taking care of their boy)...

When we were on vacation in Florida, I totally lost it & drank myself sick... right there in their house. Embarrassed myself & my Hubby. It wasn't pretty.

We are all works in progress.
You've been doing so well for SOOO long! Just get back on that horse!
Like climbing a mountain... you just missed a step or two, not the whole climb...continue on from here...:h

[Popeye]

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Happycamper,
I can't add anything but my best wishes.
Take care,:h

[cassy]

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Hi..be kind to yourself..its an image to recall when tempted to drink too much.

laatley i have found recalled 2 awful drunken events of total humiliation helps me to moderate!!!alcohol creates an illusion but what it gives us in big doses is devastation!!
Good luck getting back on track


Cassy