One Step at a Time - October 2015

[SKendall]

P.S. Cowboy will be leading the posse on his horse, you are loved. I keep thinking of more things to say, but we are all with Brett on the blue words.

Any transition takes a lot of energy, so save some of yourself for you.

[NoraC]

SK - thank you for saying exactly what is in my heart..........

[Dottie Belle]

I am there too!!!!! mama u are loved....:hug:

[fennel]

Posse?? Someone say something about a posse?? I'm in!!

mama, any severance, dismissal pay? I'd be looking into an unfair dismissal charge if I were you..... Hang in there, when one door closes, another one opens..

Mrs. Fen has a clause, as most smaller businesses do these days, that anybody can be dismissed at any time, with zero reason or explanation. She had employees sign it upon their hire. Hopefully, mama's place of employment didn't have a similar clause.

I hear you about another door opening...

[fennel]

Dottie, I'm glad you're getting some time at home with the doggies, sans Jon. I will admit that I thought it was odd that you were accompanying him to his dr. appt. in the first week or two of dating. The only time Mrs. Fen went to the dr. with me was if there was to be a "procedure" of some type. I would find this sort of closeness to be stifling. Maybe you can arrange to have a few "date" nights a week? That way you can keep your sanity and get to know him without being completely immersed in the situation.

[fennel]

Mama, I'm thinking of you. I know something better will come along. :hug:

[paulywogg]

Hey guys,Mama,I'm thinking of you too,I know you'll find something else but sheesh,seems like this came out of nowhere! Were there any clues? F them anyways,I'm all for hard work but they were pushing it a bit far, anyways much love to all,let's totally kick Tuesdays ass!!!!

[NoraC]

I am thinking of you too, Mama. I have to believe that something much better is in you future. :hug:

[SKendall]

Well, having a lot of internet problems this a.m. I am limited on this site, i.e. can't read my pm's, but it's the rest of the internet also. I downloaded Windows 10 and I'm blaming that!
Maybe I should turn off and re-start. It worked for a few days except for Netflix, but for example, at the google start page I pressed W and it took me to a weird place, not even beginning with a W.

I hope Mama is doing okay, along with everyone else.

[Dottie Belle]

Hello all
Got a lot accomplished today.
Fen Jon is alone like I am and having a few medical things that he just felt 2 sets of ears might be better than one. He has been very open about it all so I was fine going with him. I just dont want him to get dependent on my if that is not the direction we end up going..if u know what I mean.
Off to my dance lesson.
Cold and rain..bbbbrrrrr

[fennel]

Well, having a lot of internet problems this a.m. I am limited on this site, i.e. can't read my pm's, but it's the rest of the internet also. I downloaded Windows 10 and I'm blaming that!
Maybe I should turn off and re-start. It worked for a few days except for Netflix, but for example, at the google start page I pressed W and it took me to a weird place, not even beginning with a W.

I hope Mama is doing okay, along with everyone else.

That's weird, SKendall...I upgraded to windows 10 and mine is working okay. I hope you figure things out. It's so annoying when 'puter stuff goes wrong!

[fennel]

Hello all
Got a lot accomplished today.
Fen Jon is alone like I am and having a few medical things that he just felt 2 sets of ears might be better than one. He has been very open about it all so I was fine going with him. I just dont want him to get dependent on my if that is not the direction we end up going..if u know what I mean.
Off to my dance lesson.
Cold and rain..bbbbrrrrr

Gotcha.

I was worried that he was glomming on to you so quickly, but that makes sense.

[NoraC]

Ok - I feel really bad about bringing this up while everyone is going thru so much. But, I promised myself that I would reach out if I felt shaky.....so, I'm going to go ahead & post this.

I have not had any really close calls in the past 3 months. But, I have never made it very far past 100 days. I certainly don't want to blow it now. I am getting worried that I might be going into a depression. I am trying to just breath and let go of my anxiety regarding son's court date and trying to convince Mom to come down here. I felt like I was doing a pretty good job. But, for the past couple days, my anxiety is thru the roof. Not worrying about any specific thing, just the feelings in my body - restless, tense, achy. I have been irritable. I have started crying for no reason. So far I haven't even thought about turning to alcohol. Just like it's not even an option. Which is great. Because that was my number one coping mechanism.

I am thinking about taking Antabuse next week so that there is no possible way I can drink if a craving hits. I'll be up at Mom's and hubby won't be around. But, the thing is - I want to do this on my own - without medication. I have been doing it without meds for 3 months. Another thing is that if I really wanted to drink, it doesn't matter if hubby is around or not. I would find a way. I always have the pills with me just in case I would need it. I just have to be sure that I'm strong enough to take the pill if a major craving hits.

Am I being stupid to consider going up there without taking Antabuse?

[Dottie Belle]

Nora will you be able to come here and post if you get the urge??? Do you have some numbers for folks here you can call????
Have a plan in advance might help to....the what if's...
We are here for you.

[abcowboy]

Nora, only you can answer that :hug: You are doing so great, don't let anything stand in your way of continuing, if you need the AB, then use it. It's better than Day 1, and I'm always around for support, FB messenger, or even give me a call if you need to! We're all in this together...