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ARMY WEEK,,,,,,,,,26th October 2015

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    Originally posted by Guitarista View Post

    NS = 'Sugarbabe' :hahaha:
    Yeah, if I ever get kicked off MWO and need to get a new name, I'm going with the much more lovable Sugarbabe :smile:.

    I think all of your observations about balance are on target, Mr. G. I was thinking about the subject recently re: me. My life is not very balanced at all at the moment due to increased (annoying) work responsibilities and some good (young grandkids) and bad (declining parents) family issues. Furthermore, I'm traveling much more than usual for both work and family. I've not exercised as much as I'd like and not done any of my favorite creative pursuits for months. Being this off-kilter would have been devastating 3 years ago. Today, while I'm not wild about being pushed and pulled and not having much vaunted "me time", I'm handling it. It used to be that when I was under this kind of totally unbalanced stress, I just went for the liquid escape. So, I'm aware of the situation I'm in (and am trying to restore a little balance) but I'm really happy in that I'm no longer breaking under external pressure that I can't control. Time AF restores balance and makes us more able to handle perturbations. Win-win!

    PS Your recent reflections have given me much to think about - thanks for putting them out here :hug:.

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      Originally posted by NoSugar View Post
      Yeah, if I ever get kicked off MWO and need to get a new name, I'm going with the much more lovable Sugarbabe :smile:.

      Being this off-kilter would have been devastating 3 years ago. Today, while I'm not wild about being pushed and pulled and not having much vaunted "me time", I'm handling it. It used to be that when I was under this kind of totally unbalanced stress, I just went for the liquid escape. So, I'm aware of the situation I'm in (and am trying to restore a little balance) but I'm really happy in that I'm no longer breaking under external pressure that I can't control. Time AF restores balance and makes us more able to handle perturbations. Win-win!

      PS Your recent reflections have given me much to think about - thanks for putting them out here :hug:.
      Thanks Babe. :congratulatory:

      Yep, I can see as you say being aware of any internal inbalance is at least a positive. I'm really getting more and more into the detachment from my thoughts vibe, and learning to pause, stop, and step back from any monkey mind chatter or potential stress and panic. Takes a bit of practice, but folks have known this and being doing it to gr8 effect for thousands of years.

      Have a beaut weekend and happy Halloween!

      'I am part of all that I have met, yet all experience is an arch wherethro', gleams that untravelled world whose margins fade, forever and forever when I move'

      Zen soul Warrior. Freedom today-

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        Wow, some good deep thinking here to wake up to.

        All makes so much sense and takes me back to how I used to feel. In control and happy to to be ME! I loved the learning and growing of being sober. I am not sure what stopped. Someone has asked me to write my story of relapse which I think will help me. If it helps one other person that will make me happy.

        This morning I woke with a craving at 4am. Last week was the same and I gave in to it. Drinking whiskey in the early hours. How bad is that????

        So glad this is not me today

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          Good job Starty! (PS - glad you found your avatar )
          "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
          ..........
          AF - 7-27-15

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            Yes Tabbers the manky grundies are back. I though I might wash them but then thought better of it :cuss:

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              Thanks Nora! It aint easy but so very very worth it.

              How are you doing?

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                Morning Starty, tis the nature of the beast me thinks.
                Ethanol is a toxic chemical, why would I drink it?

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                  How do you mean Tabbers?

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                    Haha that was a reply to the 4 am craving, not the manky underpants.
                    Ethanol is a toxic chemical, why would I drink it?

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                      Oh yes!! Still got a bit of a craving but it will move on shortly.

                      How are you doing?

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                        Honestly? I still haven't completely put the bottle down after my latest fall from grace. Not that I am sucking on it 24/7 you understand but I am still allowing it in. I really thought it felt so different this quit around, frustrating in the extreme.
                        Ethanol is a toxic chemical, why would I drink it?

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                          It is good you aren't on it 24/7. I was at the end.

                          How long did you do sober and how did you feel? Any ideas what started it again?

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                            Morning Mollymoo. How is your tummy?

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                              Hmm if I had the answer as to why I always pick up that first drink again I would be halfway there I think. As you know for years I am a serial offender, a month or two here and there feeling fantastic then I decide for various reasons or even reasons unknown that one cold beer or glass of red with a meal would be nice and bang I am straight back to everyday drinking. I think it is the fact that I seldom drink to the stage I feel very drunk is somehow seen as acceptable self limiting in my twisted logic when I am drinking. I talk the talk and can waffle on with the best of them about this subject but when all is said and done I suppose even though I thought I had totally 100% committed to this and wanted it so badly it hurt, somewhere deep in my psyche I can only assume that wasn't the case.
                              Ethanol is a toxic chemical, why would I drink it?

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                                I totally get that Tabbers

                                Are you happy?

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