I kind of can't believe I'm alive.

[treetops]

Good advice from Satzy. My partner is grumpy/depressed as well. And it's nothing to do with drinking or not drinking. Just the way he is. Often happens on a Friday night and on the weekends. I try to cope by doing my own stuff. Sometimes I show how fed up I am bit what I'd don't do anymore is drink to deal with it.
Wow hot yoga. The detox and sweating comes with it regardless of whether you drink AL or not. Make sure you have lots of water.
Don't let hubby drag you down. Just distract yourself and you will get through it.

[Choices]

Thanks ladies. I agree. Today is going pretty well. Labour day weekend so pretty busy. I haven't had any pings. We even went out to lunch after visiting some friends and hubby ordered a Coke, but I felt alright if he wanted a beer. So he had one and it didn't bother me and I wasn't jealous. I'm pretty turned off of alcohol. So the thought of it sounded gross. I am loving waking up with a clear head and not feeling bad about myself. I feel pretty done, and over it today. This time I'm not as spooked to be around alcohol so I'm liking how that feels at the moment.

[treetops]

Glad to see that your weekend is going well. I think its important to do things like going out - just as long its not an endurance test for you. And it sounds like you handled being with your hubby having a beer, just fine. He can do that but its a different story for us.
Its great to not feel bad about yourself and that positivity will be infectious I am sure. Pretty dull where I am - me and my daughter have a lot of work to do, so its not really a fun weekend for us. But we will catch up for this later on. My partner has been a lazy grumpy-poo most of the time but I am just trying to ignore him. He also managed to prang the car (and he was sober!).

[Choices]

My kitchen and making meals is more of a test this go around... I did most of my drinking totally alone this time and not much in public. So any meals out of the house are good. We don't really go out at all because of our toddler. Im quite positive and insistent no AL in the house. Just too easy to snap on a mood and impulsively grab one....two... Whatever is there! I don't think I'd mind him having a beer at home.., but wouldn't want any left in the fridge.

Shame about lazy grumpy-poo. Mine has been slipping in and out of that. Thank heavens the All Blacks won... Or I would have daydreamed of getting a hotel for the rest of the weekend.

Tomorrow my daughter and I are meeting a mum friend and her son (same age as mine) for a beach picnic and play. While hanging out with friends I totally forget that I'm struggling. So that's really helping. I just really want more and more distance between me and the scene of the crime. Don't work too hard TT. I would take dull over drama for sure though. Sorry about the car!

[Choices]

I have to say the best part of being sober is waking up. There isn't a much better feeling then waking up and not feeling really bad about myself. Working mentally all morning to talk myself down and up to not break down and cry or scream. Then finally feeling better around 2 pm, only to hit 4 pm and crave alcohol again making myself wait or sometimes not until 5. Staying up past midnight just face booking old haunts, doing nothing really positive or negative just wasting needed rest and sleep. Either running out of alcohol, passing out or blacking out.

[Choices]

3 pm. Productive and enjoyable day. Sunny and feeling like summer. A glass of white wine keeps popping into mind. I don't feel tempted but thought I'd post. Better be safe then sorry. No real emotions piping up. Except happiness. Which is also a trigger. Thinking of tomorrow morning when I can feel proud of myself that I don't drink. It is so worth it. All the good stuff going on right now would fade. Actually I might just be a bit tired. My plan is to wait until hubby gets home from work. And hmm. I've already started dinner... Maybe being in the kitchen is triggering something. Oh well, not to sure but it's a moment and it will pass. No alcohol in the house and no real physical desire.

[treetops]

Sorry I missed this but hope you let it pass. You are doing really well.

[treetops]

Morning Choices. Are you Ok?

Molly - we also have a lot more stir fry now and generally much healthier and fresher food. Kitchens much tidier as well!

[Choices]

Hiya, I'm ok. When hubs got home I took this paddle board out that I bought last year out on very windy and choppy water. It was more trouble then it was worth! But I really needed to get out of the house. I'm good. Feeling a bit tired and 'deep'. So I may go to a movie instead of doing chores while daughter is at school. Dinner is mostly made... Lol... At 11 am.. I think the time I'm thinking about alcohol is a normal end of day fatigue feeling. That's when wine would numb things up and I could still enjoy a task such as cooking etc. Probably for a while.. If I have dinner pretty much done or close.. That is the time I should take my daughter to the beach because the weather is nice. It's nice to be alone today. Or until 2:30. I'm excited to hit the two week mark.

[treetops]

You sound like you have a good plan. It is hard but you have identified the end of the afternoon as your weak time. So if you can spend fun time with your daughter that's a bonus for both of you. And it's great that you can do these things with her. Make the most of being near the beach - sounds like you live nearby.